Reflections and Progress: thoughtfulgold

I read your post on injury.

I think my injury rate or ‘bump in the road’ rate is converging towards safety. I want to say that it is because of my manual excercise education. I’ve learned how to handle my penis and apply tension force and create expansion in a distributed way, avoiding stress concentration hotpoints. Knowing anatomy is indispensable as well. I now have a radically different mental model and understanding of my cock compared to when I first started. Knowing limits and staying within smart boundries…

Unless something is sneaking up on me from chronic overuse, I don’t foresee that much risk in my practice.

It amazes me when newer guys get seriously hurt after “i erect jelqed my clamped dick and it exploded! What did I do wrong!?”…well shit

There are them that are content with gains of 1.5x.75” or less and go with proven methods and guidance. They gain safely and they retire from PE. They are usually done in under 4 years.

Then there’s them who been at it long enough to innovate and experiment.

That post was for the latter and there’s no shame in being the former.

I would be very much content with a gain of 1x1. Preferably more girth because that is what really matters most with women.

I am taking a break from PE once again due to an injury. I have desensitization of my glans and upper area of the penis from trying to optimize usage of the Bib hanger.

Even with minor usage and low weights, I always just get the slightest to pretty apparent desensitization with trying to experiment with compression hanging. I am done with compression hanging.

I know the best thing to do now is to rest. I was just curious about any methods of enhancing micro-circulation to allow for better recovery. I am taking l citrulline right now and going to be eating healthier. I also ordered a penis health creme.

I remember seeing this one dude use leech oil and claims that he recovered fast from his workouts. I am very much interested in this. Do you have any experience with this or any such thing to allow for best recovery?

Once I recover and a little more time after that, I want to get into a pumping routine. I am gonna save up for the DP 4000 digital pump and do a spike pumping routine.

I do want to gain at least 1 inch in length and any girth gains from this is surely what I want in the end.

I think pumping is going to be best because I still have not had sex at this point in my life and doing something that aids with strong erections makes sense.

Things will hopefully get better.

Any advice on recovery aids and my future endeavors with pumping? I appreciate it.

The sad truth about compression hangers is that they require initial gains to use for many men. I know my first mistake was ordering a full size Bib compression hanger when I simply was not ready for that. When I first started I could not fit a Bib starter on my flaccid penis. Without some room for a little bit of shifting and optimization of the fit the hanger will slide and it will cause numbness.

When I had that injury some years ago all I did was rest for about 5 to 7 months. That being said, I think a IR heat lamp of some kind May accelerate your healing process. I am not an expert on which IR heat lamp should do it or the type of IR radiation you will want. However, the human body seems to heal faster when IR radiation is involved. There is not a topical cream that I know of that will help this kind of injury, period.

A gain of 1 inch in girth is quite difficult and I would not set my heart on it unless I was willing to put in an incredible amount of effort.

One thing that I have noticed as I progressed in the use of condoms and sex with different partners is that erection levels would dictate what condom will fit properly. Hooking up with different women, as a relationship evolves and comfort increases so does EQ. Basically, first time sex is always awkward and difficult by comparison.

So, my technique for responsible condom use is to start with a normal or large condom and move to my custom ones after she and I get better acquainted. It’s only practical. So carrying a variety of condoms in the toy bag may be recommended.

Also, my industrial horseshoe cock ring makes an excellent sex aid, even open as it just increases EQ faster and keeps it more stable. So that $118 just made itself back in my last encounter to help me go for over 2 and a half hours.

Do not be afraid to use tools. They are what make us different than animals and they are designed for us to use and benefit from.

Of late I have evaluated the progress I have made in PE. I am creeping towards the end of my penis enhancement Journey. As I should be. But that brings other questions to mind. Such as testicular enhancement. What of that?

I bought a set of ball ring weights from pumptoys. I did not size them properly and I did not consult a ball enhancement forum for the true method. Honestly, in that section of male enhancement I’m a fish out of water. I was afraid to visit Newart.

Now, I wish I had sooner.

Much like penis enlargement, testicular enlargement is largely believed to be fraudulent or impossible. The only acknowledged thing that you can do is enhance the appearance of your scrotum. However a corrolary between Thundersplace and Newart can be drawn. Much like the patrons here at thundersplace who know that penis enlargement is real, controllable and possible the patrons at Newart know and thoroughly document just how large actual testicles can become.

I started reading one of the legendary users’ progress logs, much like any new visitor to a forum. His name is “bignlow” and his method and progress are steady and mind blowing. I got to page 10 before coming here to write this entry. Because I don’t like being the newbie at a thing. I do not. But I’ll be a member at Newart before the day is done and I’ll see if I can read, learn and maybe send bignlow a PM. I have to start somewhere, some time.

As far as what is practical? I will probably simply wear a ball weight in my spare time before going into full package pumping. Currently, I still have PE goals that I have not met yet and I can’t feasibly mix both styles of pumping in any practical way. I lack the level of Mastery required for the other category of pumping to attempt such a thing. But, the testicle weight will give me a toe in the water of ball stretching and get me some scrotum stretch so that I have some leeway when I start full package pumping.

A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. This is regardless of how many journeys that you have taken prior to the new one before you now.

I’ve done ball pumping and it’s enjoyable, but interferes with normal PE. Once I’m done with the stupid shit I’m doing now, I’ll move onto other stupid things. Bigger balls first on that list.

Stupid stuff like what? And it ain’t dumb if it don’t hurt you and does make you happy.

I figured its not feasible combined with PE. Currently I’m invested in fixing my curve and hitting some massive goals so I’m focusing on that but balls in proportion at the end would be amazing.

