What Have I Done? Please Help

I know this is the wrong forum for this thread but hopefully a moderator will take pity on me and move it where it belongs. I just didnt know what else to do, I’m at the end of my rope. I feel like I have just made the biggest mistake of my life.

It all started about 36 hrs ago when I thought I would try jelqing (not done it before). I should have stayed well away because now I have next to no feeling in my penis and testicles. I say next to none because I can still kind of tell when something is touching them, but its like they are both under anaesthesia - very numb and no real pain or pleasure sensation. How did this happen? Is it nerve damage and will the feeling ever likely return?

I can only guess you went at it like a bat out of hell. Just continue with your hands off policy and your body’s remarkable healing power should bring you back to normal.

If you want to go into any detail as to exactly what you did, such as how much force were you using and for how long, might give other new guys an idea what to avoid.

Needless to say I have stopped touching it. Only doing little tests to find out sensitivity and the results so far have not been positive.

I don’t think I was doing it like a bat out of hell. I went quite slowly but I think my grip must have been too firm and perhaps caused pulling or tugging on the base of penis. I realize now that I must have been doing the excercise incorrectly. I wasn’t completely soft either, slightly aroused but not even a semi.

What should I do? I hope you are right that it will heal itself but how long will it take? And truthfully s there any hope for me at all? I feel like I’m entering suicide territory here.

Also I didnt go for very long. Maybe 10 jelqs at best.

Based on what you describe I would say condition is just about impossible from your jelqing introduction. Your body can certainly handle a lot of abuse and what you describe is not abuse. The only thing I can imagine is you greatly underestimate your own strength or you are just here to cause trouble.

Please don’t mistake this for trolling. I am here out of sheer desperation because frankly I’m terrified and depressed.

I don’t know what else I can tell you apart from the fact that I felt no pain or discomfort. And only that on my last jelq I noticed rapid loss of arousal, and my penis suddenly felt like a dead lump. Thats when I knew something was seriously wrong. Next to zero sensation. Also my grip might have been uneven as I went up the shaft, putting more pressure on the left side of the shaft than the right. The numbness feels worse on the left side of the shaft. I have more sensitivity in the head of the penis, but not much. It feels a bit strange when urinating, don’t think I’m getting the full sensation of urine through the urethra. Only really at the top end of the penis.

Also since the incident my penis has mostly gone into shrivel mode. Does this mean it could be repairing itself? I don’t understand any of this.

There is only one thing to do and that is give it a few more days. Your very first day here and you are already on my watch list.

I guess there is not much else I can do then. I feel so ashamed. I think the problem was that I didn’t support the base of the penis properly enough. And so now I’m facing a life without any sensation in my penis area. I can’t believe this is happening. Its devastating. I will give it a few more days but I’m not hopeful.

Are you sure you have no sensations in your penis and testicles? Have you done the STV test?

What is the STV test? I can’t find any info on it. I won’t be able to check anything until I’m back home as I’m on my way to work. Somehow I am still expected to behave normally while all this is happening. I already feel light headed and queasy and my heart is racing. I can’t live this way. I have so much going on with work and I don’t know how I’ll be able to even concentrate properly cause all I’m thinking about is my lower region and freaking out.

The STV test? Well, slap them vigorously. Then report back.

Just leave your cock alone for a while.

From what you describe you did (a few jelqs) I think it is highly unlikely you did any damage to your penis.

Also try to relax mentally about it, the freak-out anxiety you are feeling is very likely going to give you some psychological erection problems. Then you are going to get in a bad self destructive cycle.

So just leave it alone and try not to worry. Especially don’t tell your self any more nightmare stories.

Ok so I am approaching the 60 hour mark now since the incident happened.

The last couple of days have just been an emotional roller-coaster for me. I had to leave work early yesterday because I simply could not function normally. I was not able to focus on work at all, my mind was completely preoccupied. My care factor was also basically zero, it felt like none of it really mattered anymore. I can’t tell you how emasculated I felt during the day, it felt like I had absolutely nothing in my trousers. Talking to other people was uncomfortable (especially the opposite sex) and I often zoned out of conversations as I drifted off into my own nightmarish thoughts and visions. So I left after a few hours, saying that I wasn’t feeling well as an excuse.

