Guilty Spark's Atypical Log

This entry is not so much a progress update as it is a rant/declaration of intent.

I know that penis size is determined by genetics, and is largely a roll of the dice. It’s one thing if a random dude has a huge schlong. Sure I’d be jealous, but based on what I’ve seen growing up, I think some of my younger brothers were gifted by nature. This naturally makes me jealous and annoyed. Why couldn’t we all be big or all be average? One of my reasons for doing PE is definitely to close the gap between us.

Besides my brothers, penis size has been a point of interest for me for as long as I can remember. I remember shortly after I started puberty, I saw my penis in the mirror and thought it was getting really big. I liked how it looked. I was excited. I wanted to be huge. This was before I even knew about PE, scam or not. Obviously as time went on, I discovered that not only was I pretty much average, but also, I was not even the high end of average. I remember after my first ever significant amount of time doing PE I measured and found I was not even 6 long, a huge disappointment. My girth has always been nice though. I remember at one point before my gains had shrunk from not doing PE for awhile I had measured my girth at 5.5

I believe I can make it to 7 x 6 pretty easily in the next four months or so. After that, I will take a break. Maybe two months or so. Then the fun part begins. I will see just how far I can push things past my minimum goals.

I suppose an actual update would be good.

I feel that I am seeing results. After my two week break, I managed to get through 1.25 months before the work injury forced me to take another two weeks off. During that brief time, I saw change. My erection seemed bigger, and so did my flaccid. Now after the forced two week break, I have completed three weeks of month number two as of yesterday. Once again, my erection and flaccid are both looking bigger. This in only two months since my two week break (the planned one). I know I’ve said this before, but I positively cannot wait to see what is coming in the months ahead!

The bigger my penis gets, the more motivated I become. I am committed to this. I want to reach 8 inches in length, and I will do my best to get there.

Just wanted to quickly post some rambling thoughts that are going through my head.

It honestly amazes me how quickly my penis is changing. Thinking back to when I took a two week break, I did a month of PE after the break. Not all of those four weeks each had four sessions like I wanted. Most of them had only three. Still after one month, I noticed a change in my flaccid and erect sizes.

After the first month, I got injured at work. I had to take two weeks off to let my penis recover. Last week, I completed my third week of my second month back. Four sessions each week, and almost no issues doing PE. Tonight I start my fourth week. Once again, I remain amazed at how much of a change there has been in just three weeks. After I end this week, I still have four more months to go to complete this PE stint. It blows my mind to think about where I might be by then. I simply cannot wait, but patience is key. As many on this forum have said, this is a marathon, not a sprint. I hate waiting for the results I want, but waiting and getting results is better than getting none at all.

I feel that from a PE perspective, tonight’s session will be good, however, my left hand is really bothering me. This could be painful. Going to push right through it as I always have.

Tonight went about how I expected it to. For stretching I was able to keep my grip pretty well, and that first part went pretty easily. For jelqing, I got the usual unreal expansion I’ve been getting lately. My left hand as I expected was a bother. It is particularly painful tonight. I just pushed through as usual. The pain became somewhat less as the session progressed.

I believe I have entered a new phase of penis enlargement. It used to be that as I did PE over the course of a given week, my penis would usually hang nice and heavy and my erections were big. Then as I rested over the weekend, by the time it was time to start up PE again at the beginning of another week, I would find that my flaccid had become lighter, and my erections didn’t seem as big. It took some time to get that plump feeling back.

Well I am happy to say that is no longer the case! It’s true that it does seem to shrink a bit still over the weekend, but it’s not as dramatic as before. When I went to start my PE tonight, my flaccid felt thick and heavy, and my erection looked big. Expansion was good from the beginning.

I can see and feel my dick changing in real time, and it’s exciting!

Checking in real quick to do a self-motivational post. Was supposed to see my lady friend tonight. She forgot she had a friend visiting. Said there might be time depending on how long she stayed. She never got back to me. It is now late. Very disappointed and feeling totally unmotivated, especially since that thick, heavy feeling in my flaccid that I had for a long time seems to be mysteriously absent tonight. I WILL do this. I need to keep my eye on the goal, no matter what!

Starting to be able to see the outline of my cock through my jeans. I am 100% okay with this. Don’t mind showing off my goods at all!

It is genuinely hard sometimes for me to get myself to do PE. My job is physical. I spend the majority of my work days making bundles out of heavy timbers. When I get home I am often tired. Before I can even consider PE, I need time to rest, and I need to have some dinner. By the time I feel somewhat recovered from my work day, I am often tired and having trouble staying awake. I force myself through it anyway. I guess the desire for a big cock is greater than my tiredness.

I went into tonight’s session with mixed expectations.

Before I began I was playing with my flaccid and working up a nice semi. When it was feeling heavy, I decided it was time to start.

Almost immediately things began to go wrong. Even though I thought the room was fairly cool, I kept sweating, which interfered with my grip. To make things worse, toward the end of the stretching portion my flaccid began to shrink. Not sure why. Maybe I was too rough with it? I thought it was as small as it’s been since I decided to start up PE again.

Thankfully my troubles mostly didn’t follow me into the jelqing portion. I do have some trouble getting hard these days due to workout fatigue, but it wasn’t too difficult to get hard tonight. Expansion was very good, and my penis was looking as massive as ever after the workout.

Hi 343!

I admire your great determination for PE and then again, it must be so!

Sure after a heavy day at work it’s not easy to get into PE exercises, but afterwards, as you say in your other post, it’s nice to see the outline of your cock in your jeans, to have good erections and a big, swollen flaccid. :D That repays for all the sacrifices made. Hey buddy. :up:

Thank you. I appreciate it.

Last night I completed month number two of my second six month stint. Four months to go. Over this past month, it definitely seems to have gotten bigger. Once I hit the year mark, I will finally take real measurements.

I have gained length, and I have gained girth, but those are most apparent when I am hard. I think the most dramatic and noticeable change from these past 8 months of PE is my flaccid. It used to be that it was small, and on bad days, it looked like a nub. Now even on my bad days, I usually still have a nice hang to my flaccid. It’s great to look in the mirror and see the change.

Hi man 343!

congratulations on the gains, for me too the flaccidity has improved a lot and as you say even on the worst days the flaccidity is good and nice to look at! :-) Your post gives me more confidence for future improvements I wish them to you too. :up: