Possible minor injury

Wanted to update and would appreciate some input…..It seems to have healed 95%. I no longer have any throbbing pain when I get an erection or masturbate. Just some slight possible burning that may be psychosomatic. I can’t tell if I completely healed. I have had some issues with psychosomatic pain in my stomach for about a year that actually went away after injuring my penis. I masturbated three times over these past few weeks. I didn’t have any severe burning or tingling in the glans and no noticeable issues afterwords like I did before in the first month of the injury. Just some slight perceived burning and irritation. About a week ago I felt a strong urge to masturbate and it was making my penis feel uncomfortable….so I masturbated and felt some mild burning and irritation during and after. I can’t tell if this is real pain or if I’m imagining it….sort of like the issue I had with my stomach pain. A few days ago I did wake up and my glans felt slightly uncomfortable and I immediately became very upset and emotional which just made me feel more uncomfortable. I haven’t returned to PE yet and basically I am too afraid to at the moment. I haven’t found a urologist that will take my insurance yet, but I have been going to my PCP for help and have been trying to find a urologist through him.

Since stopping PE my erections have improved to former glories and I have lost no size and still have the newbie girth gains and my one inch length gain. I haven’t measured for a while. I have more spontaneous erections and normal night and morning woodies.

Where should I go from here? I haven’t masturbated in about four days because I feel some discomfort…so I still get occasional discomfort. It is like an occasional slight ache. It happens when I have to urinate. The pain is like a 1 out of 10 but gets amplified if I think about it. It feels like I store all my negative energy and emotions in my penis glans now. I can’t tell if these are normal penis feelings or if I am still injured. It should be known that I am a mentally unstable person, and have a drug problem and smoke shit loads of organic tobacco. I use tar blockers now, but I feel unhealthy in general. I have many phobias and am paranoid. I am trying to find a psychologist as well.

Your dick is a very, very good size indeed. Your night wood and morning wood are great. No injury now, so don’t risk another.You don’t need to do any more PE as your size is excellent and PE seems to be linked now to anxiety.
I don’t think you need an urologist at all. Heck, if you are getting spontaneous erections despite an unhealthy lifestyle and anxiety you are doing better than the vast majority of men!

Forget about PE for now. Jack off when you want to. Just enjoy your dick.

I dropped down to 5.1-5.2 eg….I lost my 5.5 eg gain a long time ago. I started with 4.9 eg I think. I don’t know my starting EG stats to be honest but it was thin compared to my length. I always struggled cementing my girth because of minor injuries and bad technique. I just want my 8 * 6, and if it’s over than 6 eg that’s cool but not really necessary for me any more. 6.5 eg would be the maximum I would want but maybe too much.

I’m taking a PE vacation for at least another 6 months either way. I think it is benefiting my dick more than PE is at the moment. I may still be injured though…but I do have a pain perception disorder. Like I said before, this pain bs has been plaguing me for about a year. It started with the stomach, then it was the neck, back and chest pain, now it is the dick pain…it never ends. The reason why I keep getting spontaneous erections is because I don’t masturbate. Not masturbating makes me susceptible to sexual tension, that slowly builds up throughout a week. It usually happens from watching tv….I’ve been watching the Sopranos again and the bada bing girls even build sexual tension. If I watch 30 seconds of porn…more builds…it will just build up and eventually I will get a strong urge to ejaculate…usually happens every week. If I was at 5.5 eg right now I would be at ease to be honest. The 6 eg is just a dream at the moment. I should probably change my stats in my signature. I’ll do that.

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So it has been about a little over 4 months since my injury. It happened the day before ThanksGiving on 11-26-2014. I laid off the masturbation and stopped PE. I have pumped once and experienced slight discomfort but no pain. I kept it at 3 mlhg for about 15 minutes. This was a little over a month ago I think. Couldn’t tell if this discomfort was normal, and if it was because I haven’t pumped in a long time, or if I just re-aggravated the injury.

