Luckily, I haven’t heard those 4 words. But I’m sure that’s because I have only been with my wife. Here’s my path to PE..
I’ve always known I was below average. I played 2 years of football in high school and while I wasn’t the smallest in the locker room, there were many more larger. The funny thing is, that never bothered me much and I didn’t think much about it. Women on the other hand..
My first serious girlfriend and I were together for 1.5 years or so in high school. She didn’t want to have sex because her mom had her when she was 17. I was fine with that, we did plenty of other things. We broke up because we were drifting apart. But later, I found out there was another part. There was an ugly (not exaggerating), short, big-headed (the one on shoulders) guy in her gym class that would get a boner in class, outline it with his hands against his gym shorts, and call her name to look. According to her friends, she would laugh, blush, and turn away. According to her friends, he could “touch his hips with no hands” if you know what I mean. She’s dating this guy a week later.
After I get over her, I started to date a girl on the drum-line in band with me. Yes, I played in the band, more on that later. Anyway, she’s pretty aggressive and I’m thinking I’ll finally lose my virginity. So I go to her house. We’re playing a little “one-on-one” basketball in her driveway. I’m getting hard guarding her, she’s into it, so we start to go back to her house. Then her older brother shows up out of the blue from work. Cock blocked. So I’m thinking oh well, the chance will come up again. A week later, she’s acting weird and I press to find out why. Wasn’t expecting this, but our drum instructor took her home one night because she didn’t have a ride after band practice. Yadda-yadda-yadda, she ends up fucking him. Why? As she explained it, they were just playing around, but she brushed his crotch and it was so ENORMOUS. She didn’t mean to go that far. I quit band. I decided to play football again.
By this time, my confidence is shaken. I dated some more girls, but I noticed that I only stayed with the inexperienced girls. Most did not want to have sex yet. So I enter college as a virgin.
Freshmen year went by with no hits and it’s starting to piss me off. I know it’s a confidence problem. I can’t do much about it. I started a summer intern job and by that time, I’m desperate. I’m dating a not-too attractive intern, but hell, maybe I’ll score. But before that happens,
I meet my very attractive future wife! She’s also an intern and maybe it’s seeing me with the not-so-attractive girl, but she’s on the hunt now. She won easily. I lose my virginity to her in an embarrassing minute or two. I could sense the disappointment, but at this time I’m thinking, “Yeah, that was too quick.” The next time we have sex she cums and has slight look of disbelief. She tells me later, she had never cum until then. For the next year through college and more internships, we proceed to fuck like bunnies. I was a quick learner, and she rarely failed to cum. There were weekend visits where we only came out of the bedroom for food! We’re also falling in love with each other and I eventually ask her to marry me.
I learn some things along the way, such as, she’s only been with one guy — her ex of 2 years in high school. I cannot stand not knowing, so I ask THE dumb question. Here’s a sampling of her answers through the years in somewhat chronological order:
- I don’t know *blush*
- You’re a perfect fit for me
- Maybe just a little bit
But when I asked it in a different way, “Could you stack your fists on him?” Answer? Yes. Hmmm, can’t do that with my 5.5” dick!
I’ve actually met her ex. He and a friend of his helped moved my future sister-in-law. I know, weird. I ended up in the same car as them on one of the moving trips. He’s a pretty cool guy that talks and laughs a bunch. For some reason, he was telling a funny story about a high coach they nicknamed “Long Don Silver” for obvious reasons. His friend starts to say, “Yeah, well you’re pretty.” but the ex backhands his friend across the chest and shushes him. I die inside. I guess that explains why my wife was always a little looser than the girls I’ve been with before.
Back to the wife, we were fucking like bunnies for that first year, and then, it stops. Out of the blue. After that, we might have sex 1-2 times a month. I am thoroughly confused. I’m pretty sure she’s not cheating on me (she’s kind of clingy), but the sex stops. She says she’s scared of getting pregnant. Should be better when we’re married then.
Except it isn’t. We’ve been married for 10 years now and probably 8 of those 10 have been disappointing sexually. We had sex maybe 4 times during our honeymoon. The first year was ok. We may have had sex 2 times a week. After that, I’m lucky for once a week. Most of the time it was twice a month. That’s right, you could almost count on your fingers and toes how many times I had sex in a year. After our first kid, the sex falls off drastically. Maybe once a month. It’s not for trying. I probably get rejected 14 of the 15 times I try. I just gave up and stop trying.
She’s noticed and she come to her own realization of what she’s been doing to me. Over the past year, she’s made an effort to have more sex. She even initiates it every once in awhile! Here’s the thing though. Throughout our marriage, when we do have sex, it’s fantastic. She cums every time. Sometimes twice. And no, I don’t think she’s faking. I’ve been watching for that. So what gives? Why would someone not want to do something they seem to enjoy?
My opinion, I think she needs more size. She’s given birth to two good size babies. It was loose to start with but now, it’s worse. She’s shy about talking anything sex, so when she asked me if it was different after the 2nd baby, that’s a big deal. I didn’t lie and gently told her it was.
Other indicators:
- She orgasms best with deep penetration positions. Riding on top and grinding. Missionary with legs in the air. Doggy style.
- She likes it best when I grab her ass cheeks and squeeze, putting more pressure on the sides of my cock. If I don’t, she doesn’t cum as easily
- We can’t do many other positions because I’m not long enough
- She likes the A-spot. Verified with my fingers.
- I heard, “It’s too wet” too many times.
So my goal? Gain some size to see if it makes a difference. Even if our sex life doesn’t improve, at least I’ll be happy jacking off a bigger cock!