My first post here though I’ve been lurking for a few months.
I’m naturally 7.5 x 5. I always knew I was above average lengthwise but thought I was thin in girth (until recently when I found the forum and realized my girth is slightly above average as well). I’m only 5’6 tall and until recently, have always been very skinny. So my dick looked even bigger than it was.
About 15 years ago a girl I was dating who always bragged about my dick size to our friends made a comment that another mutual friend she hooked up with had a “short but really thick” dick. The way she said it I got the feeling that she really enjoyed the girth.
About 10 years ago I got Peyronies. Besides the excruciating pain I experienced for a year every time I got a boner, and the slight curve that it caused, I lost half an inch in length, bringing me down to 7 x 5. After I recovered from the pain and emotional/mental distress I still felt that I had an overall larger than average dick and always considered myself a giving and passionate lover, so I moved past the .5 loss and went forth
About 5 years ago an ex-girlfriend made a comment that I was “long and thin” which, in my mind, confirmed my belief that I was still longer than average but had less than average girth.
About 4 months ago I became involved with a girl who’s just off the charts beautiful. Her body is just unreal. It looks like someone drew her. And her face, so, so gorgeous. The next thing I say, I don’t say to brag, truly it is not the case. It’s just to further my point. I’ve been with over 50 women, many of them extremely attractive though admittedly some were beasts! Haha. The number of girls I’ve slept with is nothing compared to some guys on here but you can see that I’ve had my share of sexual experience. I have never, not once, ever had a complaint from a girl and almost always receive compliments, both on performance and dick size. This often has led to a females friends hearing about things and then wanting to find out for themselves. My point here, is that I’ve always been extremely confident due to my experiences and never considered PE. I thought it was ridiculous. But that recently changed.
The woman I started seeing recently is not only stunningly beautiful she’s also older than me and has had many more sexual partners than I. With me being at 50+, that’s saying something. That was brand new for me, I’ve always been the one with more partners. That, plus the age difference, plus her beauty, I started to feel like there was nothing I could do that she hasn’t already experienced. Due to that thinking, started to experience mild ED. Another first for me! Making it worse was that when we’d have sex she didn’t make much noise. Again, another first. Usually the women would go nuts. Since she didn’t make much noise I started to think I wasn’t pleasing her. Which worsened the ED. Then while drunk she told me of a guy she hooked up with who’s dick was so big that it tore her vaginal lining so bad she had to go the emergency room. Well that did my head right in. I started thinking well of course I’m not pleasing her, she’s been with a guy who’s dick split her in two! In the past I assumed girls had been with guys both larger and smaller than me and I never cared. But with this girl, I cared and I was all fucked up. The ED, the feeling of not pleasing her, thinking she’s seen it all, my loss of half an inch from Peyronies, her being with a monster dicked dude, and all of it causing further ED. Vicious cycle.
Thus, I looked for ways to get and stay hard and looked up kegels. Which somehow led to a study that found a slight restoration to length for Peyronie’s sufferer’s by using a penis pump. Then I looked up info on pumps which led me to Thunders. I thought it was all bullshit but wanted to increase my girth so stayed and read everything.
From there I started the newbie routine and also added pumping to hopefully restore some length.
I felt a bit empowered knowing I was working on growing my dick, which helped the ED. Also, the Kegels helped as well. Then my flaccid was noticeably bigger. Again, helping mentally with ED. Also, this whole experience caused me to pay even further attention to my girls reactions during sex so I alter my movements, strokes, etc, more than I ever have, and now she makes the noises my ego needed, haha. Furthermore, I’m back to feeling like a sexual tyrannosaurus as we now are having tons of sex, weekdays about 2x a day, and weekends 4-6x times a day.
Also, she deserves credit. I told her about being anxious to please her (didn’t tell everything else though) thus my problem with getting it up/staying hard and she was incredibly sweet about it and understanding. Which also helped ease my nerves a bit, improving the ED.
Now that I’ve started PE though, I don’t want to stop as I’ve already seen a gain of 1/16 in girth in about a months time of jelqing. The increase has nothing to do with bad measurements or differing EQ levels, so I’m incredibly psyched. I’d love to get back to 7.5 length and increase girth to 5.5 so will continue on.
Whew, that was a long post!