Guilty Spark's Atypical Log

Had raging morning wood this morning. One of the ways that I can tell I am gaining length is by how far up my stomach my penis goes when I lay on my stomach. I can definitely feel that it is creeping upward. I am gaining again, and it’s exciting! This after only a month and some change back. I have come to believe that I am one of those lucky men who gains easily. Some men have to fight tooth and nail for a long time even for small gains.

Sometimes no amount of reasons to be motivated do the trick. At the end of the day, you just have to force yourself to go through the motions. I have a feeling that tonight will be such a night, but I will do it! Seven long and beyond!

I have not measured since I started up PE again over 6 months ago. The reason for this is because I am simultaneously not concerned about numbers, and very concerned. I am not really worried about where I have come from, only where I’m going. For that reason I have no desire to track my gains as some men do. On the other hand, measuring has historically been for me a surefire way of getting discouraged. I think I’m bigger than I am, and when I’m smaller, I lose motivation. The closest I have ever come to measuring since starting PE again is comparing myself to an object that I have measured at 6 3/4 inches long. As of the last comparison, I am still farther away from reaching the end of it than I was hoping for. Not sure how far, but I certainly don’t want hard numbers. That would not be good for my motivation. I will say this though, if this is what my penis looks like now, then 7 inches must be truly spectacular, and 8 must be mind blowing to look at. For now I’ll focus on just getting to 7 inches. I have 4 months 3 weeks left for my next 6 month sprint. I hope I can do it!

I have made a decision regarding seeing what length I am at. From now until the end of this six month sprint, I will not even compare myself to that object. No measuring, no comparisons to objects I have measured. Every time I think I might have gained a significant amount of length, it’s less than I thought it was, and it always demotivates me and takes the wind out of my sails. I made great strides in my last six month PE stint. I have high hopes for these coming six months. I won’t worry about stats and numbers. I will just enjoy the journey ahead of me. At the end of six months, I will measure. At that point, it will have been one year of PE. Hopefully I’ll have made great gains.

Well it’s been a bit of a ride. A long time ago I took a two week break. I got through a month of PE, and things were a bit sketchy for that whole month. Most of the weeks I only got in three of the four sessions I like to do in a week. Week one of month two was a little better. I thought there were a few times that I almost lost control of my orgasm, but overall the sessions were good. Then for week two I got through one session, and then disaster struck. My waist was a bit too close to some equipment I was working with at work and my dick got squashed. It was extremely painful, and I got two cuts on my glans. I have now come to the end of a two week break, and I believe I am healed enough to resume PE. Maybe this break was a good thing as it allowed for further deconditioning. Over the weeks, I have come to the conclusion that part of why I was having troubles was from being too forceful with the stretches. My approach now is to not stretch too hard, and to taske it easy with my initial jelqs in any given session. I think I will restart month two, even though I got through one week. This time I’m on the warpath! Time to reach my goal of seven long and six inches around!

Tonight’s session was a mixed bag. I got hard fairly easily, and I had amazing expansion for jelqing, but I felt some pain and discomfort stretching to the left. I don’t think that continuing would cause or worsen any injury. It just doesn’t feel good. Jelqing was completely fine. Gonna give it a try and see how things go. I’ve already taken two weeks off, and I don’t want to lose any more time.

Haven’t been updating as regularly. I guess that is because over the course of my recent breaks, I had no updates to give and so kind of fell out of the habit.

Some quick observations. This week has been extraordinary. I don’t know how the coming weeks will be, and I’m kind of worried about them, but I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it. For almost all of my sessions I have had a full flaccid making stretching and keeping a good grip pretty easy. Actually stretching has been getting easier with time. I believe that is because erect girth gains translate partially into flaccid girth gains, and if there’s more penis to grip, it’s easier to stretch effectively. Expansion has been amazing. For whatever reason I have had great EQ on all days except one allowing me to do some nice, slow, intense jelqs. I believe that increased length also makes girth gains easier. More shaft to stroke means more effective exercises.

