Guilty Spark's Atypical Log

Damn. Assuming an inch in around a year (and that may be generous), it could take me two years or more to hit that 8 inch mark. Here’s hoping I gain more quickly than that.

I absolutely hate how the longer you go without doing PE, the more girth fades away. On Mondays when I’ve rested for the weekend and am about to start up PE again, it’s almost like I’ve gained nothing. Although my EQ is pretty much non-existent right now. Tried to get hard. Couldn’t get hard all the way. I’ve gotten used to having an orgasm once a week, and I think my body just expects to have no arousal the day after. It could also have something to do with being tired from work. I honestly have no idea.

Was able to get mostly hard. Pretty sure a tiny bit of girth gain was there, but most of the plump I had through the week is gone. It seems like it’s really going to take awhile to achieve and cement gains.

There comes a time I think in the PE journey of every man when every time he does girth work, his penis looks huge. I believe that time has come for me, and I couldn’t be more excited or happy. I know that much of it is temporary expansion, but in time, that will cement into permanent gains. I think 6 girth is well within my reach. For length I hope I can reach 7. If I’m really lucky 8. I think I’ll be reluctantly okay with 7 and anything beyond that I can get if 8 is not possible.

Today I got an unintended but very dramatic demonstration regarding the difference between good and poor EQ.

A few hours before I did PE, I tried getting hard. Was having trouble getting to max hardness. My thinking is it was a combination of being tired from work, and penis fatigue from exercising.

Eventually I got to what I thought was mostly hard. The thickness disappointed me, and I began to feel discouraged.

It would be one thing if I had just started, but I’m at nearly three months. I figure it’s about time something stuck.

Right before PE I decided to try again. I don’t know what happened, but my horny switch had been flipped. I got crazy hard. The thickness was shocking good considering I had just taken a rest day.

Onward! That pornstar dick will be mine in time!

The end of next week will mark three months since I started PE again. In just three months I have seen a fairly dramatic change. Thickness is noticeably increased, and I’m definitely longer. While I have not measured girth, I did measure length recently. Six inches. A bit disappointing considering I thought I was so much longer than before. I was not even at the upper end of average. Well over the next three months, I hope to be at 6.5 or so. I’d be delighted with 7, but I doubt I could grow that quickly. Girth I think will be monstrous by the time I decide to call it quits. I’m aiming for 6 girth minimum. More is a bonus.

Was thinking back to a time long ago. It was a time when I was probably too young to be looking at naughty stuff on the internet. I had found and printed out a picture of a woman being stretched by a massive cock. I think maybe that was when I started being conscious of size. It looked so erotic. I remember wishing I could be that big. Well now, many many years later, that picture, young as I was, still leaves an impression on me. It’s absolutely nuts, and thrilling at the same time to think that I might actually be able to get that big. It’s like a dream come true.

Found an old dick pic from years ago. Decided I’d try replicating it. The result? It looked pretty much the same, in spite of my increased size! Photos really are tricky. The angle, lighting, and probably other things I’m not thinking about can really affect the appearance. It seems the best way to show a difference using photos is having a truly massive size increase. Otherwise measuring tools are the way to go.

Tonight’s session was fucking horrible. Earlier in the day I was sure I would have a good one, and I might have had I done it earlier, but I think I made a few fatal mistakes.

1. Waited too long. I had some things I wanted to get done earlier in the day, and so I prioritized them.

2. Had a pizza.

3. Had coffee.

There’s a lot of sugar in pizza crust. Also, pizza isn’t really that substantial as foods go. I chose something I wanted to eat for the taste rather than food that had more substance to it. Big mistake. I also had coffee because I was tired after work and felt like I was about to fall asleep. The coffee had creamer in it (more sugar). I believe the lack of substantive food, plus the sizeable amount of sugar caused my body to run low on fuel and crash. I was having trouble staying hard, doing the jelqs was causing my arms to ache due to the effort, and at 90 jelqs, I could no longer stimulate my penis without orgasm. 90 jelqs, out of the 300 I wanted to do. I suppose it’s better than nothing, but it’s a far cry from what I really wanted.

From now on, if I’m going to have pizza for dinner on a PE day, I think I ought to do the exercises not long after finishing the pizza, and I most definitely ought to avoid coffee, no matter how tired I feel. Better to just power through the tiredness. Today was the completion of three months doing PE too. What a way to end my first three months! Well, I know what not to do for next time.