But as I left work, I realised that I didn’t really want to go back home either. All that was waiting for me there was more worry and anxiety. Speaking of anxiety, my body felt like it was in shock for most of the day. My heart rate was elevated to the point of absurdity, and I could not shake the light-headedness. I decided I had to try and get my mind off it, so instead of going home I went to see the new Avengers movie. My idea wasn’t very successful though. There was only one thing my mind wanted to think about. I could tell Avengers was a good film, but I was unable to let myself be engrossed by it. Some scenes I did not even take in at all because I was simply too distracted. My appetite was also non-existent. I bought myself a bag of popcorn (the first thing I had tried to eat all day) but I could only manage a few handfuls.. Which is very unlike me. Needless to say the experience didn’t do much to lift my depression.

Another challenge I found was that my body’s warning system that I needed to use the bathroom was not as obvious. I still got the hint but the feeling was more subtle. On the way back home on the train, however, things started to look up a bit. I felt like I was able to feel SOMETHING downstairs for the first time all day. The rubbing of my genitals up against my clothes for EG. It wasn’t much but it lifted my spirit a bit. When I got home I even tried the STV test. And there was definite sensitivity there from slapping (my balls didn’t appreciate it one bit - yes there was a bit of pain). I had increased sensitivity in my penis too - especially the glans. The shaft also had sensation, although the left side still felt dead (this is definitely where I did the damage, the skin is much tougher to the touch too). Even though sensitivity levels was still on the low side, I still took heart in this development, because at least it was some sensation, am I wrong? Because only a few hours before that someone could have basically driven a pitchfork through my genitals and I would barely have flinched. So for the first time I allowed myself to dream that maybe this self-inflicted nightmare may come to an end. Suddenly the anxiety I experienced went away and I was actually able to engage in more normal activities for the rest of the day and not dwell on the issue.

Fast forward to this morning, and the feeling was much number again. Which was seriously depressing, but I have a hunch that the the numbness is not quite as bad as it was before. I decided perhaps it was due to the STV the previous night so I made the conscious decision not to touch anything down there today. I didn’t work myself up into a state of panic like I did yesterday and I actually managed to get through a day’s work without too much hassle. So things are improving on that front, though this is not something I want to simply get ‘used to’. I just want to have my old sensation back. But I figure I may have a long recovery time. Btw, and this is a bit gross but I feel more sensation when wiping my bum now. This was another area that I later found out was numb, and it felt a bit raw from yesterday when I obviously must not have been as gentle.

Anyway I would really like to hear people’s thoughts? Does any of this sound encouraging?

I’m sorry if the above post is too long, it just helps to get all this off my chest since I have nobody else in my life I can talk to about this. I really appreciate having people here I can discuss this with. Thanks for all the words of support so far. This seems like a really great community.

Calm down and sleep easy. You have a pinched nerve.

The recommended treatment for a pinched nerve is resting the affected area. Most people recover from a pinched nerve by simple rest within a few days to a few weeks. If symptoms do not improve within a few weeks to a few months, medical attention is required. If the nerve was pinched for a short time period (that’s you) then there is no permanent damage. No permanent damage. I’m taking this from the Mayo Clinic website on “pinched nerve”. All you have to do is wait and rest and you’ll be fine sometime between 1 day and a couple weeks from now.

I know about this because I once went partially numb from hanging, I’d say about 80% numb. I consulted Bib about it. He’s a guy who fields between 5-10 questions a day about hanging every day for the last 10 years. So he’s heard it all. He told me to calm down. He said he had gone numb a few times from hanging in his own career, and it always went away. He also said plenty of guys have brought it up on his forums, and it always went away. Dozens of guys, he said, and also said as far as he knew from all the reports back, 100% of them had gone away with rest. He’s a little crazy and told me I could actually hang through it, and I would also be fine. I didn’t do that. But I did quit obsessing over it, and waited since Bib knows his stuff. I’d say within 1 week I was normal enough that I felt better. Within 2 weeks I had full sensation back. That was about the time frame Bib told me too.

Pinching a nerve while jelqing is rare but possible. More possible if you overdid the force levels on your very first PE workouts ever, or had some strange form flaw that increased compression on the dorsal part of the shaft where the main nerves run.

There’s about a 99.9% chance you’ll be completely fine by resting it for a couple weeks. Maybe this scared you off PE for a while, but it shouldn’t, if you really want to do it. You just need to adjust your form to avoid pinching the nerve, and start out a little slower (less force) and work your way up. There are things I do to my dick today that would have unquestionably caused injury if I had tried it on my first day of PE.

Go to the doc or wait until its get better. Keep it warm! Will take some days or weeks to get better.

and.. NEVER EVER do PE again.