Buckfever's General Progress Log

12/17/2024

Fast edge

Weight: 181.2@19.1%
Hit the grocery store, so pretty well stocked up with what I need. was tight to the meal plan yesterday. Short term here just want to get under 180 as we put in the strength training.

Yesterday activity level: Nothing unfortunately, at least the Wed, Fri and Sun mornings are designated toward fitness. Wed the weather looks good so we’ll hit the weights and get a hike in.

Work is showing year end seasonal choppiness but we’re busy, so I can’t complain and the next month I have a lot of days off.

Still this feeling that I am surrounded by children. What the fuck has happened to society, so fragile, so much noise has become the norm. I’m empathic but man what an unproductive coping mechanism. Man just feel a little pain and get sad or angry and have it fuel you to do something.

Navigating in a sea of oblivion.

Hey Buck,

Nice approach coupling physical helath with PE. What is your height if you don’t mind me asking, trying to guage your proportions based on weight. —I’m a formerly carded bodybuilder :) |

PS. I’ve found the best results at thirty minutes at 6inhg then thirty minutes again at 6Inhg, one in a 1.75 tube for length then a 2in tube for girth that way I stretch the tunica after hanging, then increase girth up past 6in for EQ purposes for the evenings events. I stopped caring about dots and such a long time ago the first time someone I was with said my unit was one half bbc the last half bwc lol. In time it just becomes more pretty and virile looking.

@fuzzbird

5’ 10" I used to weigh 202 and would squat 405 for 4 sets of 4 and drop down to 315 for a set of 12 ass to grass. Natural. I’m old now those days are over, but there are some good genetics to work with so we’ll see over six months. Even at this age I think I can progress as long as I move up slowly and don’t get hurt.

12/18/2024

Fast edge - great response.

Nocturnal erections have markedly increased - I think that’s good. I’m thinking getting some blood in there primes the pump. Clearly not sexually active enough and entirely on me.

"why so serious?"

Tapered cylinders should be here soon.

Weight: 181.4@19.1%

Yesterday activity level: Nothing

Had a lb of 93% lean sirloin yesterday 680 calories and 92 grams of protein. Contrast that to 85% lean 2/3 of a lb 640 calories and only 56 grams of protein. I need the lean protein sources to get the protein and not go over on the calories. I’m not counting calories, just establishing the meal plan with the right foods and sticking with it.

Right now I’m just committed to the 3 mornings of working out doing 4 movements and hammering the meal plan. With the upcoming days off from work I will get more days in. I just don’t want to gain weight on the days I’m not working out.

Yesterday work was a mother fucker. We saw fuck you levels of success as well as disappointment. I do not like when the team falls short. Praise the successes try to correct and minimize the failures.

Back in ancient times, they used to overfeed mice and then measure the difference in weight over time. Mouse and human physiology were close enough, or so it was thought then.

Later, the FDA began allowing "estimates" of calorie counts for foods. That’s why, in the 1970s and 1980s, the old established tables (which might not have been correct to start with) faded away as many new, different tables came out, which didn’t agree with the old tables, or each other, for that matter. By a *lot*, sometimes.

The current method is to consider the elements carbon, hydrogen, oxygen, and nitrogen. The vendor is allowed to arrange them any way they want, and then arbitrarily assign a calorie count to them. So they can now "scientifically" derive calorie counts for asphalt, plywood, kale, or other non-food items.

Basically, the calorie counts are (optimistically) guesses, and (likely) outright lies.

While the above may sound bizarre, it’s from the FDA’s own web site, circa 2010-ish.

12/18/2024

1.75"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 3.75hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 3.75 hg

3.75 = 6 notches

Tube down length position: 17.7cm
Pack: 9.3 cm

Tapered tube very tight at the base hope it doesn’t cause a wound. Definitely packs more we’ll see the impact on darkening.

12/19/2024

1.75"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 4.375hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg

4.375 = 7 notches

Tube down length position: 17.8cm
Pack: 9.6 cm

I did not notice any discoloration increase this morning from yesterdays session so took the pressure to one notch short of 5 which previously had shown consistent expansion over time. Though that observed progress had occurred with 3 X 5 minute sessions with a 2 minute rest. I did not want to go there as this tapered tube does not have a lip and is digging into the ligaments at the top of the base. And I’m not sure if I want to explore longer duration or higher pressure at this point.

