Guilty Spark's Atypical Log

Today my girth has actually been pretty good. The only difference that I can think of between today and yesterday is that I actually got a decent night’s sleep last night. It is a known medical fact that inadequate sleep can be a contributor to sexual dysfunction. I have seen enough girth highs and lows over the course of this two week break to attribute perceived losses in girth squarely to bad EQ. I remain as excited as ever to see what I will accomplish over the next six months.

Getting back into the swing of things for PE is going to be rough. While it is true that my doubts about how much size I have gained are gone, and as a result, I am fairly motivated to pursue further gains, there is no part of me that wants to spend another six months or even more devoting large portions of my evenings four days a week to enlargement. In some ways, the excitement is gone. It’s going to be mainly sheer willpower that carries me through. It’ll be worth it in the end though when I can claim to have a cock the size of which few men possess. Once again, seven long is my minimum goal. Even if I reach that though, I might keep pushing just to see how far I can take it.

Quick entry before I go to bed. It’s been a LOT more difficult than I anticipated to get back into PE. I was supposed to start again on Monday. Didn’t happen. Then figured I’d PE Tuesday and just make Tuesday Wednesday Friday Saturday my PE days since Monday is an off day for me anyway. Nope. Took Wednesday off per usual (not that there was anything to take off from). Decided tonight that I was 100% going to do some PE, so I did a mini session; 5 min stretching and 100 jelqs. It was fantastic, and I think that lit the fire under me that I needed. Will do the same tomorrow. 5 min stretching and 100 jelqs. I’ll take the weekend off, and then plan to start up with what is essentially a modified newbie routine. I’ll do 10 min of stretching and 200 jelqs per session. I’m going to try to slowly work my way up to 300. Don’t want over work again. I’m thinking add 10 extra jelqs per session each week. Hopefully the increase isn’t too much. This will be my big push. Over the next 6 months, I hope to reach seven long at least, and I also want to be at 6 girth.

So I guess I should give an update. Helps to keep me motivated and my head in the game.

As I mentioned previously, taking a break was excellent for my PE outlook. Once my penis had time to recover and my erection quality improved, I realized that I kept a good chunk of my size gains, and that was seriously motivating! The problem I am having right now is the fact that even though my penis at times seems to be seriously huge, I’m not up to seven inches yet. Hell, the object I measured at 6.75 inches is longer than I am at the moment. It’s kind of deflating. I do think that some length is lost since my penis has a slight upward curve when erect. Take a straight object. Bend it. Measure from point to point. Some length will be lost. I note that when I stretch my penis flaccid and compare to the object, it looks to be pretty much exactly that long.

There’s another way to look at this though. If my penis looks big now, how much bigger and more impressive is it going to look when I finally do reach that seven inch mark? I am very excited for the things to come.

I have made a change to my routine coming back to it. The newbie routine says to start out with 200 jelqs, and then work up to a half hour of jelqing. I actually am going to be doing 200 jelqs instead of 300 like I was before. The reason for this is because I feel like I have to jelq now at a considerably higher pressure to get that “worked out” feeling. Additionally with my current length, each jelq lasts about four seconds. I guess that works out to about 13 minutes of jelqing. Hell, even at 300 jelqs, it’s only 20 minutes. I believe however that jelq quality, as well as the physical strain on my penis is something I need to take into consideration. Maybe it’s only 13 minutes, but each jelq is lengthy, and pressure is significant. I end each session with a really expanded penis. Maybe later I will increase the number of jelqs, however, I will keep it at 200 for the time being. Where will I be at in the next 6 months? I have no idea. I hope I will be at least 7 long, but if I were longer that would be amazing.

I am very happy that penis enlargement is possible at all, and I consider myself incredibly lucky to have found out about it. I am part of a privileged group. Nevertheless, the road to get to one’s ideal size is so long and repetitive. I already did six months of this stuff. I’m not looking forward to another six months or even longer, but do it I shall! Onward! Tonight will conclude week one of being back to PE!

Tonight’s session was … a failure actually, but I am not discouraged. Here’s why.

I got to only 130 of my target 200 jelqs before losing it. I wasn’t having any trouble staying hard. My penis looked large, and I was getting good expansion. I just was not careful enough with the stimulation I was using to stay hard. Since I pretty much completely got over my over work during my two week break, I am now 100% convinced that the L-Arginine is making me more sensitive and more prone to orgasm. This is something that I still have not completely learned to control apparently. I think it also didn’t help that I did my session so late at night. Being really tired likely was not ideal. No matter. I will resume on Monday. This week was kind of off to begin with anyway because instead of getting my session in on Friday, I went to the bar with my coworkers, so I don’t mind this first week back at PE being a little scuffed.

