This is my first post on Thunders. I found the site in November 2010 and remember feeling astonished at the possibilities. Part of my motivation at the time was insecurity about my size that was highlighted by the number of previous partners my gf had and wondering whether I measured up. Prior to that I was never overly concerned however still aware that I would like to be bigger, and I always had to be the best at everything. Such is my nature. The sex was good however I never had that feeling of “filling her up” (that almost sounds somewhat crude and crass haha) like I did with previous partners. I took some starting measurements and gave it a half hearted go but due to laziness and privacy issue I gave up, however it was always in the back of my mind.
Fast forward to June this year, when I embarked on my long awaited 3 month tour of Europe. While privacy became even more of an issue, I stopped caring and went for it. My routine is the newbie routine and nothing is holding me back. I have done parts of my routine in train and hostel bathrooms/toilets, friends bathrooms etc, basically I am not fussed anymore and I will tug at my dick any chance I get. In fact I’m lying in bed pe’ing right now. At times when it’s simply not possibly to wet jelq I will use the dry jelq as a substitute, usually I jelq at night and stretch throughout the day due to the inherent simplicity of stretching, ie not having to get hard etc. There’s no doubt in my mind that I’ve already seen progress aside from the usual increase in EQ. Currently I’m at a smidgeon under 6 inch nbpel and 5.5 inch girth, however using a different measuring implement so will check when I get home to confirm the accuracy. My goal is the classic 8x6 however any progress will spur me on and I will see just how far I can take this. Moderation was never my strong point.
Ultimately I’m after a weapon, I am confident I will make progress and I put 100% in every pull / jelq. I am conscious I have to make improvements in other aspects of my life however and I know the approach of working from the outside in isn’t ideal and in an ideal world there would be no need for pe and we would all be happy with what we had. I know that at my current size I am not small however I am a big muscular guy and my flaccid, unless fluffed, is nothing to write home about, especially since I have thick muscular thighs. While I would love to be one of those guys that do not care about their size and have that inner unshakeable confidence when it comes to chicks, and come to think of it all other aspects of life, I am trying to address the symptoms from outside and so far it seems to be working.
I’ve become a borderline obsessive pe’r but if that’s what it takes then so be it. Onward.