I have a triumphant update to my last post!

After the disappointment of the failed PE session, I went and got something to eat, for no other reason really than wanting to feel better. A few hours later, I realized that I felt just horny enough to try again in spite of the previous orgasm, so I grabbed my rice sock, popped it in the microwave, did a warm up, and got to it.

I am happy to report that after some persuasion, my dick woke up, and I was able to finish out the remaining 210 jelqs. Very happy to have reached my three month mark on a high note!

Speaking of high notes, I seem to have gained significantly in just three months. After each session, my penis looks monstrously thick. I haven’t measured, but I’d guess 6 girth or even more in its exercised state, and I continue to gain length as well. If this is the result of three months, then I simply cannot wait to see the results of six!

Getting into PE has definitely made me interested in other men’s dicks. Specifically men with large ones. The interest isn’t sexual. It’s more curiosity than anything else. I can’t help being jealous. Nature just handed these men huge penises on a silver platter. I did not measure before getting my first gains with PE, but I do know that there was a time afterward that I actually thought I had made it to seven long. Measured and it was only around 5.5. I don’t know how much length I gained before that, but it must have been very little, or I must have been abysmally average. To even approach these guys, I have to work and work and work for every little bit of gain. It’s frustrating. I do know this; if I ever reach my size goals, I’m going to appreciate it a lot more than men who were born with it.

It is my belief that due to the fact I was not doing PE for so long, my ability to gain was essentially reset. I seem to be gaining at a rapid rate at the moment, and I think the way I am doing it is contributing to that speed. Let me tell you what I mean.

I began with the newbie routine and slowly ramped up over a period of six weeks. The secret is that my actual sessions got more intense, but my schedule didn’t. I know some guys will train and train with very few rest days, or they will go many consecutive days without resting, and if that works for them great. My concern though is over training and stalling gains. I currently do 10 minutes of stretching and 300 slow, intense jelqs. I only do PE Mon Tue Thu Fri. That rest day in the middle of the week I feel is very important for keeping my penis from getting over fatigued. The weekends I take off are, I believe, essential. At the end of some weeks, my dick feels totally beaten to hell, and it needs those two days of the weekend (realistically three days since I start PE again Monday night) to rest and heal and prepare for the next week. I guess you could say it’s a sort of less is more approach. I certainly don’t want to stall gains, and I want to gain as much as possible with manual exercises before even considering dealing with the annoyance of clamps or weights.

Every week on Monday night when I get home from work, and I try to get hard to see where I’m at, I get the unwelcomed reminder that a lot of the size I get so excited about during the week is temporary. It takes about three days, but eventually a lot of it fades away. I think some of it is also poor EQ if I’m being honest. At the end of a hectic work day I’m always tired, and my penis doesn’t like to respond. Going to have some food, rest, and try getting hard again. Usually after I’ve had something to eat and some time to rest, my penis is more responsive.

Sounds like you have a stressful work life. Do you take any supplements? In my opinion, EQ is more essential than growth itself. There is a saying here too that sex is more important than PE itself. If I were to be holistic about this, i believe PE isn’t means to an end. If a hot colleague went down on you at end of day would she be disappointed your having trouble when duty calls? (Only in porn that situation happens). Im not saying quit your job, im just saying find out why you’re too exhausted that you can’t even get it hard. At least leave something in your tank. Take breaks, make work manageable, do something creative and for yourself. Make it relatively fulfilling.

Hi 2buck. Thanks for the reply. It’s not mental stress. It’s physical exhaustion. My job is very physical, and today was pretty nuts.

I’ve been taking L-Arginine for better erections in hopes that better EQ would aid in gains. Erections do seem to be better, but I’m not 100% certain.

Tonight was actually a disaster. I got to 70 jelqs. Then I couldn’t stimulate my penis at all without orgasm. Unlike on Friday when this happened, I don’t have the luxury of waiting a few hours and trying again. I have work tomorrow. I’m not sure why I am suddenly orgasming during jelqing, but it’s really frustrating. Hoping this doesn’t happen again, as I’ve been 100% consistent with my workouts for 3 months straight, and this failure is very discouraging.