Reflections and Progress: thoughtfulgold

2-3 weeks. There is a lot of healing to be done. Assess after 2 weeks.

Sometimes it can’t be avoided that the PE discussion happens. In my case I underestimated her ability to figure out medical things.

When she saw my burn and heard my lame excuse she didn’t call me on it but she knew it was false. Because as a medical professional looking at the first degree burn I had she knew that if I were cooking that for the pot to have burned me as severely at it did through my pants it would have become a second degree burn, due to the underwear and denim barriers. As the first thing she asked when I explained it was “Were you naked while you were cooking?” As a severe 1st degree burn is typically a contact burn.

The other thing that sort of gave it away was my familiarity with breast enlargement. I knew entirely too much about natural breast enlargement and forums to the same effect. And after I mentioned my botched circumcision and a skin bridge surgery, which she was familiar with, it started to make the wheels turn regarding the size of my penis now.

As I had covered the entire vaginal tearing experience that I typically have with too much clarity and detail and she had concluded that the size of my penis was too far outside of her normal range for there not to have been outside factors given the other things I said. She tore a bit on our second encounter. And she put the pieces together.

After I basically told her I was a high level wizard in PE, showed her some pics out of my progress log and described what my goals were she showcased full understanding and nodded and said okay. While expressing that she enjoys me as is, curve included, for the record. Not awkward at all. She applauded me for keeping it real about my experience and how I try to help guys in their journey with keeping the downsides of large size as a sticking point because it isn’t stressed enough. She could see I was passionate about it and respected my choices. And did not even toss a bad joke about me “getting too big” or “be careful not to break me” like women tend to when you explain Penis Enlargement!

Hey TG, thanks a lot for what you do. This log is very helpful and informative.

Quick question for you in regards to the subliminal soundtrack.

Did your mind or body show any signs of resistance or rejection to it shortly after you started listening?

I ask because i had a track personally made as well by the same person.

I listened to it right before bed for the first time and the next day without getting too much into detial i had a very weird negative day that i have not experienced in years.

I suspect that this may be my mind trying to reject the change or a message that was not its own in some sort of way. But i also realize it could just be completely random too. I’m curious if you experienced anything like this.

Never. Not once. I have always had a great experience and wake refreshed and otherwise usually happy from my sessions.

Not saying you did not have a bad experience. Merely saying I did not and that I do not know why you did.

Yea i assumed it was probably random. Thanks TG

I felt bigger so I decided to measure. My flaccid hang has been interesting and so has my semi-erect. The measurements are as follows

BPEL: 23 cm (9.05”)
MSEG: 15.5 cm (6.1”)

Base girth fluctuated too much for measurement at this point. I used paracord and a ruler for girth.

I’m ecstatic. Quite literally the numbers have stayed stable since my Maiden Voyage with PE4F Pumping! Not a lot to add here but that I hope I’m well in a few more weeks. Enough to get back on the horse!

Man, you should put this below “Moderator” in your profile. It would be awesome.

Well, I would have to ask Ernie if that could be done. *chuckles* I think it would be hilarious.

Hi thoughtfulgold
A great story. I am so glad you have had a chance to use you beautiful cock on a lovely woman. Shame her ass was so fat you should have been able get your full length into her doggy style if her ass was not so huge.
Anyway good she was gentle with you when she had it in her mouth. A cut from a sharp tooth would have not been nice on the healing burn scar.
Did you try & let her mount you & let her ride your cock, so she could get the right length into her & not hurt her by going in too deep?
Glad you had such a great time & will be good when you get the chance to have her again. As you said your erection will be stronger, the better you get to know her.
100% erection will be a bit longer than the 75% one you gave her this time.
Good luck with the next encounter.

Her ass is enormous however…she is only about 6.5” deep. I was hitting bottom every stroke, even though I was against her ass I could feel myself hit her cervix. She had no more depth to her canal to give me.

Submissive women want to please. And it works in my favor as sometimes I’m not the easiest to please so they have to try harder.

Riding me is coming up. If it’s anything notable I’ll make an entry here. It’s on the to-do list, she has said so.

Thank you for the kind words.

