brainhans, I don’t think I’ve gained since I’ve last measured but you’re right, if I could gain at that rate consistently I’d have it made. Thank you for putting it in perspective.
I do feel I need a bigger penis. I’m honestly quite depressed about my size and I feel lacking and inadequate as a man. With that said, I’ve never had a woman tell me that I’m small. I don’t have any problems pleasing women, in fact I consistently give them experiences the likes of which they’ve never experienced. My stamina has long been good enough to have sex (of any variety) indefinitely (though I find over 3 hours is gratuitous, if you ever find a woman who can take it that long) and I would like to consider myself a skilled lover. I’ve never come across a woman who couldn’t orgasm with me, even if she never had before or doesn’t usually.
Despite the fact that it doesn’t seem to negatively effect my performance, despite the fact that I’ve never been told I’m small, I’ve always been unhappy with and embarrassed about my size. I look at your stats and envy you, wishing that I knew how it feels to be big, to be looked at by a woman as impressive, to have my cock appreciated as something remarkable and irresistible. When I take my pants off I feel like I’ve disappointed them, even if they don’t say it I feel they wanted or expected more and I want more badly than almost anything to know that I am just plain big.
At its core, I think the issue has roots in a pervasive feeling of unworthiness. I think that if I woke up tomorrow with a 7.5 x 5.25 unit (a goal I desperately want to reach, nbp preferably) I would either fear it wasn’t big enough or find another aspect of myself on which to cast my deep seated insecurities.
More important than the size, I think, is the fact that I have the power to change it. If I can prove to myself that I am able, through hard work and consistency, to dramatically alter an aspect of myself that most say is impossible to change, I will be able to look back on my PE journey and apply the skill of accomplishing the “impossible” in other areas of life.
I don’t think that getting a big penis will fix all of my problems. I think that the man I will become in the process is one that doesn’t have those problems.