Reflections and Progress: thoughtfulgold

That is bloody encouraging TG. To clarify, were the 3 wanking sessions edging, ie no-blowing? Well, she at least sounds like a good lass to keep in touch with! Great description Bro!

Those three sessions, I did orgasm. Additionally, I did this morning as well. So that’s two orgasms in 12 hours on top of the other 3.

She is a really nice girl. A good friend. Just…not lover or girlfriend material.

God damn, was she that bad? I see, you made a good deed for Christmas, ain’t you?

You gotta pump those numbers. I bet her fingers not crossing was a good ego moment, congrats.

She doesn’t make noise or move around much. So it’s really one-sided if we fuck. A total turn off.

It was. I’m aiming for 9.75x6.75” to end 2019. I know it’s a big goal and may take longer but that’s my next place.

“I was not sold on the value of edging. I just enjoyed it. Now, I’m freaking sold. I felt so in control I can’t even describe it.”

There’s a lot of anecdotal support for this. And also for the need for periodic engorgement of some sort to facilitate length work. And I’ve been ignoring it so far, but I know at some point I’m going to have to wrap my brain around it. It gives me pause, especially since it’s at odds with my current posture. Feels like the proverbial frog in the pot of water that is slowly brought to boil.

Prior to taking my last set of lock measurements I practiced the AM two sessions a day for some 30+ days. There is no doubt in my mind that any practice that involves optimizing blood flow into the penis and holding erections for extended periods of time will have anything less than a positive outcome.

I think intense edging sessions are possibly one the best all around exercises for penis maintenance, maintaining both size and EQ.

You don’t have to change what you’re doing. It will continue to work. Efficiency is good but doing something you aren’t comfortable with is not.

Though, in my opinion, mental blocks are worthless and serve as hindrances. This is a personal stance.

I hear you. I’ll take a position and it’ll seem like a hard line but mostly it’s just a forced discipline, to flesh out the line of thought. But nothing is ever perfect and you do need to be open to that.

Holding on to the sexual tension does have merit, I’ve experienced it and there is a positive there, but there is a cost of not being as fully in touch with your physicality.

My position on porn is similar. Within the narrow confines of detraction from one’s own sexual creativity, abstinence has value. But then I remember younger days of having a couple of porn mags in the glove, that the girls would stumble upon and it created a very healthy charged dynamic. It was fun for sure.

I think for me the worse thing about the mental blocks, is that they are intellectually dishonest.

Trying to reconcile the disparate when the complexity might of been preferred. Too funny, I make myself laugh.

Every PE guru, self-styled or legitimate, agrees with you that I’ve yet observed.

The stuff that you write is really helpful and what you have written here is inspiring. Thanks alot for reminding me of what’s most important.

I really try to offer something useful in my reflections. Thank you for the kind words.

The honest truth is the year has been huge on my mentality and self image. It has taken big changes, improvements.

Realizing that to continue PE I have to own all the goals I have, no matter how silly they sound, was humbing then liberating. I know if I reach my goals it will mean custom pants and special underwear. According to a crafting friend I already should be in both but continuing to grow isn’t tempting fate, it is guaranteeing an outcome. I *will* have undeniable special garment needs.

I embrace this. I need to, in order to move forward freely at full speed. And I’m happy with it. Which if I’m not, progress stops. Creating a universe where you live your dreams starts with setting the guidelines for those dreams then pursuing them without hesitation relentlessly.

I am not ashamed of PE. I had an exchange with a member here earlier this year, where he “adnitted” a non-PE monster cock was “cooler” than one made by PE. His explanation was one that focused on “tryhard” and image of PE but the net goal of confidence and happiness with oneself was missing in his argument. Immaterial factors.

A natural monster cock is cooler, if I’m ashamed of the one I made with raw effort and split women with, with intention and understanding not clumsiness and luck of the genetic lottery. I am not ashamed, I am proud.

All of this happened this year. And no matter how long it takes to build my dream elephant trunk I will persevere. I acknowledge my addiction. I saw the goal posts move as I gained a bit this year. I’m okay with it.

I will be hanging weight until I gain at least 1” in length, probably more. I’m starting a whole new campaign. Just because the boundaries defined by others do not apply to me and I don’t think I’m done here yet. So I’m still hard at work.

That is how you create a destiny. By envisioning it, smiling, then embracing it.

Good on you! Wishing you much success.

That’s was a nice post to read. It’s all about your goals and what makes you happy. No one else matters. No one else is you. Congrats on being happy with your goals and continuing to drive for more and more.

Thank you sir.

We often pick goals for social value. To attain specific social perceptions. It’s why so many goals are similar or homogenous. We openly crave validation and portray images to garner it. It’s not just a social media phenomenon. Though its the best example. We are ashamed of goals that expose weakness, even if we are working through it. And thusly, despite my accomplishment being laudable it’s the kind you hide because it speaks directly to insecurity, unhappiness and weakness for a long time prior to my achievements as the chief motivator.

No one else matters. The difference between saying and living it is the key.