Possible minor injury

I wanted to update this thread. After all this time, it seems I’m finally starting to make some real progress. I’ve done the DMSO and iodine treatment a few times. I did DMSO by itself several times. There has been modest improvement in the overall pliability of the scar tissue over time and less pain. Lately, using quality emo oil has been helping soften the scar. The trick it using it generously and frequently throughout the day. I managed to come off all those drugs too some time ago. I’m pretty much normal again but being on benzos and some of those other drugs damaged my CNS, hopefully not permanently.

Lately I use something called kratom. I don’t take any other substances except caffeine and small amounts of cannabis sometimes. Kratom is not something I plan on doing daily forever. I need to put it in its place but it helps right now. All those pills I was on made me mentally ill combined with the injury, I’m very lucky to have survived. But I did. I made it. I’m still recovering but things seem more hopeful. I’ve been able to pump again at low pressures and do some manual hand clamping while jacking. I can do lots of jacking again too if I want but it gets old.

It really is early to tell what will happen because it is only my second time pumping but I was able to go two days in a row and there is no pain that is that bothersome. Some pain is to be expected and is not an issue. I accept my injury more now. But pain dictates if I move forward or not. Not really sure how the injury happened exactly but it is what it is and I want to move forward. There is a small scar in my glans that looks like a little tear, it almost looks like a tiny vagina in appearance.

I don’t enjoy my size though. It is so thin these days. The glans especially, where the injury is. I don’t want to hate my penis anymore. I’m under 5eg these days too which is really disturbing considering how big I used to be. I’m thinner than I was before I did PE too. I think I’m around 4.8eg in the thickest part. My glans is basically 4eg. It’s always been small. I think I got my glans up to 5eg when I was in my prime though. Will I ever see those days again with this injury? Not sure if it is possible and I’m afraid to do anything extreme. And I’m long at around 7” nbpel. I haven’t had sex since the injury happened too. Just hoping some of the people who remember me can give me some positive vibes and wish me luck. It’s good to be back. I’ll be careful this time. Real careful. I may not be able to get huge but whatever. The trick with PE now is I will have to work around this scar tissue. I don’t want to experience that pain again though it isn’t worth it, I rather just have a thin penis and fap the rest of my life.

Pleased to hear life is better for you Clubber. Keep it up man.

Thanks FG. So, I’ve been pumping a little bit. Keeping it below 5mmHg at around 30 minutes…..and after, I’m doing some manual clamping and some dry jelqs at medium intensity. Nothing crazy. I even tried clamping for a minute or two at a light intensity with no pain. Before pumping, I warmed up using hot water in the cylinder for about 20 minutes letting the scar tissue soften up a little. I am water pumping with a little epsom salts and wrapping a heating pad around the cylinder. So far everything is good.

It even seems as if this is going to remodel this scar by ultimately breaking down the scar tissue and making the scar more pliable. I’ve been thinking about this for years and have pictured how it will heal this way and set the intention. It is going to work. I just need to ease my way into it and gradually increase the intensity but eventually I should be able to do a regular routine again and get intense enough to make gains in girth. Hopefully, now that I will never overdo anything again and am genuinely terrified by re-injuring myself, PE actually works out this time for me with some consistency and patience.

I just want confidence and to feel good enough to ask a girl out some day if that’s what I actually want. I almost prefer being alone to an extent but I am tired of masturbating. I feel like sex is a big part of my life that is missing and it isn’t fair to myself to feel this down and out over size. I need to get over it some how. The main issue I have is the glans is only 4eg….the part of my penis that is injured and that I have to be extra careful with too which worries me. And below the glans is only 4.5eg which then becomes around 4.8-4.9 at the thickest point in the middle.

With my 8 bpel it just looks really unappealing to me. I just don’t feel good about the shape and overall volume. The shape is something that I have to accept though. I can’t have a whitezilla mushroom tip and need to get over that. I have always let my 4eg glans prevent me from even wanting a girlfriend. It makes me feel like a little boy. It’s ridiculous how I’m so affected by something that is out of my control. My concerns started after some negative feedback I got from a few girls as a younger man. Some girl called it long and thin after seeing it semi erect/flaccid. It is the reason why I started doing PE and became so aggressive and eager to get quick results.

When I first joined this forum I was just starting Suboxone too for the first time (was on/off several times) and really addicted to porn. I really didn’t like who I was back then either. I was a joke.

Wanted to update, that there seems to be more to my injury than I realized. Or it is possible that a new injury has occurred, but I have felt pain in this area (the urethra/glans area) after experiencing the re-injury of my first injury…I think….pretty sure. It is not serious, as far as I can tell and happened a few weeks ago. I felt pain that seems to come from the urethra before, from manual clamping, in the glans area, but couldn’t remember for sure because everything was hazy as far as memory goes when the re injury of my first injury happened because of the meds I was on. The re-injury of the first was even more painful than the original injury, and now I can’t even tell how it is related to the scar on my glans, which I thought was the source of the entire injury. Luckily, I was warming up a lot and didn’t squeeze too hard otherwise this could have been much worse I feel.

Yesterday, I was doing some very light manual clamping while masturbating to test the area because my penis felt healed and I wasn’t experiencing any pain after masturbation but it seemed to inflame the area a little. It totally did actually. In retrospect, I should have at least warmed up with some hot water before doing this little PI test to see if I was still injured. Based on what has happened, I’m going to take a 3-6 month break to make sure I fully heal before resuming anything if I don’t decide to just quit. If I ever start PE again, I need to just start the newbie routine all over again and not attempt any manual squeezes right away. Any advice is appreciated. I feel like I should seriously consider not doing PE again but I’ve come so far, and it doesn’t really make sense to give up without one last serious attempt at this trying it the right way with the newbie routine. I have matured enough to not push myself to the point where I’m going to get seriously injured and I’m really careful. I don’t want to experience that kind of pain ever again. It isn’t worth it. Just not sure what is wrong with my urethra. When I got an MRI of my penis several years ago, it was normal, so there was no apparent soft tissue damage in the urethra. It is a very uncomfortable feeling to have pain in the urethra near the glans. The pain sort of radiates outward too creating this unsettling feeling for me. I’m just grateful I wan’t seriously hurt but I did warm up a lot and my manual squeeze was hard but not too crazy. The main thing that went wrong was I wasn’t focused and was on the phone. I was annoyed at the time too. Not sure if that affected things or not. At least I have a more complete understanding of my injury. I didn’t realize the urethra was involved because I never really trusted my judgement on benzos either despite complaining that my urethra was in pain back then. My entire glans hurt too so it was possible that the damage sustained to the urethra was severe a few years ago and the pain was just radiating outward.

Hope you healed up! How are you doing now

Hey everyone. Just a quick update. I’m still trying to completely heal the urethra injury I posted about on 6/18/2020. I seem to get tingling and minor soreness in the area if I manually clamp even a little bit. Not really sure what to think honestly. But overall my penis is not bothering me like it was. I do wish I completely heal it and do something light some day. I’d like to start pumping again first. But considering how long it’s been since I was first injured and all these aches, pains and further injuries it’s hard not to think that I should just not do PE. There is a lot of ptsd and mental stuff with all this too. I’ve been playing a lot of guitar these past few years so I’m just focusing on that instead of dwelling. I also have a job. Tim studying Buddhism and other philosophies like Stoicism and Taoism. I do want to just find a woman some day too. Just still picking up the pieces I guess. If I can do PE again it would be a bonus.

Great to hear from you. I’ve read your threads and you grew an amazing cock.