Jamming a needle into my tool, for one.

Hydralouric acid?

Yesterday I contemplated the concept of full package pumping and testicle pumping. I concluded that I could not perform either of these while performing my PE4F project.

Perhaps I was wrong.

The key element in why I would consider running both of these routines concurrently is in my own fallible nature. Three times this week I have been unable to do any of my high pressure pumping do to orgasm during the edging session. Because testicle and full package pumping pressures are generally from 3-5HG it’s actually something that even with post orgasm sensitivity going on I would be able to withstand. And, I would still be putting some tension, very light, on my penis. Discouraging retraction and loss of tissue flexibility.

I do not think that the theory itself is the most efficient way to run either of these routines. However it would be an effective use of time management and it would give me a chance to stay in the game instead of sitting out so many days and also still have productive experience going on as far as testicle enlargement is concerned. Additionally, the amount of time that testicle enlargement takes means that any edge I can get within reason and safety I should get. I may be one of the only people who is willing to try something like this in this way. If I perform ball pumping or full package pumping I will simply make those notes here in this log and in the PE4F log I will regularly note that on days I did not do high pressure I did full package.

It is a daring and risky maneuver. But part of me believes that there is viability to be exploited here and that effective use of time management is vital to continued success. And of course I am very curious about the testicle enlargement process and I don’t want to wait two years in order to give it a shot. More of my own human eagerness in play.

Where there is a will there is always a way. Currently I am deciding what full package cylinder I will try. The pumptoys STJ (Sun Tea Jar) really piqued my interest but is unavailable. More on my absurd adventures as they develop.

Given that in the last 24 hours I have managed to orgasm three times it appears that defining some sort of limitation on PE versus my sex life may be in order. I can safely say I am not sure how I want to define this.

First, PE4F pumping needs daily attention, which I’m capable of giving. However, sex is sporadic and I’m still in the phase of finding a steady partner set. So far, I’m able to keep up. But I have to limit masturbation if I’m going to be able to have sex continually and do PE. So…today I confront that idea and juggle it. Sex will win out, if it hits the fan, but so far…I can do both and I’m loving it.

Out of my last few partners, 2 of them have had comical responses to my soft size. At a minimum, I dangle something like 5.5-6” not bone pressed and girth of 5.5” at my most shrunken unless I’ve been hurt. And I know this is a good size but the reactions I’ve gotten with more than a handful of flaccid cock have brought me to a place where I need to take stock of what the world sees.

I am glad to get reactions. However, fear from partners can and will reduce sexual frequency. I’m constantly prowling now though, to counterbalance this. My means and method have changed as far as women are concerned due to personal growth and change. But…as I creep deeper into the 6” range of MSEG, and well past 9” BPEL…I need to remember vaginas are finite. Maybe not in number but in physical capacity and these reactions aren’t pandering to my ego and they deserve consideration and care.

Like most men here I’ve played the game of asking “who is the biggest you’ve had?” to partners. I have had my ego carelessly crushed a few times. One time someone tried to deflate me on purpose but I ignored it as I had grown as a man far enough to do so but…the place I am now is different.

Even if I don’t believe I’m the largest someone has had, because of my size, it is implied I know I’m very large and have no reason to ask about someone’s sexual past as far as partner size. It is now part of my image I show to others to carry myself with that level of confidence as a requirement. So, regardless what level of Body Dysmorphia I carry with me today, I have to be strong enough to disregard a need for validation I’ve entertained all these years. The time has come for me to simply accept what I’ve managed to do if I wish to function without hampering myself or damaging my image to my current and future partners. I cannot use anyone as a crutch to inspire my ego to hold me up or push me forward anymore. My penis is too big for that to be appropriate and has been for some time. The person who has done PE nearly 9 years knows better, is stronger than that and needs to act like it.

I am not bragging if I expect to be the largest someone has had. It is mathematically highly likely and has been for a few years now, whether I admitted it to myself or not. And I do not need any woman tell me for me to know it is true. There is no need to feign ignorance when I get a surprised reaction to fish for ego strokes. Not anymore.

I am not insecure. I am not proving myself to anyone. I no longer am chasing the shadows of ex-boyfriend monster cock tales. I have made it. I move forward in PE by choice not desperation. I am able to choose my goal size freely with strength of will. No one but myself has a hand in that choice. I need no validation to make my choice or be secure in it. The only person that needs to be pleased at the end is myself.

That sounds exactly like the awakening and moment of clarity I had. It’s freeing to no longer need to be the biggest.

I spent so many years chasing Shane Diesel’s girth and Mandingo’s length. It did help my grow physically but mentally it was stasis at best.

I’m glad you’re in a spot everyone should try to reach!

That’s exactly my point. We chased Mandingo and Shane until reality was confused at what we had done versus what we erroneously wanted and would never reach. You can never be bigger than an illusion.

Before this last couple weeks I was sure to reach the goal I wanted I would need a 2.5” tube. That’s ridiculous. Geometry and my knowledge of pumping state I would only need that if I desired greater than 6.8” girth and honestly, I do not.

When I reach and pack my 2.25” I’ll be done when I hit my length goal. Maybe even before then. Sex has gotten difficult. At least at the beginning. I don’t mind but being practical, as a bachelor, I need to mind it and mind the reality that I’m using my cock in to continue to be sexually successful. Fishing for ego strokes and dreaming of reaching a fictional, camera trick size isn’t how someone should live their life. It demeans the man and devalues the progress he has made.

And I will be damned if it will pull me in AGAIN.