Reflections and Progress: thoughtfulgold

The short of it is the hours I use for cool scuplting could be actually making my cock bigger with my hangar. So this is where I’ll stop the cool sculpting.

I started here: DIY Coolsculpting Attempt #1: Mark from 1/5/2019 and did 10+ hours under cold in 21 days. I noted tightness of the skin while under cold stimuli. Some visible but not really measurable reduction in the time frame. And marking from today 1/26/2019 I will measure fat pad change in the advertised 3 months cool scuplting is supposed to work. So my DIY Cool sculpting conclusion is set for April 26th 2019.

Will reconvene with more pics and numbers (if applicable, then.

Experiment time totals:
70 minutes under cold today
10 hours or 600+ minutes cummulative time under cold in 21 days total.
Experiment time concluded. 90 day render time to wait for results started now.

I was measured at the doctor. Twice now. Appointments 2 months apart or more.

I’m 5’ 11”.

It’s a miracle for me. But I constantly listen to my subliminals. I credit them with focusing and manifesting the many good things I’ve had in life recently. I was 5’ 10” and a quarter for the last 13 years. And was errantly measured once at 5’ 10” and a half probably 7 years ago. I quoted that cuz it made me feel better but I don’t have to anymore.

I realize my log rambles and people sometimes roll their eyes at it. That the concept of someone getting taller after their 20s just doesn’t fit. But…it happened. And if that fact makes my log into folklore then I love the legends of me.

For me, if I can get to 6’ it would shock my friends and 6’ 3” would be taller than all but one. And it’s funny. The reaction is that I’ve always been the height I am. Even though it’s less than an inch it really shows. Because I’m not shorter than everyone anymore.

I am 5’11 right now, wouldn’t have felt short at 5’10 as that is definately not in the short range, if you did grow in height it wouldn’t be such a miracle though, there seem to be some studies done about growing in height over 30 and some say it is possible, even through exercises, anyway, good for you!
We shouldn’t forget about fakirism and a lot of other crazy/impressive stuff people have been doing along time(Harry Houdini), maybe it’s just a fantasy for me but I am certain any human being’s body is capable of some sort of “paranormal” abilities.

The people I hang out with are 6’, (2 of them) 6’ 2”, 6’ 6”, and a 6’ 1” lady friend. And the ex-wife of a friend and her daughter who are 5’ 11” (and misquoted at 5’ 9” constantly)

So, yes, it is short.

I’m aware of these things. I don’t need persuasion. I have my opinions already. I’m simply celebrating myself.

Sorry then, congratulations, have fun with it! Yeah, those people are tall. Could you link your subliminals somewhere please? Or some sort of video you inspired yourself from?

My subliminals are all custom made by a lady on YouTube. MatrixPlays99 so no links are available. But many videos on her channel are for the exact same things. I simply wanted certain background music or noises with mine.

Living in a black community, everyone is stupid tall. I was taller than some but only one member of my inner circle was shorter than me and I haven’t seen him in years. 6’ is “short” or was in High School, so many kids were that height.

No matter how much you plan your time to PE or any other activity you have to run that approval by the body. Yesterday was cold and tiring. My body was extremely fatigued for reasons I’m not totally clear on. Then, instead of a night session and sleep…I slept. And I slept for pretty much 11 hours and nearly lost today’s day session. But, I refused to let that slip by.

But sometimes, it isn’t penis fatigue that slows down your PE. It’s your body as a whole or your inability to wrap your mind around it. All of those are factors, especially when undertaking hanging which by nature requires hours to be clocked.

I write incessantly about the desire for more. And it should reflect in my words that it is a deeply rooted desire. I take my life seriously and in the face of hobbies and career goals I still make PE a significant priority. Hanging is such a significant time commitment. But I’ve managed to likely start a practice of 3 hours per day. My 90 minute set last night is the beginning of running my sets 90 minutes.

Adjusting to hanging has been interesting. Honing a solid attachment technique was my biggest concern. That has gone from okay to good to solid enough that I feel like 15lb+ would not shift if I did a 60-90 minute session.

I don’t mind the hanging practice. The vacuum cylinder really is comfortable. So I can game and use my computer with no issues. A few rounds of the game and I’ll be done with my set. So I’m making hanging fit in with my life. It’s really blending well.

