Buckfever's "It's The Final Countdown" Journal

3/27/2024

84 @ 60 minutes

2.5 minutes lower to down position
5 minutes reset attachment to gain forward position
7.5 add 12 half turns
10 add 12
12.5 add 12
15 reset attachment again to gain even more forward position
15 add 12
17.5 add 12
17.5 add Total Man heat pad high
20 add 12
22.5 add 12
35 low heat
47.5 remove start manual stretching
60 end

Yesterday developed a red spot on the glans and during todays session felt the pressure build there so shortened the session and finished with manual stretching. The tension at the end of the session was not high but the attachment tissues are stressed. Just going to have to work through this. We have gained forward position in the cradle so while progress has stalled here, we’re not far, just have to wait for some healing to push again.

Hit the gym for an hour and a half yesterday as I had the afternoon off. Really keeping fitness top of mind this year and not letting it get crowded out.

Morning weight:187.4

I think the weight is fine as I have not done any aerobics or walking in the last 2 weeks because of the weather and the weight is stable. When I add the running and walking we should drift down.

3/27/2024

Dumbbell Bench Press

70X22
75X14
80X5,6,6
70X10

I’ll stick with the 80s for a month.

3/28/2024

72 @ 40 minutes

2.5 minutes lower to down position
5 minutes reset attachment to gain forward position
7.5 add 18 half turns
10 add 18
12.5 add 18
15 add 18
17.5 add high heat
35 heat off remove pad
40 end

Got called in early for work so an abbreviated session. Went well.

Had a discussion with my staff and informed them that forward looking indicators suggested a slowdown and I reinforced the issue that other hours were available to them elsewhere and they should grab those. I told them that while those assignments don’t pay as well, it’s not zero. I told them that it’s been a long time since we’ve experienced a recession but it has happened and it will happen again eventually. Last time I did not lay anyone off but I did cut hours of operation and thus hours worked by 11%. One staff member reported that in response to my half day off, she was able to grab 5 hours elsewhere where it was needed. Took three months but I’ve made some headway on the staffing issues. They blocked off a half day next week because of logistical issues, without objection. So 4 workouts next week!

3/29/2024

84 @ 60 minutes

2.5 minutes lower to down position
5 minutes reset attachment to gain forward position
7.5 add 12 half turns
10 add 12
12.5 add 12
15 reset attachment again to gain even more forward position
15 add 12
17.5 add 12
17.5 add Total Man heat pad high
20 add 12
22.5 add 12
37 low heat
53.5 heat off
60 end

Got a good bite on the attachment. Stayed conservative while giving the tissues time to continue to heal. So a good session.

My weight is a problem, 189 this morning. Will restart the running today as the weather is improved.

3/30/2024

A blood blister developed on the glans after yesterday’s session. I was going to do a light session today took it to 60 half turns but did not like the condition of the glans so at 18 minutes decided to take the day off. Intimacy is usually on order on Saturday evenings so it’s a good idea anyway.

A few weeks back I pushed it and covered 11.6 miles an suffered a high hamstring strain. The weather had not cooperated on my days off so I hadn’t run till yesterday. Only ran an easy 5.5 miles and got through it fine but the hamstring was complaining afterwards. It feels better this morning, so I’m going to change the approach on the running to shorter more frequent easy runs until the hamstring fully heals.

I took off 2 small items item off the meal plan yesterday and stuck with it. This is now the meal plan that I used to get shredded 3 years ago so I know this will do, just need to get the activity level up.

Scheduling at work is now back to how it should be so that it is efficient rather than how it had been with staff gaming it to grab more hours. And Thursday I added 2 appointments to the schedule and today I added one. So the staff is understanding that I will give them as many hours as I can and that my objection was that I would not tolerate deviations from the business model. If they want to be highly compensated the business need to be highly profitable.

My sex drive remains an issue. My head has been cluttered with so many things that I don’t even think about it. I used to do this thing where every 6 weeks I would plan a date night. I would pick a location, reserve a room and have an evening planned out. I would swing by early to prep the room, get a bouquet of flowers, set the lighting and the temperature, figure out the music to create the right ambiance. I would have sexy lingerie for the girl to wear that was to my liking on the bed.

I would take the girl to a bar first to create rapport and then go to the room for a hook up. Then have a nice relaxing dinner another drink and then back to the room for round 2. Then off to a third venue for some live music….

An elegant evening and the girl would be ravaged in every way. For example if the girl wasn’t sure about anal I would ask if I could rub my cock on her ass and then I’d play with her and almost always she would take it in. I would do everything I wanted but in a way that the girl would not feel dirty about it. And it wouldn’t always go perfect but it wouldn’t matter because for the girl it was an adventure.

The thing of it though for me was that I would be looking forward to it and sex was on my mind thinking about what I would do to the girl how I would execute the evening.

Lately I’ve been so fucking busy that I’ll settle for a blow job and call it. And that’s just to take the tension off. Definitely the balance is not right. It’s like I work and work out and have no capacity for fun.