Right now I want to keep it here and see what happens with the discoloration issue and if this tapered tube helps with that.

I asked @benji22 about which tapered cylinder he was using and he informed: "Stallion Mustang" cylinder off eBay"

I bought both the 1.75" and the 2" cylinders as well as their pump as I wanted to make sure it was complete and would give me every chance that it would work as previous attempts at tapered cylinders resulted with quick fractures of the tubes. In addition the shipping from the UK was high so I wanted once and done.

I found the actual hand pump they provided to be flimsy and while it worked it did not seem as precise as the brake bleeder pumps we use with the Leluv system. So I cut the tube and installed a spare brake bleeder pump.

I did try the nipple from the Leluv and it did not work. FYI

Weight: 181 @ 18.9%
Meal plan is on point now. I could eat less, but not sure I need to.

Yesterday activity level:
2.75 mile bike ride and 1.75 mile hike with a moderate pack. Did not do as much as I wanted because having replaced the flat tire the day before discovered that the new bike tube also had a flat and had to run to Walmart buy a replacement and install that. So that delayed me. It’s been decades I think since I’ve replaced a bike tube. I’m better at it now having done 2 in succession. Also on the hike I wound up getting on a track and was communicating in real time with a buddy of mine and taking pictures and documenting. Wound up taking the better part of the day. It was a lot of fun and it was good to get out of my head still feeling smashed from the previous days work.

While it will be busy with the holidays I have a lot of days off in the next 3 weeks we should get rolling real well with the workouts.

I think that is an issue. I think in general choosing leaner protein sources and moving away from calorie rich highly processed foods, makes it a lot easier. But I don’t get perplexed by it, if the food choices are good and I’m not losing weight, I’m eating too much, so I take something away or reduce the amounts. I do think the use of a food scale would shock most people in what it reveals.

Yep, the good old experimental method!

12/20/2024

1.75"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 4.375hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg

4.375 = 7 notches

Tube down length position: 17.9 cm
Pack: 9.1 cm

A little less packing a hair more length. That tube is tight at the base, far from fully seating. And I forgot to lube the inside of the tube. Definite pressure at the base by the ligaments but no wound formation so far. Discoloration appears to be in check.

Weight: 181.8 @ 19.1%
I still have some of the higher fat protein sources and it was the only thing that was thawed, so the intake for sure was not on point yesterday. Plus the higher fat content does not sit well with me. I almost feel like getting rid of it but that seems like a waste. I’ll make it a cleaner day today.

Yesterday activity level: Nothing and really no excuse. Driving the girl around.

Off today and I let it be known that I am not available in the morning. We will get the 4 movements in today starting at 6:30. No 1 priority.

I need to work on logistics for the holidays here because while I have time off, I’ll need to proactively preserve time for workouts.

I’ve been encouraged to partake in some more outdoor activities, but I’ve pushed back and I’ve explained that I need to get in shape.

And still in a constant state of overwhelm, pushing the sex drive aside. That is not a good balance at least I am aware. I am not used to not being in shape it is having a mental toll on me for sure.

Should be a chill day today though, maybe I can relax enough to have some fun.

Todays work:

Deadlift: `140lb X 15 X 7 sets
Weighted pushups 20lb vest: 8,10,10,8,8,8,8
T-bar Rows: 80lbs X 15 X 7 sets
Bicep Curls 55lbs X 7 X 7 sets

Light weights and will progress slowly.

Plowed through the whole thing took a little over 90 minutes. Conditioning is lacking. There will be a workout A and B that I will alternate. 3-4 times a week, mostly 3, this will be a priority.

12/21/2024

1.75"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 4.375hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg

4.375 = 7 notches

Tube down length position: 17.9 cm
Pack: 10.1 cm

Length was the same although it was lagging until the third round. The packing was well ahead of the previous session.

I thought about whether to stick with 2 sessions and progress with the pressure or go back to 3 sessions. Given that we previously saw progression with the 3X5 minute protocol I decided to go with that. Not sure that we will see the same progression with the tapered tube although I suspect when we eventually get to the 2" tube we will.

