What Have I Done? Please Help

You do know that stress can cause all these symptoms ?
Try and calm down.

The nerves in the glans are not particularly temperature sensitive. In fact the whole penis is not particularly temperature sensitive, which is why you have to use the back of your hand (which is temperature sensitive) next to your penis if you are using an IR lamp for heating, otherwise you could cook your penis.

That makes not much sense that it goes better and then much worse without any repeated injury.
Maybe some pinched nerve in the pelvic floor.
If its really that bad then you have to get to the doc.

And as everyone said your panic is making things probably worse.

Go to the doc. Tell him after sex/masturbation you got that, it got better and now worse..

It makes no sense to me either. I mean a few days ago I thought I was CURED! And now this?? It is almost too much for me to take. The fact that I’ve lost sensitivity in the glans now as well has come as a massive blow. At least before I had sensitivity in that region. Even if it was reduced sensation, it was SOMETHING. Now I feel like I’ve lost everything.

I would go to the doctor but to be honest I find this whole thing extremely embarrassing. Plus the fact there is a wealth of people online who say that no doctors or urologists have been able to help them with this numbness condition (they are apparently very unhelpful) means that I have no desire to go through the humiliation for no reward. I’m basically screwed. I don’t think I want this life anymore.

Btw, about the temperature thing.. I did test with a block of ice the day after my initial injury and had found that the glans had sensitivity to the cold. Could definitely feel it, but now there is nothing. Except maybe a little flicker of recognition around the edges.

Well you have to find out what the problem is. We wont and cant do it for you nor will anyone on the internet.
All that can happen is pointers. Docs sometimes suck in healing but have the diagnostic tools that are needed to check what your prob is.

You are young I reckon. If you go to the urologist after a certain age you get a finger sticked into the butt craming in there. lol
You have to get over the embaressment! Docs see dicks and assholes all the day. Dont need to tell him you jelqed or whatever.
Better then all the negative drama of not wanting your life, planet hell and stuff. This is not helping! you make it worse tensing your pelvic floor etc. You are setting yourself up for more failure this way.
One makes bad decisions in such a state.

As said wouldnt wonder if you have pinched nerve in your pelvic floor cause of all the cramping. I dont believe its directly at your dick. but of course just speculation.

You need a cold logic plan and not panicky drama emotions, to tell you the truth!

And whatever happens dont do PE at any cost. It will freak you out everyday. You are one of the young sensitive persons that PE wont ever work. This is a constant observations I make.
I had so much shit happen to my dick. If I reacted that way I would be dead by now by a stroke.

You might hate me now but be happy Im clear to you.
Urologist, chiropractitian, someone might give you a diagnosis and then you can search still for yourself what to do.
I wish you well and the best.

You got better before and you will again.

If you think you need to see a doctor, just go, and forget all this silly ‘embarrassed’ stuff. It makes absolutely no difference to a doctor whether they are looking at you penis or your finger or your rectum or inside your ear. That is what doctors do.

I concur with the others. Just tell the doc that you got a bit overzealous in your masturbating (which is actually the truth) and you lost sensation. More than likely nerve damage but you won’t know for certain until you get checked.

Do you happen to do a lot of cycling? Sitting in a bicycle seat for a prolonged time can fuck with the pudendal nerve. If not, then it’s almost certainly still a pinched nerve from jelqing, which you re-tweaked masturbating. And it will heal again in time, probably quite a bit faster this time unless you were masturbating with pliers and hammers.

Drink.

I realize that I may seem to be overreacting to some people and I’m sorry for that. The truth is you are right, I am very sensitive about my penis. If something goes wrong with it, I freak out. That seems to be a reasonable kind of reaction to me, but I understand that its not very helpful in my situation and it is something I am trying to address. But rest assured I am not going anywhere near PE again. I made up my mind on that ages ago, and I wish I could take back what little time I did have with it. Masturbation is also off the table.

I want to thank you all for posting more ideas about my condition. I don’t do much cycling (have an exercise bike but haven’t used in many months, possibly years) so I think that its unlikely to be the pudendal nerve but I guess I can’t rule it out completely.

Also someone mentioned the pelvic floor muscle. I read up on this and acquainted myself with it through a couple of exercises yesterday (for identification). I did notice later on that day that there was a kind of dull ache in the PC muscle, not really pain or discomfort just the feeling you kind of get when a muscle is tired maybe? I don’t know, but I put it down to the fact that I haven’t really exercised that muscle before (at least knowingly) and so it had more activity than it was probably used to. I don’t seem to have that feeling anymore as I wake up today. So again I guess it could be PC muscle, but I really don’t know.

Not really sure what ‘hard flaccid’ means either, although my penis has spent most of its time in shrivelled mode the last couple days (this happened last time I was recovering in the early stages too) and in this state it does feel harder to the touch instead of its usual soft and spongy feel.

So anyway I’m starting Day 4 of my second recovery phase and there has been very little improvement. I do seem to have sensitivity to temperature again (mainly just in in the shaft near the base of the glans but also the tip and edges of the glans itself). At times it also feels like I have a little bit more sensitivity in the shaft but it comes and goes, kind of like in waves or spurts which is strange. So at times everything feels completely numb, and then there also will be brief moments where I have a tiny bit of feeling in certain parts - its like partial numbness. I say partial because the numbness seems to be selective, certain parts of my penis can remain completely numb while others give me a bit of sensation (still talking very low levels though).

Another observation is that I often have this light tingling feeling around my genitals, not sure if this is a positive sign or not. Also I woke up in the middle of the night and was surprised to find out that I was hard, surprised because I I really couldn’t feel it at all as I had complete numbness at that point.

So that’s pretty much everything. I want to keep updating this thread because I have been annoyed by so many others like it where the person has just left and you never find out if they have recovered or not.

Also I am slowly getting over my embarrassment and have decided that I will in fact see a doctor about this if I haven’t seen signs of improvement in the next couple weeks. I just want to give my body the chance to heal itself first. I just wish this wasn’t the second time I was attempting recovery, as now I have a kind of expectation built up for how long it should take. I think if I don’t start to feel a lot better by tomorrow night then it could mean I’m on a much longer road to recovery. Trying to stay positive here!

Also thanks for injecting some light into the conversation too. I laughed quite a bit after reading BeardedDragons pliers and hammers comment. Sorry for the long post. Thank you for the continued support / insights.

Long posts are not an issue. The main issue here is your anxiety. Go to see a doctor ASAP to calm you down, but I would bet if he knows his shit he will tell you exactly the same thing: there is nothing broken in your penis, it is your mind. Mind wins over penis.

Mental dispositions can have physiological effects or vise versa, think of psychopharmacology for instance. Know that I and many others have abused their genitals beyond what you would consider reasonable. They’ve healed and kept on going.

You’ll heal just fine.

So loss of sensation is looking like the least of my problems now. I have spent the day with hard flaccid problem. And my dick is shrivelled near the base of the glans. My urine is also very weak now.. Could barely even call it a stream. This just happened by the way. Have been pissing normally for most of the day. I took a hot bath cause my glans looked like it was turning blue too. It seemed to help, but then quickly reverted back to this stage when I got out. At least I’ve got a rosy pink color back. Its quite late here and worried about going to sleep. Feels like my dick is slowly dying.

It’s not dying but I think this thread is about to !