Last night I did the same thing….I warmed up with a heating pad for 5 minutes, then added hot water to my cylinder, and heated up my heating pad in the microwave and wrapped it around the cylinder and pumped at 3 mlhg max for about 15 minutes….then I masturbated and ejaculated…like before and experienced a slight rawness and sensitivity in my glans but no pain. Today I woke up with no apparent discomfort.

Later on in the day, about 45 minutes ago I talked to a friend and told him that I pumped at low pressure for a little bit and experienced this slight rawness and sensitivity and I asked him if it was normal and if he experiences it when he pumps….and he said “no I don’t”…. and he called me an idiot and said that I’m going to injure myself again. Shortly, after the conversation ended and during the conversion I started experiencing mild discomfort and sensitivity in the glans.

I usually don’t masturbate much anymore, but when I do I don’t experience any discomfort. I’m just confused….I’m just trying to figure out if I am still injured and if pumping is just aggravating something…or if this is a mental thing.

Hello guy’s….So I still feel as if I am still healing from this injury….but this might be mostly psychological at this point. I do not know what happened still. I did have an appointment for a urologist but I rescheduled it to the end of August because of some personal problems with transportation. I don’t have any more daily pain issues anymore, but occasionally my penis feels weird after masturbating but it could be normal sensations. I just can’t relate to “normal” anymore when it comes to penis sensations because I had severe pain for 2 months which has left me in a permanent state of fear. My penis also feels as if it keeps getting better as time goes on….I really don’t get it. If I don’t pay attention to my penis it feels like it always did before the incident. If I give it any thought, it still feels normal, but if I think about it too much it feels weird.

This entire time I said I injured nerves in my penis, because the pain felt like a horrible burning and aching sensation. It was horrible, but what I find strange is….why I never experienced any numbness or loss of sensation???

During my time off PE my EQ is normal again. I get rock hard erections again and I still kept my newbie gains. I’m at 8.0” bpel * 5.2” eg right now. I had horrible EQ when I did PE…I just overdid it with daily squeezes. I squeezed when I masturbated….and I masturbated everyday….I didn’t consider this PE but I think it was my downfall.

Yesterday, I masturbated and did some kegels while simultaneously making an OK grip to trap blood, and did some light squeezes, as I used to do in the past. I didn’t warm up because it was a spontaneous sort of thing. My penis didn’t hurt, but it felt weird…hell, maybe I’m just weird. Today, my penis feels normal.

Based on what I just posted, is it safe to start a light PE routine again, or should I play it safe and wait another year just in case.

I do have a urologist appointment at the end of August, but I don’t think he will be able to see anything after examining me and ordering scans….just a hunch.

Does anybody have a guess what happened to my penis? Was it a nerve injury, despite no loss of sensation? If anything my penis felt more sensitive…but the pain during the first 10 weeks felt like an intense burning and aching feeling in my glans.

I would appreciate some input and some support, this is still a very serious issue for me and has ruined my life. Please help me by talking to me.

Well I did some light pumping….and I didn’t experience any pain. I know I’m just a voice in the wilderness….but I think things might be looking up.

Sounds for sure like you did some level of nerve damage, the good news is these things can completely resolve given long enough.

Hang in there.

Thanks capernicus1 for responding. I like to hope that I will make a complete recovery, considering that I didn’t severe any nerves. What I don’t understand is, I have applied massive amounts of pressure on my penis in the past….much more than what caused this injury….so I’m thinking it should heal. It isn’t as if I smashed my penis with a sledge hammer….I just don’t get why it is taking so long. The injury happened the day before last Thanksgiving Day….and I pumped today….and this is the first time after pumping that I don’t feel any pain. I did go light though, but hit a max of 4 mlhg for a matter of seconds. I pumped for 15 minutes with a warm up at around 3 mlhg….then edged a little….did a few light dry jelqs….then I felt a slight tingle in my glans and immediately stopped….after 5 minutes my penis felt normal and without pain.

