I understand the original post.
I also met PE about 10 years ago and, unlike many, and I wasn’t skeptical, I was quite hopeful. I started PE only with stretching and manual exercises because I didn’t have the resources and not much privacy, but I tried to do everything I could at the time because a lot was said about beginner gains, and the measures that were reported as beginner gains were almost my total goal. I got excited, took pictures, took measurements, took notes, and struggled to maintain initial consistency in practice. I never wanted to deceive anyone, not even deceive myself, I wanted real results, that’s why I never considered BP measurements, I always found it honest and accurate with myself to measure without pressing. I didn’t see any results in the first 5 months, I didn’t gain even 1 millimeter, so I got discouraged, stopped everything and erased all my initial records, I even posted on a local forum that I was going to get away from the community and try to work the complex of penile inferiority in my psychology. 1 year later, I couldn’t get it out of my mind, I was frustrated and without confidence, so I decided to go back to the exercises.
I confess that I was never consistent over the years, I never got to advanced levels, but the only change I noticed in my unit were some veins that were a little more apparent, but I remember perfectly my initial measurements and they didn’t change at all ( maybe the fact that I have the steel cord explains the inexistence of gains, I don’t know). I often get discouraged, I stop exercising for a while, but I always come back, I keep exercising irregularly, at least in the hope of maintaining my unit’s health, good erection and, deep down, I hope to gain something.
I recently had access to the cell phone of an ex GF of mine who cheated on me and I found a picture of her current boyfriend’s penis (the guy she hooked up with when she was with me) and the guy looks like a horse, it’s probably the biggest penis that she has already felt why it must be nothing ordinary. In the same photo folder, there was a print of a spicy conversation between the two on whatsapp and the girl was amazed, said that she would put that photo of his penis as a background on WhatsApp, there were also some spicy photos of her in positions that she never sent when dealing with me. I felt like total garbage, completely inferior, humiliated. I still have it in my head to this day, and it’s frustrating to remember, depressing, so I understand the skepticism and bitterness of those who can’t evolve in the PE.