Now, my worry for next week. This week has been intense, and I believe the sessions have been highly effective. It’s been two days now since I last did PE, and I had an orgasm today as well, but I sit here still sporting a nice, full, and thick looking flaccid. I’m concerned I went too hard though. My penis feels fatigued, and I don’t want this fatigue to turn into over work. I will just have to be careful not to overdo it. I want to have another six months of consistent PE with no breaks or unanticipated interruptions.

Going to be starting week number two of month two pretty soon here, but first, some ramblings.

I believe I have had a revelation regarding my length. I could never figure out why it seemed to look so long, yet when I compared it to that 6.75 inch object I have, it came up short. I thought it looked pretty long when stretching it flaccid, so I did a comparison. I went right to the end of the object. I believe the missing length comes from the noticeable upward curve that my erection has. Assuming that stretched flaccid length and erect length are similar, I am sitting pretty at about 6.75 inches insertable length. I think gaining another quarter inch in length plus even more over the next six months is totally doable. When I measure, it will be with a tailor’s tape to follow the curve and give me an accurate length measurement.

Been thinking about my goals recently. For length I definitely want to reach 7 minimum, but I do think it could be a lot of fun to see what I can achieve beyond that. For girth 6 is my minimum, but I think women have an easier time adapting to girth than to length. Some women can fit an entire fist in their vaginas. I really want to have a SUPER thick penis.

PE has been rocky for me recently to say the least. I don’t remember exact time periods, and I’m too lazy to go back and figure out what they are, but basically awhile back, I reluctantly accepted the fact that I needed a break. I took two weeks off. When I came back, my penis was feeling decently good.

Due to various circumstances (again, it’s all fuzzy), I only got three sessions done per week for most of the first month back. For the second month, I think I was able to complete the first week without any issues.

Then after the first session of the second week, I sustained my injury. While I was working with some equipment at work, my waist got too close to it and my dick got squashed. It was unbelievably painful. I sustained some minor cuts on my glans, and the left side of my penis was tender to the touch for a good while. While no one wants an injured penis of course, I think in a way this was a blessing in disguise. The injury forced me to take a further two weeks off. While this was for recovery from the injury, it also served as another decon break.

I ended my second week back last Thursday, and I feel I am getting my stride back. Pretty much every session these past two weeks has been amazing. Little to no trouble staying hard, expansion is incredible when jelqing, and my penis looks bigger when flaccid all the time now. These two weeks alone have given me extraordinary results, and I am just getting started on my second six month sprint. I cannot wait to see where I end up, but I really do think that 7 NBPEL by 6 EG or even more in length and girth are possibilities for the coming months. I am super excited, and now I just need to stay strong and stay consistent, even on the nights that I don’t feel like doing PE.

Sorry to read about the work injury, but definitely happy to know your are making a good recovery.

Definitely keep the routine where it is at and let the gains keep coming!

Thanks for the encouragement. I intend to!

Bit of a lurker here, but I appreciate your raw, honest thoughts and it reads like your gaining so keep it up, remember it’s a marathon!

Thanks! And there’s nothing wrong with lurking. Many people just absorb information here. Yes I do believe I am gaining at a good clip, and I love it! Six months down, six more to go, and maybe six more after that. I’m doing PE until I reach my minimum goals. Then I’m probably taking a two month break or so to rest and decon. After that just for fun I’ll see how much more I can gain.

Tonight’s session was overall good, but a mixed bag. I was having trouble keeping a good grip for the stretching part, so that wasn’t great. I think it’s mainly because I didn’t take a full shower before PE. I jumped in, washed my penis, and got out. I think the oils and sweat weren’t completely removed. From now on, full shower before PE. Also, wasn’t feeling very easily aroused tonight, and my flaccid was smaller than usual, so there was less to grip.

Jelqing was a different story altogether. Similarly to the previous two weeks, I was able to stay hard with very little trouble, and expansion was insanely good! I did almost orgasm, but that was 100% my own fault. I should know by now how much stimulation is dangerous, and I used a little too much. I think I’m on track to have a really great third week of this month number two back at PE. Can’t wait to see what results I get!