3/31/2024

60 @ 50 minutes

2.5 minutes lower to down position
5 minutes reset attachment to gain forward position
7.5 add 12 half turns
10 add 12
12.5 add 12
15 add 12
17.5 add 12
17.5 add high heat
35 low heat
45 remove device start manual stretching
50 end

Still waiting on healing so a light session. Definitely a little frustrating.

Had a great hookup yesterday afternoon, but still feeling a little off my game, was a good start though.

Legs sore as fuck for the little 5.5 mile run on Friday, Lots of work to do there, but the hamstring feels better.

Morning weight: 188.4

3/31/2024

Dumbbell Bench Press

70X23
80X9,7,7,7
70X13

Even though I’m sore, I’m going to run a little later because the weather is looking sucky this coming weak.

4/1/2024

60 @ 50 minutes

2.5 minutes lower to down position
5 minutes reset attachment to gain forward position
7.5 add 12 half turns
10 add 12
12.5 add 12
15 add 12
17.5 add 12
17.5 add high heat
35 low heat
45 heat off
50 end

Glans tissues still need time to heal, keeping it light to help that along. End of session the glans tissues are collapsing even though the tension is very light when removing the device.

Weight: 188.8

I switched to running which is the plan but the weather has not cooperated. I had been looking at the forecasts and it turned unfavorable all but once in the last 3 weeks so I’m behind on the aerobics. We got a cold spell here but by next weekend it warms up real good. So while that hasn’t gone well, the weights have gone way better than expected. The only issue for me now with that is to not get hurt, so at this point I am only going to increase the load when it gets very light, maybe only increase the load on a monthly basis.

Focusing on getting a little more sleep. Still have work to do on my sex life, mindset.

Do you ever do HIIT training for cardio? A hard Tabatha interval of burpees or rope skipping or something like that? The calories burned are pretty high and there is a long metabolic demand that lasts hours afterwards.

Just thinking of how you can get some good cardio and calorie burning quickly indoors when a run is not going to happen.

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When the weather is better there is a Sledding hill workout that I do with a 40lb weighted vest. Up and down the hill takes about 2 minutes and I work up to 20 rounds. I will put that in soon. When I got shredded 3 years ago that was the primary workout I did for legs 2-3 times a week.

I should do some indoor stuff but in another week I should be good outdoors.

4/2/2024

72 @ 60 minutes

2.5 minutes lower to down position
5 minutes reset attachment to gain forward position
7.5 add 12 half turns
10 add 12
12.5 add 12
15 add 12
17.5 add 12
17.5 add high heat
20 add 12
37.5 low heat
55 heat off
60 end

Glans held up better, Tension was still very light at the end of the session. Just waiting on the glans tissues to heal to a robust state.

Weight: 189.8

Weight is going the wrong way. I’m too inactive This is actually embarrassing but I need to remain accountable. I’m tempted to reduce the intake, BUT I’ve only done aerobics once in the last 3 weeks so I’m going to hold off. The weather turns this Saturday and I’ll add the aerobics and walking and we’ll give it a few weeks and see if it starts drifting down. I’m not hungry so I could reduce the intake, however I have gotten stronger continuously since 12/1 and so I know that the meal plan is supporting the strength gains. I’d rather burn it off than risk not taking in enough protein. I am running out of time though. Off early today so we’ll get some work in today and tomorrow to jump start things

Still working on my sex life I need to make more time for it, both in my life and in my mind.

4/3/2024

84 @ 60 minutes

2.5 minutes lower to down position
5 minutes reset attachment to gain forward position
7.5 add 12 half turns
10 add 12
12.5 add 12
15 reset attachment again to gain even more forward position
15 add 12
17.5 add 12
20 add 12
22.5 add 12
22.5 add Total Man heat pad high
39 low heat
55 heat off
60 end

Glans tissues have healed up pretty well and the head swell was robust. I think a big factor has been a lack of sleep. Removal of the device showed light tension.

My schedule was fucked with yesterday so I wound up having to work part of the afternoon and it was too late for a workout. That struggle continues. We’ll get some work in today.

Morning weight: 189

4/4/2024

84 @ 45 minutes

2.5 minutes lower to down position
5 minutes reset attachment to gain forward position
7.5 add 12 half turns
10 add 12
12.5 add 12
15 add 12
17.5 add 12
17.5 add high heat
20 add 12
22.5 add 12
35 low heat
40 remove pad
45 end

Pressed for time.

4/5/2024

96 @ 60 minutes

2.5 minutes lower to down position
5 minutes reset attachment to gain forward position
7.5 add 12 half turns
10 add 12
12.5 add 12
15 add 12
17.5 add 12
17.5 add Total Man heat pad high
20 add 12
22.5 add 12
25 add 12
36 low heat
53.5 heat off
60 end

Good session. Tension increases during cooldown, makes me think that the heat is having an effect. Glans condition good at the end.

Weight: 187.4

Weight has stabilized. Weather remains shitty but turns on Monday. I’m suffering from the fallacy of sunk cost, I should not have waited on the weather to turn to get back on the aerobics. Too stubborn.

I went from lifting weights during the summer to treadmill/rowing/cable in the gym during the winter. It has just turned warm enough to go back to the weights.

The treadmill and rowing machine have done wonders for mobility, but they’re definitely not a substitute for a barbell.