Would you rather be right on a conscious level, or get better at the subconscious level?
Here’s another book recommendation: A Headache in the Pelvis by David Wise and Rodney Anderson.
The reason urologists can’t help you is because there’s nothing wrong urologically. There’s no particular valve or blood vessel they could fix surgically. There is no particular nerve that needs to be depressurized or re-attached or anything like that. There is literally nothing they can do for you. It’s not what they do. They save people from cancer and kidney stones and life threatening infections.
You understand that 20-30 mild jelqs did not damage your penis. But after 7 years you are still hanging on to the weird thought construct that it has somehow damaged or disrupted internal pelvic structures, nerves, and musculature? There is just no way, at least not in the physical sense. The body is so much more resilient than that.
It’s in your mind. It’s in your mind. It’s in your mind. Get it in your head that it’s in your mind. Not only your mind though, because after all this time, it is also in the nerves and neurons of your pelvis and penis. They have their own “memory” of sorts, which needs to be unwound or disarmed so to speak, in order to reset the system to the point where it is no longer interpreting NORMAL signals as pain or sexual disfunction. So in a way you are right. That jelqing DID mess with your pelvis. But in a neurological way that needs to fixed behaviorally, not medically.
I understand from experience as I said above, believe me, I understand how absolutely ludicrous the notion that something of this magnitude could be in your mind. But your pelvis believes it’s real. Your penis believes it’s real. Your mind knows it’s not real, but it has to believe the pelvis and the penis. It’s built to believe them and operate on the information that they’re sending. But what if they’re sending false info. What have you got to lose? You’re in the middle of your sexual prime right now but what if another 7 years go by, and another 7 years after that? Won’t you have wished that you tried EVERYTHING to get better?
Check out the books. I strongly recommend that you keep open to the possibility of penile massage / stretching / squeezing at some point in the future. You need to prove to yourself on the level of experiential reality that nothing bad actually happened on that day. Nothing permanent. The penis and the pelvis both heal (very quickly in my experience, a matter of hours or days) from any such pressures. It doesn’t matter if you understand it consciously. You need to SHOW your physical body through sensory learning that no injury happened, otherwise it will never believe your conscious mind.
You might also check out the Aneros prostate massager, if you’re not hung up on the idea of ass play, which would also send a bunch of benign signals to your pelvic nervous system.
Whether or not this is a troll thread, I can see it happening to a lot of people. They do some jelqs or PE for the first time. It causes a change in EQ or sensation that they weren’t expecting. The mind freaks out (on a pre conscious level) for whatever strange reason (the sex organ has a lot of strange reasons tied into it psychologically) and perpetuates the condition with anxiety and pain thought loops in order to “protect” us from experiencing whatever weird psychological shit was tied into it. Catholic guilt, sexual rejection, size anxiety, abuse, and so on. Just to name a few of the many possible things that could be connected to us pulling on our penises in an unfathomable way in the 100-billion stranded knot of neurons that is our human brain.
I remember you dismissing this line of thought earlier in the thread because there was a period of several weeks after the initial “injury” during which you weren’t even remotely worried about it, and had complete faith that it would get better on its own. Well, I went through the same line of thinking with my knee. It doesn’t matter if the mind wasn’t upset at the conscious level. We have neurons everywhere in our body. The neurons in your penis and pelvis were worried about it, so it didn’t matter what you were thinking on the conscious level.
The penis is an organ that is literally designed through hundreds of millions of years of evolution to have (over) pressurized blood flow into and out of it. So pressurizing some blood with our hands and forcing it through DOES NOT permanently injure it.
You understand at the conscious level that mild stretching and jelqing poses no real threat of damage to the penis or pelvis. But at a subconscious level your body fears these simple actions to the extent that you said “I will never ever stretch or pull my penis again.” Your conscious mind is saying one thing, but behaving in a completely different manner. It’s behaving exactly as the subconscious, including the continuing search for “proof” and “validation” by experts of the “problem”. Our subconscious minds are brilliant. But this is one case where you have to over-rule your subconscious. You need to make a long term and conscious effort to PROVE IT WRONG instead of back it up. You’re going to have to prove it wrong over and over again for months or years because you’ve let it run wild for years. When you can fix that disconnect between your conscious and subconscious, this problem will begin to unwind.
I’m no expert in your situation. You are. Maybe I’m talking out my ass. Or maybe this is all ringing true. Good luck to you in any case. Nobody should be shot out of the sky in their sexual prime.