Even though I’ve only just completed my first week back at PE, it’s amazing to me how much bigger it seems to look in the span of just one week! I have a good feeling that I am going to be seeing absolutely mind blowing results in the coming months.

Quick entry before bed. I did not PE tonight. I feel that for me, having at least two consecutive rest days per week is vital for avoiding over work. Due to circumstances, I have not had those two back to back rest days since I started PE again on Monday. I’ll have only three sessions this week. It’s fine. The rest of these six months I will be committed to doing every session.

Well I unfortunately failed another session tonight. I really don’t want to take another break. It’s only been two weeks! Thing is, I don’t really know if it’s overwork or not. Both sessions that I failed I started extremely late into the night, and I was tired. I continue to believe that my sensitivity and likelihood to orgasm is being heightened by the L-Arginine since after the two week break my penis felt great, but the sensitivity and hair trigger orgasm remained. I’m going to change my PE schedule. Instead of Mon Tue Thu Fri, it will be Sun Mon Wed Thu. This way each PE night is one where I have to be in bed by a certain time to get enough sleep for work the next day, and that will force me not to put it off so late. I think feeling tired and out of sorts might make keeping control of a hair trigger orgasm more difficult. If I continue to have difficulties, I will scale back the jelqs per session. I’m already at 200, which is the recommended amount for the newbie routine, but these jelqs are 4 seconds and at high pressure, so it may be my penis just can’t handle the stress.

I found anything over 3 seconds and 300 will affect my eq. Also, once I reduced the pressure it was better as well. Try every other day, medium pressure, overhand c grip and only 200 for about a month. It may help.

Yeah, I’m definitely going to be experimenting to see what I can get away with.

A quick rant before bed. I refuse to accept or believe that I am suffering overwork again. I’ve only been back at it for two weeks. The two recent failed sessions have to be flukes! I will not take another break so soon. I will PE fewer days per week, reduce the number of jelqs, or whatever, but I will not stop. I feel I am gaining, and I don’t want that to stop.

Wasn’t expecting much out of tonight’s session. Soon after I started I became hungry, and I’ve mentioned that when I’m hungry my penis seems to have trouble working. I thought that maybe I could do a hundred jelqs, perhaps a few more before losing control or losing the ability to stay hard, that is if I was able to get hard at all. To my complete surprise, I was able to do all 200 jelqs. I had to be very careful not to orgasm, but I made it.

I suspect I know why, although I am not certain. Stretching seems to cause fatigue just like jelqing does. Stretching is an ongoing problem for me. The more I PE, the harder I seem to have to pull to feel a good stretch. I try to use enough force to where I can feel the stretch, but not so much to where I cause fatigue and irritation around the head. I am not always successful. Tonight I made a point of not pulling too hard, even if I wasn’t feeling it like I wanted to. I also tried very hard to start out my jelqs at a lower pressure than usual. I think that it may be because of these precautions that I was able to do the full session. Going forward I will try to take it a little more easy so I can keep doing PE.

Last night’s session was very nearly a disaster several times. Had a lot of trouble getting hard, but I feel like it was more because I wasn’t feeling too great than anything else. I had decided early on that I would try to get to at least 100 jelqs, but I got to 150, and then finally to 200. For most of the session my EQ was horrible, and I almost came several times. Somehow I made it though.

My flaccid is getting to the point where an elongated toilet bowl is almost too small, and I have to be careful I don’t touch the rim. As far as thickness goes, it’s harder than ever to get a toilet paper roll tube over my shaft at all which is pretty exciting. I’m gaining, and I love it! Just have to be careful I don’t orgasm while doing PE.

Well I think it’s about time I give another update. Potential sex encounters are affecting my PE, and not in a good way.

I did PE Sun and Mon with the intention of starting a Sun Mon Wed Thu PE schedule. With this schedule, Tuesday would be a usual off day, so that was fine. Then on Wednesday, a girl I had started talking to announced to me out of the blue that she was heading into town. I met her that night at a hotel. No sex. Nerves were definitely a factor, as was being tired from work, but I believe a very big contributor to no sex happening was a lack of sensitivity due to intense PE. I was extremely disappointed. She was gorgeous, and she was laying there on her back, pussy exposed, waiting for me to fuck her, and I couldn’t get it up! I was so deflated and disappointed that when I got back to the apartment, I didn’t do PE, even though I technically had the time for it. Tonight I was hoping to see her again, but she had a long day, so she said no. As of now, I have done no PE Tue, Wed, and Thu. I still have Fri and Sat to complete my four sessions for the week if I really want to. I should know by the end of tomorrow hopefully if I’ll be seeing her again Fri or Sat night. Even if no meeting happens over the weekend, I don’t know if I’ll have the motivation for PE. The disappointment is exceedingly bitter. She was the best looking woman I’ve had the opportunity to sleep with, and nothing happened. PE literally cock blocked me.