It just strikes me that this should be similar to what we see with the traction that we should progress with the lightest load until there is a plateau before moving up. Too much anecdotal evidence of those being overzealous early, hitting a wall quickly.

So while I do want to test the 2 X 5 minute protocol at 200mm/hg. Best I can figure that would be best explored after any available expansion is realized with the lighter pressures.

EQ is excellent, no darkening. It should not take long to fully pack the shaft in the 1.75" tapered tube and then we’ll see what progression in length occurs. Once that plateaus either straight to the 2" tapered tube or a staging protocol.

Weight: 181.8 @ 18.9%

We have a long way to go but the body is already looking better. Need to be leaner, bigger and stronger. And I should fit in some aerobics but honestly not sure I will, the strength training is the priority. So many holiday events upcoming, just have to get the workouts in.

12/22/2024

1.75"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 4.375hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg

4.375 = 7 notches

Tube down length position: 17.7 cm
Pack: 10.3 cm

I little less length a little more packing. Tapered tube being packed more is alleviating the discoloration issue so far. Will it diminish progress on expansion? We will see. I suspect progression will be slower.

Incorporating the bed fowfers to keep the stretch on the base ligaments.

Weight: 182.6 @ 19.2%

I have to watch the weight too many holiday events.

Yesterday activity level: Nothing. Worked and had a Christmas event.

It’s going to be choppy, I’ll do better on the days without functions but it is a packed week and a half. I’ll try to tuck something in today.

12/23/2024

1.75"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 4.375hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg

4.375 = 7 notches

Tube down length position: 18 cm
Pack: 10.5 cm

More length and packing. Woke up with a raging hard on wondering if I entered the tube fuller. Definitely more pressure at the ligaments at the base we’ll have to watch that. The immediate post session discoloration we were experiencing is not there with this tube.

Weight: 183.6 @ 19.3%

3 functions in 2 days and I failed on controlling the intake. Partly I think I’m bloated the prosciutto was particularly salty and i did not push water.

Yesterday activity level:

Pullups: 4,4,4
Overhead press:
50X20, 60X15, 65X15
Upright rows:
55X15.10.10

Only had a few minutes between functions so did the bare minimum. I did try to leave the morning function and drop down into the cellar for a workout and was roundly chastised by the guests insisting on my presence. It’s fine I have a long day of work today and then I’m off for 3 days and will have the mornings to myself. Unfortunately there are 6 functions in the next 10 days so no real reprieve till then. But at least there will be some time for workouts.
Still very unhappy about the weight, trying to minimize the damage through this period.

Happy about the raging wood and the expansion in the tube. But being so far from the physical condition that I seek is gnawing at me.

I need more time for physical fitness, I will have it soon.

12/24/2024

1.75"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 4.375hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4.375 hg

4.375 = 7 notches

Tube down length position: 18.1 cm
Pack: 10 cm

Maybe a hair more length and for sure less packing. I would say less expansion than yesterdays robust session. Less pressure at the ligaments at the base.

Weight: 182.8 @ 19.1%

Yesterday we were on point with the meal plan and while there is a function today it does not involve food so we’ll be on point again today, to gain back some ground before the 2 functions tomorrow. Thinking protein and salad as the strategy for tomorrow.

Yesterday activity level: Nothing. Was blown out at work and am still having staffing issues with scheduling. Not sure why anyone would reveal excess drinking as a point of pride. Something neurotic there. Ended with scheduling a 9 and a half hour day of clients almost immediately after I told her not to. Friday I will have her reschedule the last appointment. A business partner fucking up a relationship again with another mistake, I had to pull in someone from else from another team to take the lead and at this point I’m not sure I can salvage it. I didn’t even bring it up to the original team leader as while they want to enter the space I’m not sure they have the competence. And they for sure don’t seem to understand that there is a limited well of forgiveness, especially when they don’t have any relational equity they can cash in on to begin with.

I am told all the time that I have to let things go that are out of my control. Which is so special since I’m the one called in to fix their fuckups. Excellence be damned I guess.

Okay 3 days off plan to workout strong every morning. Maybe some fun too? All work and no play….