Buckfever's progress report/bananaman story.

4/11/2019

100% max tension @ 57 minutes.

Cut session short, discomfort at glans attachment. Things are going fine, I’m just not getting enough multiple session days which have proven essential in making progress. I’m doing enough to set the table but not enough to make progress.It’s literally a matter of another 3 hours a week, which I simply don’t have right now.

Part of it too is that in the totality of things in my life, this has fallen lower on my list of priorities, I think particularly because of where I am in the process. When I set the initial goal, I was much more fervent in my discipline and part of that was driven, I believe because even though there was definitive initial results, there were questions about whether there would be progress beyond that. I no longer have those doubts, and so now this has fallen into the category of discretionary endeavors.

Important to be sure, meaningful and high in the category of the discretionary but more so in the category of when I can get to it.

I’m no longer in the mindset of proving it to myself.

Hey man I haven’t read your whole thread but wanted to task what you’ve gained and over what time period? What extender have you used?

May as well put the extender down in that case. Decon, live life. Return with more fire if it becomes important again.

A good and bad place to be.

I’m not sure if this was meant to be a legitimate suggestion or thought provoking. It is interesting to be sure.

If I were to “put down the extender”, it would occur for me only after consolidation, which for me based on the science that I’m inclined to go by is 240 days for remodeling of collagen tissue. Elastic fibers take longer but my suspicion is that those fibers are the first to undergo adaptation, so I’m comfortable with the 240 days.

That said, I’m not really inclined to put the extender down after that either. Part of the shifting of mindset that I’ve experienced in this process as it applies here, is this framework of “optimization” which while still in a dynamic phase of discernment encompasses, size, health and function. Maybe it will just be the use of the extender which has served me well, maybe other methods will be explored I can’t say for sure, but with what we know today and what I suspect will be further revealed in the future, it’ll be even more sensible that a modicum of effort towards optimization be maintained.

This is interesting too. How we deal and cope with chaos, because that is integral to this or any complex process and gets revealed here to be sure. The strengths and weaknesses of personality, character, aptitude etc and how these things play a role in outcomes. I think that for me part of the journey, this or any, is to authentically reveal and consider these things. And part of this that is essential for me is that I consider these things prospectively as they are revealed and before there is the opportunity to rationalize.

4/12/2019

100% max tension @ 60 minutes

A little bit of a tough session as I didn’t get the attachment exactly right, but I’m not going again till Sunday afternoon so I ground it out.

Anyway something happened yesterday in terms of size related domination that I can’t quite wrap my brain around. I just want to mark it here and maybe I’ll come back to it. There’s just too many layers to peel back right now. I think maybe I had been ignoring that aspect. Maybe all along, maybe it explains some of my preferences? Why I liked what I liked.

Can’t get much past that right now.

Well, can you tell us more:-)

Hey buck not sure if you saw my question. I apologize because I’m sure you’ve answered this before but how much in total have you gained in flaccid and erect length? Any girth? Also what stretcher have you used. And finally- it looks like you’re not doing these long marathon sessions of hours and hours. Looks like an hour here, 45 min there with an occasional day of multiple sessions. How much daily time are you averaging? Thanks buck.

Maximum stretched length in the extender went from -17.25 to 21cm last reading was over a year and a half ago and I have since then added I believe an inch to the extender. I am due to measure. Did not monitor Erect length or girth.

Condiom size went from regukar condoms to magnums being too tight to now magnum xl.

I think it was a pro extender I recently bought an X4.

I’ll get back to you on total hours hours/ day.

Thank you sir

I couldn’t get much time in recently and as a result EQ went through the roof. On the front door the space was completely obliterated and on the back door there was immediate complete overwhelm and helplessness.

I know what I’m doing and I’ve never experienced anything like that before.

And I think it brought to light that the back door play has a submissive component, it’s not just that it’s taboo. And I think I saw a glimpse of why from a performance standpoint some might carry on beyond the optimal. Because when it can be achieved on the front door what was previously only achieved on the back door, the calculus changes.

Not saying that’s my conclusion but I can appreciate it.

It was a profound experience.

While I can’t say our experience is the same, I will say I understand you and we speak the same language.

My situation is such that the back door is not appreciated. I have been presenting high degrees of salesmanship and self proclaimed technical excellence to no avail.

I don’t think it’s compatible with the design.

The front door works very very well though.

A direct suggestion. If it is you want to continue you’ll make the time properly upon your return.

I tried to explain this prior. There is an element that exists on certain scales that simply cannot be duplicated elsewhere. And it is an intangible thing that simply triggers in the lady after a certain point.

I call it “the surrender” in short.

Yes you had and I did not dismiss it, but it is quite different to actually experience it.

“the surrender”

It’s pretty much always been on the menu for me since age 19. I really don’t believe in compromise. If I like something, it’s not subject to negotiation. And I want to be careful here, I’m not forcing anything, but I’m going to insist that it stay on the menu. Because I think that constructive relationships should be additive, I don’t think we should be taking anything away. The pie should expand.

And yes I think you should be skilled but that said, I don’t think that salesmanship or technical excellence opens that door, quite frankly.

Although it could be that I may have the whole thing backwards, because you have to acquire these things a particular way. It’s subtle, but there’s a big difference between a women giving you her ass versus her letting you fuck her ass because she capitulates and the latter is not even a way that I would want it.

When desire, arousal, lead to me ravaging the women, these are then gifts I give to them.

And I think that’s why the recent shift towards the “optimization” works. Because it dovetails towards what I view as a very constructive mindset.