After an awesome day yesterday and going on towards day eight , my morning was awesome an erection at the click of a finger, strong, hard, horny, very sensitive to the touch. I did an awesome 1 hour edge session, then went and got in the shower. Continuing to edge (as you do when you haven’t come for 8 days) I found a new technique in the shower. Instantly I was on the edge of the point of no return. Feeling cocky because I have had such control over the last 8 days and have put in some long edging sessions, I decided to play on the edge of the ponr in this new masturbating style/position. Very strong good feelings and I hit the ponr about 8 times in 30 seconds. Then with out thinking I took it too far. Spurt spurt spurt. Over the shower wall. I tried as hard as all my mite to hold back all that I could after but the line had been crossed , for the first time in 8 days.
Lessons to learn.
1. I have a new technique to master! In the shower I can hit the ponr very fast , and practice in this danger zone in a new way.
2. My penis is now dull and lifeless, there is no more fun to be had with it , it’s limp and numb. I’ve tried to get the erection but I think I have lost the power, that I’ve enjoyed for the last week.
3. I think that this is real , semen retention. I know that my PE session later will probably be rubbish or I won’t even bother.
4. I’m now tired.
5. I want to see if my interaction with people has changed, or if my motivation for the rest of the day has changed.
6. I have to rebuild my internal sexual energy again, I have no interest at the moment.
Any ways, that’s today’s lesson in penis, body and mind. I’m not going to beat myself up about this as I did push my self a little near the edge allot, I wanted to see if my boundaries have been extended and they have. Which I’m glad about, if I can get the new feelings from shower masturbating under my belt then I wonder what the next level of ponr will be before I shoot my load.
If I can get even stronger sexual/orgasmic currents under control. How will this change my interactions and energy levels in everyday life.