1. Detailed history of all the events that lead up to my glans becoming deflated during erection as well as all other observations since.
On Monday, February the 22nd, I had been clamping fairly regularly for several months, on a 4 day on 3 day off approach. Since I was getting unsatisfactory expansion I decided to start using double clamps, which I did each day that week, with no problems, and definitely increased expansion. That week I also increased what I was hanging from 1.25kg to 2.5kg. At this point, on Monday, I’d only been hanging regularly for a week or 2. Throughout all my sessions I’d do dry jelqs and firegoat rolls (: p). I should comment that at this point my EQ was good, I was getting nightly wood and morning wood and had great flaccid hang and strong erections, in spite of the great fatigue I was loading from the clamping.
On the Friday (February the 26th) I purchased a ‘ball’ thing from a shop called happy high herbs, which is marketed as a smoosh of natural immediate erection enhancing herb concentrates. Basically you suck it for a few moments before chewing it and it tastes not great and so you get a drink and swallow the beast. I bought it cause the previous week I had been with a girl but under the influence of alcohol and my nerves, which were considerable, couldn’t, ahem, maintain proper form from the journey from her mouth to her, ahem, snatch. So basically I couldn’t penetrate her, though it didn’t help that she refused oral stimulation and was darn tight.anyway.
So anyway that Friday, I ate the ball thingo and got a super hard erection, equal to the hardest I’ve hard, though, interestingly, not the girthiest I’ve had. Needless to say, things went more smoothly with the girl, other than the fact that we got a bit excited and didn’t have a condom - eg I didn’t cum. And long story short wasn’t ‘finished off’, and we went to sleep. Except I couldn’t sleep. Merely touching or thinking about my dick would make it hard again. Also, after peeing, I had the distinct feeling that there was a bit more to go, but it kind of hurt, and I couldn’t quite get it out. At one point I did manage to, and it was actually a bit of semen. I should note that I hadn’t ejaculated for 5 days or longer, which is at my upper limits.
Eventually I decided to masturbate, to ‘clear myself out’ and did so successfully, ragingly and a bit messily, but I cleaned up after. Finally then I got some sleep. The next day I noticed I had the false ‘need to pee’ sensation a few times but by night it was gone. That night I went out and by chance ingested a pill which was sold to me by a trusted friend as MDxx, an analogue of MDMA. Later that night I smoked weed and had a massive wank session, as I have done many times before under the influence (or dying light of) MDMA and sometimes weed too. Over a few hours I ejaculated twice, played some video games, and eventually went to bed.
Before going to sleep, I decided I was horny and awake enough to masturbate again. I started the process while still in bed and while my shaft became rock hard, as hard as I’ve ever felt it, my glans were noticeably deflated and I could not reach orgasm, despite my best efforts (though I wasn’t using porn which I usually do and was laying in bed still, which I normally don’t). I gave up and went to sleep.
This brings us to Monday, March the 1st. During this week I did not PE whatsoever and did not masturbate till Friday. I was getting super hard night wood, that would last ages, but again, with deflated glans, almost to the point of being completely empty of blood. However, if I stimulated myself consciously, with porn or otherwise, while sitting, my glans would balloon in size as they used to, but be prone to deflating (faster than the shaft) when the stimulus stopped.
On the Monday night and Tuesday I felt some sharpish pain that would stab then abate for several seconds then throb back again, for maybe 20 seconds or less. This happened maybe 2 or 3 times over those days. That was the last of the pain but the other symptoms remained unchanged for the rest of the week, I masturbated several times without trouble but the glans, even when filled with blood, would never go ‘smooth’ like it used to when I had big erections like I was getting that week.
This week, starting March 8th, Monday. All week and the previous weekend my flaccid hang has been as small if not smaller than my pre-pe size in girth and length Feels kind of contracted, a bit firm, a feeling I’ve felt before, after jacking off too many times, usually. However I attribute this to stopping PE, at least partially. I tired some dry jelqing and this helped flaccid size the next day.
I started some light kegeling on the Wednesday (which I haven’t done for months). It felt very strange. Like the kegel muscle had no power at all, and trying to squeeze it, I could only do so for a second or so before it released. I’ve never experienced that before. It made my whole groin area not tingle, but like feel like a fuzzy, like when you contract a muscle super tightly for ages and then release it.
This is still the case today. It’s definitely real. My penis looks and feels weird with deflated glans and a raging hard erection. What’s weird is how hard the shaft gets. It feels really super hard, like I’m not used to, and then this ridiculous soft and small glans sitting on top, it not minimum size as it’s being stretched by it’s attachment to the shaft, but you get the idea. If I kegel while it’s in the state, I can actually see it inflate, visibly and practically double in size. As I said, continued stimulation will also keep it in this state but this might be because I’m mini-kegeling. When I stop I can see it deflate. And if I apply pressure I can feel the blood being squeezed out.
Final symptom. Today I tried some more aggressive kegels (I literally could not do them before as described above). Squeezing as hard as I could for 5 seconds. After about 10 of these I’d feel a sharp pain and have to stop. I tried again and again the pain. I tried a light kegel for longer and immediately it hurt again. I immediately discontinued. The pain felt like it was in my penis and was, I think the same as described above but hurt more.