Reflections and Progress: thoughtfulgold

In short, typically toxic. Good sparingly. I wrote on my struggles kicking porn. It wasn’t easy. I still indulge but not to excess. It doesn’t harm my sex life anymore.

Thanks T-Golf.

Everyone is different and the illusion we are not can be problematic. *sighs*

Thank you for the kind words.

Another interesting post TG, you are an inspiration to all who read your insightful posts. There is a lot more to PE than just the gains in penis length & girth.

As for porn, some people can’t get enough of it, others find it mildly interesting. So many people are doing it these days it’s getting harder to make any money out of any more. Even Donald Trump is reported to have been with the porn star Stormy Daniels.

One can have a wonderful & fulfilling sex life without having to resort to porn.

That is what much of my log is about. I cover routines but that information is easy to come by. Why we do it, what happens after you hit your goals and aren’t an instant sex God? This, needs addressing.

It is a lost art but it certainly is possible. We all can learn from that concept.

Today I will talk a little bit about my cock ring of choice. That is the picture. My bulge and wear of the ring is here: Bulging out of control- Uncensored

It is called the hardwear horseshoe. I think it was one of the first if not be first horseshoe cock ring on the market. I got into them a long time ago thinking that perhaps they would assist my sex life. It never turned out that way as I was never comfortable closing the horseshoe.

However, one of the selling points of the pewter cock rings was that even while open they offered a level of constriction that was predictable, user-controlled and safe. Basically you constrict the horseshoe inword so that the two balls come towards each other and then you constrict it around your penis and the surface dorsal vein is occluded. This causes a gradual but assured trickle of blood into the penis that will not leave out of the penis at the same rate due to the dorsal vein occlusion. Which can a fuel quite a nice bulge even if not an erection.

As for the safety aspect of this ring, if you do get an erection with the ring open the ring will expand with you which will release the pressure on the dorsal vein and then your erection will fade and the ring will fall off. I have lost two of these rings this way with them falling down my pant leg unbeknownst to me.

I bought a set of these rings as the company offers a nice 3 size trial set for just over $100 if you don’t go into their specialty large sizing. At least they did around 7 years ago when I went in on these. I can’t remember what the last size I bought was, nor the size that I’m using. I believe it is a 2.5” diameter ring that I constrict down a little. The rings have a finite lifespan as bending them in it out shows obvious wear over time. The thinner rings will break sooner obviously. One of the ones I lost was very close to Breaking before I lost it. They show wear right in the bending hinges or the points of the “M” shape in the horseshoe. I like the angle that is offered as it seems to conform better to an oval shaped shaft.

I would not say that this ring is vital to the PE that I do but on and off over the years I’ve experimented with these rings in conjunction with many devices or exercises afterwards as a cooling off method. And there are days that I have worn it simply because it offers free bulge. I am not as concerned with that purpose now but it is good for that.

So what are the exact methods here? I looked but this thread is huge and couldn’t find any references to techniques?

Some of my favorite routines are linked in “My Methods” in my signature. Otherwise, you just have to page through to read the routines I tried on whatever day.

There’s little current because I didn’t do a serious routine since before August of last year and then when I started back this year I burned myself 3 weeks ago and have been on forced break yet again.

The log is huge but whatever I do and stuff I’ve done I will detail in this log and sometimes detail with pictures in my photo log.

So today she got off early enough and I had time also line up enough that we could spend a few hours together. I took 100mg of Sidenafil an hour before arriving at her place. After we ate and cuddled, got down to business.

First things first, with a 9 EQ erection she can’t throat me. Not even a little bit. She had some good luck before and got me 3/4 way in (with teeth digging deep also) but I wasn’t near rock hard like today. Her throat was nowhere near open enough and she only can mouth the upper half or so. But she did that as hard as she could. No points lost for geometry not panning out. Her zeal was admirable. No hesitation to gag at all. She enjoys it.

Secondly, she is 5” deep at the max. Her wetness only got halfway down my exposed length and shaft skin shifts downward by around an inch or a touch less, so it is more than 4” but not more than 5” of possible vaginal depth. I learned this in multiple positions. She is willing to let me pound her cervix but doesn’t prefer that stimulation too hard. Fully erect it is so easy to reach it behooves me to be careful. She was surprised to see she could fit so little of my full erection but not deterred at all.

Every entry I make in doggy must be with more lube as well. As her canal is too narrow and if i don’t lubricate the shaft she will tear when I get in, due to my glans width forcing her natural wetness inwards on the first thrust. Medium strength thrusts are optimal and make her orgasm fastest. Hard thrusts she somewhat enjoys but are painful. Soft thrusting she will move her hips to meet mine.

Given her naturally small depth, her ass does slow me down a bit. However, if it did not she would likely be very sore and have cervical bruising. Plus, I like her ass against my body. It makes sex more practical for us both.