My only issue is clamping prior with intermittent EQ issues is pushing me at porn stuff. So I need to fuck more often and focus on myself again. And if I stretch instead of clamp to avoid porn I think that would be reasonable even if not the most potent session.

Just looking forward. I am already going but it’s time to ramp it up a notch.

Yeah that’s really good. It’s like applying Game Theory to your life, where overall output is enhanced by deliberately selectively reducing output of constituent components. A mountain top view of self awareness to enable agency towards maximizing success.

It’s similar to how perfectionism can create a tunnel vision that actually inhibits success.

It’s good that you pointed that out.

Can you elaborate on this?

Clamping, requires a strong erection the way I do it. Hanging 6 days a week with basically 40 minutes of clamping per day (10 minute set prior and after hanging, two hanging sets per day) can tax my resources. So porn is the easy boost. But if I’m fucking regularly and mentally am about intrinsic stimulation based on the greatness of myself it’s less an issue cuz I’m a self starter.

And if I can’t get erect enough to clamp without porn, I’m going to stretch instead of clamp and not put that pressure on myself. But I like clamping over stretching to warm up and warm down with hanging. I find clamping more potent than stretching in this case.

I keep things simple. I’m not avoid confusion or exceeds. If you can change factors that are known to cause failure, change them.

It isn’t often that I put two different entries in for the day reflecting but today, a purchase was a bit epic. At least to me. It signified something important and I will provide some background so that the value is somewhat also evident to the reader. But today, I bought an honest to goodness full package pumping cylinder. A 9.5 inch Bull Master Magnum from PumpToys. This is a compliment to my 65x35mm magnetic ball weight. Which are the biggest in the size classes of the items that you can select.

For me, that was an incredible accomplishment. Because, when I started PE…my size was actually below what the items needed as a minimum to attach or work. Really, one of the reasons I extended first was it was the first device that I got to work. Clamps were too big and hurt too much. There was space on the sides of the Wraptor when I first started using it and even with padding that couldn’t be obviated. Then, no pump fit. I bought at least a half dozen and all were too wide. Some comically so. Looking back I needed a 1.5” diameter or not quite a 1.75” cylinder to start and my fear of investing in a nice cylinder was only compounded when I ended up with a 2.5” and a 2.25” diameter cylinder and 3 cylinders later…a 2” that also was too big. Then, lets not forget the Goliath I bought right when Bathmate got hot and hurt my feelings and begged an ebay seller to return (by some miracle) and the Hercules that was still too big that I bought and kept for a while before just selling it.

I became leery of buying products that could be sized. It just seemed like a readily packaged ego shot when I’m reading about all these guys hanging 30lbs or more. Or talking about how well their Goliaths were working. PE Gym had a really busy equipment trade thread that really was good for getting a newbie down. So I was always trying items that were one-size-fit all. And It wasn’t until probably 5 years into my career that I gave pumping a good try again with the Penomet (which came only one size) and then got back with my DP4000 with a 2.25” that fit half of my cock (because of my malformed CC it wouldn’t expand further, which I didn’t understand and caused much confusion about sizing cylinders for me)

But tonight, Full Package Pumping cylinders…I got in but…at the top end. I spoke to Dave at Pumptoys at length, like I tend to and explained to him my goals and desires. And he said that with my size and current ball hanging that I’ll be able to get into a Bull Master Magnum and that the largest size will accomodate me nigh indefinitely even if I do reach past 10”. And…the ball pocket, that was his concern. He didn’t want it to be in the wrong place and the Magnum has a slightly earlier starting point for it. And…

So that purchase, with my super tall ball hangar…I really am at the outside of what size PE equipment is spec’d to handle. I left a post in the Vitallus Plus thread asking about the maximum size that is accommodated by the unit. They never responded. And truthfully, I can see why. Anything that would accommodate my current size would not accommodate the average size well.

Hanging, I’ve started doing double clamp and girth band warmups. Likely to move to triple girth band and clamp warmups. It just is what it is. And a lot of guys don’t have enough length to perform it that way. And…this part of my journey is slipping away from being as relatable.

I am outside of the scale. And…realizing that is a really weird thing, for someone terrorized by it for so long. But I need to touch on it here, as a part of my journey forward and upward ever still.

Well God damn, congratulations!!!

Just one more step upwards. On my way but still one more step exists. And victory yet assured.