What scares me the most is not knowing if I will be able to resume a full PE routine again…will I be able to clamp again….jelq again….or will the injury just reoccur? Like, since I injured myself…the chances of re-injuring myself again have increased….these are burning questions. I also don’t know how much time to take off. Since I didn’t lose any sensation or experienced numbness, I am assuming I didn’t destroy any nerves, but instead crushed them. I do not know how long something like this takes to heal. I was thinking 8-18 months. I also don’t know if simply crushing nerves damages them permanently to some degree.

I don’t know if I should do any PE at all…or just take another year off to give myself a better chance at a complete recovery. All I know is, I have to just keep slowly testing my limits, but without re-injuring myself. If I do accidentally re-injure myself….it needs to be a small injury, to prevent the injury from completely re-occurring. I may just be talking out of my ass, but these are the thoughts that run through my head. I know if I can’t resume PE, I will eventually probably get that dreaded cadaver implant to increase my girth and just end this chapter of my life, and just continue a light pumping regimen for life. I just don’t want to pay for surgery and put myself through that. I can’t believe this happened to me….after everything I’ve been through. Part of me wishes I can just forget about PE and having ~6eg. It is all mostly for selfish and perverted reasons, but I tell myself I can’t enjoy sex with a woman at the size I am at because there is not enough friction taking place. I probably should just accept that it will never reach my goals….because it would of happened by now….if it was meant to be….and continuing on this path is dangerous and stupid for me after what happened. It’s just not in the cards for me. I almost feel surgery is just as risky as PE now…I used to think my penis was indestructible….now I feel my dick is an eggshell….and the slightest misstep will crack it.

Bottom line. Should I just quit PE? This injury has just made me terrified of applying pressure to my penis. It has been 8 months and I am just now starting to feel somewhat normal. Is it over for me? Should I risk continuing?

The risk for more size at this point doesn’t sound worth it, in my opinion. You’re quite large as is. The mental anguish of what you’ve been through doesn’t seem worth it. Enjoy a healthy penis and sexlife.

Hey Titleist. I agree, but I am going to continue light pumping since it hasn’t caused any problems yet. I am actually pumping right now. I warmed up and eased into the cylinder using light pressure and will maintain 3-4 mlhg for about 15 minutes….no clamping or jelqing or squeezes. I am just going to see what happens. Maybe I healed enough to continue a light routine for now. Maybe light pumping, if it doesn’t cause re-injury can actually promote complete healing. I don’t know. But I just don’t want to give up after everything I’ve been through. It isn’t fair. I don’t deserve to sit on the side lines while everyone else can do PE. I’m just going to be smart about it. Luckily, pumping at these pressures doesn’t seem to cause harm. I haven’t pumped for months though. Several months ago….after pumping, as I am now, at light pressures, it caused temporary discomfort….but that doesn’t seem to be happening anymore. Wish me luck Titleist….we’ve been at this a while….haven’t we…

Yes we’ve been at it for a long, long time. Take it slow!

I will T. I finished my session. After pumping, I did three dry jelqs and a few squeezes. I applied a decent amount of pressure….old reflexes. But so far so good. Penis feels a little strange….probably because I haven’t done any PE in so long but no pain or major discomfort. I will take tomorrow off and continue to ease myself back in. I just hope I can return to former glories.

May I say something? After reading the whole thread, I believe that your issue is more of a mental thing than physical.Comfort your penis. Use some heat on it. Comfort yourself. Go fuck a lady or something.Don’t get obssesed over it. There is no way to have a physical injury last that long. I am assuming that you never actually completely stopped pe since you had the injury. Testing something that is injured is not a bad idea but it must be done when no pain or discomfort is present any more. I am thinking that you went << Oh, I feel a little better today, let’s beat that sucker again..>> over and over again..Am I right or no?

It’s taking so long because you don’t have the right state of mind for it. Why are you pumping again? Are you completely ok to do that? Hell, why are you still messing with it?

My suggestion. Leave your penis alone, to heal your brain. When both of them are completely healed, start again if you like, going only manual at first. Don’t be afraid of manual excersises just because it caused your injury. Pumping is a lot heavier to your penis.

Have the right state of mind for this. You are moving in circles. Change that.

I tend to agree with bill10.