Riding me simply did not happen. I have never been at 9 EQ and at this size when someone is attempting to mount my cock. So, we had trouble lining it up. My hand at the base was not aiming the tip well at all, due to my curve. She had trouble guiding it in due to short legs and my flagging erection and neither of us could see what was going on. So we did a sideways position instead which felt very nice. I had never tried it before and neither had she. I was on my back and she was perpendicular to me on her back with one leg lifted so that I could penetrate her vaginally by following my curve and thrusting to the left. Despite her entire butt acting as a barrier, I got in deep enough to feel her IUD strings. However the angle of penetration and my curve guided me into the posterior fornix, or so it felt like when it opened up for me. Extremely nice feeling. It is the feeling many confuse for the cervix opening.

As a bonus she also gave me a titfuck. I couldn’t let her finish but it was a wonderful feeling. I had never experienced it. I was visible between her DDD breasts and could stick out of the top. Total porn moment.

She is optimistic about handling my increasing size. She figures with a game attitude and me being gentle it will go just fine. She has no issues with how we enjoy each other and gladly wants to assist however she can with PE inspiration.

An excellent way to spend the afternoon indeed.

Moved to love life and fantasy. =D

Jk sounds good buddy! Maybe these encounters will finally allow your sense of reality (you are massive.) to take root.

Is it impeding your PE activity? Do you care? If you were to have satisfying sex every day of your life would you continue to do PE and if so in what sense?

All of these are important endgame questions imo.

I also considered replying to one of your previous posts where you mentioned how important the relationship with whom you are having sex with is and how sexy is an attitude. Sure, popular belief is that most men will take sex any time anywhere but in the drunken ramblings of all my friends (all guys because I’ve been in tech for a while now) they all admit the same. Just having sex isn’t good enough, it needs to be meaningful and somehow fulfilling to both parties. I wonder if it’s even true that most men (after 25 or so when sex has long since lost its novelty) are the predators we are portrayed to be. Maybe tech guys are a bad sample. Still, you are far from being alone. In my experience your attitude is even the standard, and the desirable one at that.

Keep it up TGold!

I mentioned Dysmorphia and how common it is among PE guys. As a woman dissatisfied with her bust she identifies well. The shape and fullness or perceived lack is her issue. Even though she has wonderful breasts. She has been quite accommodating despite increasing sexual complexity. Prolly cuz my fingers work so well. *chuckles* Reality is rearing its head finally. I may figure it out.

Sex does not impede my PE. Ever. I do not turn down sex for PE. It’s a principle I always follow and preach. So, if sex were happening in a PE timeslot I would move PE or cut it out. That’s been true since day 1 and will never change.

If I were having satisfying sex daily then there would be no time or need for PE unless I physically felt lacking in some way. So it would fall by the wayside. I may work on EQ things or just not at all in that theoretical case.

I can say, you kind of are replying to the post now, belatedly while quoting another post. *smirks*

Depends on who you ask. Hooking up is trickier with an erection that requires some level of like. I’m not big into that anymore but when I was it was crappy. I’m happy with myself now and pick my partners based on criteria I’m proud to admit to. Wasn’t the case before and all the super masculine guys have kids by women they hate at this point. Joke is on them I think. But it took years for me to see that punchline.

Thanks for the kind words Crusher.

Sounds like a real nice lady.

Believe it or not, it’s her brain that makes her so enjoyable.

I have to be honest. Geometry is something I can see quite well. Part of my PE success has been the ability to take an object and make it my target. To see it in my mind and create it on my body. Continuing PE requires updated imagery. It mandates renewed resolve. It demands fresh consideration as you stretch the boundaries of human anatomy.

I am fine with my size. Meaning I have no qualms about inadequacy. Not anymore. I have sorted out my mind. I have found peace there. Mostly.

Niggling bits that nag, hyperboles that stuck with me sometimes hang in my skin like fish hooks and the desire for greater glans size is it.

Last night I saw a clear 2.125” in both diameter and length. And I admit that forward is the way I want to go. Generally from here there is only 2.25” or 2.5” with the mid point of 2.375” and because of the shape of my glans the diameter will not math out to circular circumference. But a good bit less.

That said, going beyond 2.25” is the territory of the devoted. And I am devoted. I haven’t done but a single session in the last month and have seen steady gains. This I attribute to intense subconscious focus on my goal. On the creation of my dream monster cock.

To the reader new to Thunders or PE, your dreams are merely a mentality away if you let them be.

Because, if I’m affected by PE4F pumping as I expect to be…i will likely gain faster than I did in my Newbie days for a time. And even if it is less than the 1.5” length and .75” Mid Shaft girth I saw in my first 18 months of Penis Enhancement…i feel that going for 1 more inch in length and at least half an inch in mid shaft girth is doable. And expected. This is the reality I have crafted for myself.

I am coming upon my return to PE and with a supportive partner in the mix. I am going to kiss 9x6” goodbye soon, the rearview just got some extra space and I need to fill it…

Man, this is what I am talking about, a vision and a goal, it is so good that you are confident and hungry for gains. Your passion on PE makes me believe so much that we all can get to the size we want, you inspires me. I wish you to achieve your goals. Thanks for existing.

Thank you for the kind words. Change your reality to suit you, c3ifador. Then any goal will be yours.