Hey guys, thanks for the advice and words of encouragement. My girlfriend didn’t tell me in malice, she simply finally revealed the truth. She was actually quite hurt seeing my reaction. I did leave one part out of the story. That night, she finally let go and the sex was actually pretty good. The thing is, given my damaged state at the time, I couldn’t fully enjoy it without the incessant questions, “is she faking? What changed? Am I enough? Is she actually enjoying this?” I wasn’t in a place comfortable enough to truly talk about it yet, but the conversation will definitely be happening.
And believe me, this is for me. I actually became familiar with jelqing when I was 14 years old (I’m 31 now). At one point as a teen, I even asked my doctor when my dick was going to grow. So believe me when I say, this has been a long standing issue with me.. It’s just that this time, it’s actually affected my sex life and relationship. I had already purchased the PE equipment I mentioned before she and I even met. This experience was just a swift kick in the ass to be serious about it.
Also, I’m not a complete novice to PE. I used to jelq regularly, but I need to devote my time to other things; hence I’ve opted to use hands off methods so I can work while extending. Given what’s been said though, I may incorporate 20 minutes of jelqing into my routine. As far as pumping, I definitely overdid it but honestly, I think it may have worked, since I’ve gone from 4.5 to 5 girth; I’m just not confident in my original measurement. And to be clear, the 5” is permanent now. I went almost two months without any PE exercises and have maintained 5”. However, if I measured wrong when I was 4.5”, this is a moot point. Time will tell. I’m keeping track now.
When time allotted, I was able to do 3-5 hrs of extending in a day. My HOPE is that mixing in pumping, ring and yes jelqing, I’ll be able to see results fairly quickly.
As far as the relationship questions, the reason why she didn’t end things before IS because of my brain. Seriously, outside of the bedroom, we couldn’t ask for anything more. We both agreed - before she dropped the bomb - that sex was our “final frontier”. I’m hoping after I’ve healed a bit and spoke candidly about it, things will improve and she’ll continue to let go and actually let me “go to work”.
I admit my goal is lofty and I already know I’m not likely to hit it, however, by setting the lofty goal, I’m going to be that much more serious about maintaining the routine. The only way I have any hope of seeing any sort of increase is through consistent exercise. I will be safe above all else. If it gets painful or I start having a hard time getting/maintaining an erection, I’ll stop and heal. I’m going to push.. But I’m going to push SAFELY.