The Bundle offer for all of my gear...precursor to the End.
I know I’m getting towards the end of the road in PE. I am happy with it. I’ve done so much. But I want to get rid of my gear. I have so much it is sprawled about my room. I need to sort through it all and I have more than what is listed (if I find all the pieces) and I want to simply remove it all.
I have my hangar and pumping equipment and clamping equipment. But…that’s going to be all I’m using. I’m truly done exploring. I want to take the positive research I’ve gathered, combine it into one whole and make one last big push for the goals I’ve set. And then…
…I will just stop.
I have set a date in my mind. After that date, it’s maintenance. It just is. I can do PE forever but…there is a LOT coming up in my life that would not get my full attention it deserves and I can forecast when it happens so I’ve set a date accordingly. If I hit my goals prior, I’ll stop prior. If my life kicks off prior, I’ll stop prior. But…that date is it. I’ve doubled down on PE again, opening up my budget and looking at expensive options (hence playing with the LG and probably getting a PRP shot here soon) but…I am doing in favor of time.
I have decided the countdown must start, otherwise I will simply persevere like I have for all these years. My tenacity will not let me rest without my goals so I have to set a limit of time so that I don’t just power through to get them. I get that tenacity from my father. It can be destructive. I have seen it be destructive. I have to meter it just like I tempered it.
The date isn’t close. I’ll mention when it is. But…mentally, I have to start the winding down process and take the view of PE as someone with a limited time left at it. The “All the time in the world” mentality works fine…when you truly have that luxury. I no longer do and no longer wish to.