Hi thoughtfulgold
Well done, I am so glad you were hitting her cervix on every stroke. That is what really turns a woman on, to stimulate her “A” spot. Contrary to what some people say, a good length cock that hits the cervix is one of the most stimulating & enjoyable parts of really good love making. Really glad you were able to do it even with her huge bottom, preventing you from getting in any deeper.
When she rides your cock she will be able to take just as much as she wants. You can look to see how much of your shaft she can’t take in her box. I suspect with her box fully filled with 6 & half inches she will leave at least 2 inches of your beautiful cock airing in the breeze (bit of a waste of good length) but the sexy little woman will do her best to please you & that is fantastic. She sounds like she really wants to please & thrill you, I know she will be loving every stroke especially when you hit her “A” spot.
Please keep us up to date on how the next encounter goes. Thanks for a very good report; so glad your cock has healed so well.

At some point when you start having sex you have to realize what exactly turns your crank. What gets desire turning in your mind? That, is always the question.

For many years, for as many years as I’ve lived in fact, I always thought that it was large breasts that turn me on. To some degree they do but large breasts alone have never really been good erection material. To some extent I probably knew this but I didn’t understand enough about my own sexuality to do anything about it.

In the last 5 years I have found that no particular outward physical aspect turns me on. One of my favorite partners had no outstanding physical trait other than a pretty face. She was very overweight with no real curves and we still fucked like animals. It was the way she made me feel prior, during and after sex that made sex appetizing again and again. Sexy, as far as I’m concerned, is an attitude.

Fast forward to now and my current partner, who has an enormous butt, and her attitude is similarly sexy but because of the way that she moves and also teases me I can associate sexual feelings with the fact that she has a really big butt I like to grab and do things with. Her butt doesn’t trigger me on its own or it did not when we first met at least. At this point it contributes a fair amount to my arousal because she works it in her favor for that exact purpose.

I would pose that in my case arousal and sexuality is mostly mental and emotional over physical. I am positive that this is not the case with many men but my inability to identify with those men slowed my own sexual development because I didn’t know what was wrong. I did not understand that I was different for a reason and that those reasons would never actually intersect with what was common in the minds of many men.

Most men I know will not turn down free sex. They cannot. They lack the ability to really make a good decision with an erection and desire in play simultaneously more often than not. I have never understood this phenomenon, especially when these same men will have sex with these women and make many children much to their own downfall financially and socially in life. I have never had that level of physical drive and I do not understand it in any more than an academic fashion.

It took me years, until maybe a few years ago in fact, to understand that this did not make me less of a man. That being ruled by my penis would be a poor lifestyle. My erections are not as frequent compared to other men because what stimulates me does not occur as frequently. This, I understand. Many men have simple physical triggers and observing the traits that they prefer in attractive partners will cause them to have erections no matter where they are or what time it is. Because I’ve never been prone to erections in public I didn’t understand exactly what they described when they would look at these people other than the basic display of breasts or butt. All of my life, when thrust into masculine circles where we would talk about what made women attractive as they pass by, I have had to find a way to properly word socially acceptable responses without actually feeling the things that I’m saying. I basically had to lie to a group of men in order to not be the odd man out. This actually took some time to master. I did not understand what the goal was when these guys would sit and talk about women in this way as none of it ever came to any fruition with any of them partnering with these women.

I know now that this socially acceptable practice has no bearing on me nor my sexuality or potency as a man. Nor do I care to participate in it anymore. I have opted out whenever possible as it holds no interest for me.

However, the frequency of erections that I was given to understand that most men had was something I sought and thought would change with success in Penis Enlargement. To some degree it has changed and my erection frequency has gone up and my refractory period has certainly gone down. Semen loads are also up compared to when I first started a great deal. So a lot of improvement has been made, extremely good progress compared to who I used to be and how effective at sex that I was. But the kind of spontaneous erections that men have and are known to have and talk about I have never been prone to. The instances in which I would normally have erections has not changed. And that factor cannot be changed by PE. Nocturnal erections are hard, morning wood is regular but erections and public as an attractive woman passes by simply or not a thing for me.

Understanding this has been key to accepting myself and also key to being effective behind closed doors. Decoding what makes my erection happen has been more challenging than any PE that I’ve done and more rewarding if a bit more frustrating. I have experimented with many EQ exercises, devices with EQ side effects and EQ supplements. To some extent all of them have helped with my long-term erection quality however none of them have changed my erection instances or added to that list.

In closing, understanding what you seek from PE is integral. However, understanding what PE is capable of giving you is priceless.

I can relate a lot with you wrote man. Everybody gets activated differently.

You sure write well. Really well.

Great post TG. Too many men try to project the image of who they think they should be rather than who they are. It’s not easy to be true to yourself.

Somewhat related question, since you were talking about EQ and erection frequency at the end of your post: how do you feel about porn? I’d like to cut back, but it’s tough some days to do any decent girth work without it.

That’s called a move to true maturity. Well written.