Guilty Spark's Atypical Log

Quick update before bed. Session was good. Got hard pretty easily and mostly stayed hard easily. My hands were bothering me though, one from nerve damage, and the other from a work injury I got two days ago. Hopefully it heals fast.

I was just looking at a photo I took before this current PE run and comparing it to a photo I took today. It’s interesting. There almost seems to not be much more length than what I started with. There is however noticably more thickness, and I believe this is causing an illusion of there not being much more length, because length gains have been quite noticeable for me.

Figured I’ll post some pics here. The first one I took before I began PE again. The second one I took yesterday after nearly 6 months of PE. I’m excited to see where another 6 months will get me! The length gains don’t seem to be very apparent, but I think that’s because of the increased thickness.

A member has informed me that dick pics apparently aren’t allowed in this forum? Would appreciate it if they could be moved. Thread title can be Guilty Spark’s pics. Keep it simple I guess.

The pics have been removed. Feel free to start a thread in the Members Only section of the forum, such as in the Progress Reports and Pictures section.

Thanks. I did that.

Tonight’s session wasn’t necessarily bad. Got hard fairly easily, stayed hard VERY easily, and the session was completed with little trouble.

Like most of my sessions these days however, I ended feeling unsatisfied. After each session, I lightly grip my shaft and squeeze to see how much effort it takes for my finger tips to touch. It took very little effort tonight. I am simply not getting the expansion I look for right now. I will stay the course though. Only two more days to go this week of light exercise. Then I will begin adding 20 per session per week after that. By the end of month 6, I will be at 190 jelqs per session, a far cry from the 300 per session I was at previously, however, I continue to believe that it is important for me to slowly work my way back up to where I used to be.

Thats a bad way to do it. Why not just throw a tailors tape around it and know for sure? Write it down in your log while you’re at it. I do that every day, multiple times. There’s allot of error in just grabbing it. It would also be helpful for you to see if there was a difference between what you’re doing now and what you eventually work up to as far as the efficacy of your routine.

Don’t be so afraid to measure after your workout. Being after your workout, it’s not a representation of gains anyway, it’s a representation of effectiveness. I wouldn’t gamble that much time and effort on a grip to measure, I would want to see the tape and know. Am I doing it right? Am I doing it enough? Am I doing it too much? Do I need to change my technique or my routine? All can be answered by accurately measuring after the workout. If it’s not effecting change, it’s not going to work. Period.

Waiting 4 more months to measure for and report gains after a good rest is perfectly reasonable. Knowing for sure that you aren’t wasting that 4 months getting there is priceless.

-Stay safe.

I get what you’re saying, but right now I’m not worried about hard numbers. I just want a general idea. The times I’ve measured in the past, I’ve usually been disappointed because I thought I was bigger than I actually was, and it made me lose motivation. I don’t want that to happen this time. Originally I was planning to measure at six months, but I might push that out to a year.

Not a session report as today is an off day for me. More just some general observations.

Tried getting hard. Girth seemed on the small side. Disappointingly small. Pretty damn sure I just don’t have great EQ right now, as I’m not feeling horny at all. Also, I’ve noticed that over the course of a given week, my post exercise size usually seems to trend upward before deflating somewhat over the weekend. I do know one thing for sure, and that is that my girth, even when not great, is still more than what I started out with, so all I need to do is keep on pushing forward.

One thing I feel I do need to think about is decon breaks. I have no idea how to tell when I might need one. I do know that supposedly if decon breaks are not taken, gains can pretty much come to a standstill. For right now I do feel like I still get a good stretch when I pull, and jelqing provides for some good expansion. I feel like as long as there is expansion and as long as I can feel the stretch, I’m good. I really cannot wait to get back to doing a significant amount of jelqs, but there can be no progress if I am constantly failing sessions due to over work, so as I have said in the past, I will stay the course, slowly ramping things up over time.

I’m anticipating a bad session tonight. Really not feeling horny at all. In fact, I’m feeling a bit off. Really hoping this isn’t another infection. Nevertheless, I have had nights in the past where I thought things were going to go horribly, and they ended up going surprisingly well. Regardless of the expected outcome, I will keep going. I’m in this for the longhaul.

Took a long time for me to build up the willpower to do tonight’s session. Eventually it got to the point of do it or go to bed so I don’t feel like a zombie for work tomorrow. Against my expectations, tonight’s session actually went really well. In fact, it was probably one of the best sessions I’ve had in a long time. Really happy.

I’ve had many nights where it took all of my willpower to buckle down and get a session done.

Tonight I was casually playing with my penis, and I managed to get pretty hard. Like other times in the past, I thought to myself “is this really my penis?” “I can’t believe how big it’s starting to look!”

It’s moments like this that make all of the hours of boredom worth it. I’ve only just begun!

Was feeling pretty good. Decided that I was going to go shower and then get my PE done. Somehow between the time I got in the shower and the time I got out, I got VERY hungry. As I have mentioned in the past, hunger is a huge erection killer for me, so I was forced to go and get some food first. Kind of annoying because the sweat and oils that make for a bad grip during stretching accumulate again very quickly in my experience. I’ll have to go wash my penis again when I’m done eating, but it’ll be just a quick wash of that one area rather than a full shower. In the meantime I’ll go grind some monsters in Tales of Symphonia.

I believe I have reached a turning point in my PE. In the past whenever I realized I was bigger, I would become excited, but then that excitement would wear off over time because I knew I wasn’t where I wanted to be yet. Now however, I am looking forward to my PE sessions again. Why? It’s because more and more when I see myself hard, it is beginning to resemble truly big cocks, like the ones you might see in porn or on the massive cock subreddit. Knowing that I am getting close to joining an elite club is extremely exciting and is doing wonders for my sexual confidence. I believe it will not be long until I reach seven inches in length. Hopefully in the next 6 months.