Buckfever's General Progress Log

10/3/2024

2"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 4 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4 hg

Tube down length position: 18 cm
Pack: 8 cm

Length measure does not include 5mm flange.

New highs on the length and packing measures in the 2" tapered tube. Unfortunately I damaged both of the tapered tubes when I changed out the female attachment. The 1.75" tapered tube is completely worthless as it won’t hold a vacuum at all. The 2" tapered tube very slowly looses pressure but I can at least use it for now. Yesterday I ordered a complete 1.75" tapered tube and the associated pump apparatus. And that was probably unnecessary as based on the packing today I am very close to packing the whole shaft with the 2" tapered tube. I am just moving too fast but I will sort all this out soon and have the gear that I need.

Weight 178.2 @ 18.2%

Yesterday activity level. 1:15 hour of weights upper body, 10 flights on the sledding hill with the 40lb vest, 1X1.3 mile walk. Finished scraping and cleaning the deck and started cutting ~ 3-4 hours. IMO that was a very high level of physical activity, About the only disappointment was only getting 10 flights on the sledding hill, but we did 18 on Sunday after a long break from the hill and my legs were sore and I felt that if I pushed it I’d be wiped out and I need to make progress on the deck. I’m thinking 2 more afternoons and the deck is done and the home projects are over till the winter when we do some inside work. The other thing I noticed is that my level of hydration has to be improved, so I brought out a 2 quart pitcher and I’ll fill it with water in the mornings on my days off and make sure we polish that off. I already have a water intake routine at work.

The work on the discoloration is going well and for some reason, I am not getting the petechiae formation I was getting before. I don’t know if it’s the treatment or that I am packing more of the tube but we’ll take it. BTW the product that @ igigi mentioned is available on Amazon.

EQ is good. But for some reason once again I feel disconnected from sex. I think it is stress from work, kind of a low grade unconscious angst that is keeping me subdued. I know that when I can execute cleanly on the day the rebound is quick but there are days that even when I pull it off well, it still takes it out of you. I don’t think I can do anything about that. I have a good level of introspection, I do think though that this year the unusual amount of home projects combined with me saving for a vehicle which saw me forgo a vacation kept me out of being able to recover. I’ve kind of never had any let down since May. When I did take days off from work I just worked on the house. And except for the occasional hookups, which I regard as more like coming up for air, there has been no let up.

I had talked about it some earlier in the year that I wanted an afternoon off every 3 week and I lost that battle, my staff found a way to almost never let that happen and I gave up on that strategy. About the only thing promising is that because of grandchildren coming into the picture my staff has been proposing time off and I’ve told them take all the time you want but block my schedule I’ll take that time off too and tell the clients I don’t have staffing. They’re already scheduled 2 blocks off through the rest of the year, so that will be good and it’ll be ongoing, so I’ll take that. Maybe that will help.

I don’t mind working hard but when it crowds out a sexual mindset that’s a bridge too far and it’s for sure not where I want to be.

Edema. Hmm I think the repeated pumping to maintain the pressure with the frayed tube losing pressure brought that on. I ordered replacement equipment.

I get slightly more edema with the (pulsing) breast pump than I do with the aquarium pump, for what it’s worth. I had to add rest breaks into my pump sessions to get rid of the edema, which roughly doubles my session lengths.

10/4/2024

2"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 4 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4 hg

Tube down length position: 18.1 cm
Pack: 7.7 cm

Length measure does not include 5mm flange.

A hair more length but less packing. Not enough sleep or hydration maybe that’s a factor. It’s official I do not have proper equipment, BUT I probably went overboard yesterday and ordered too much stuff just to be sure. Will sort all that out soon.

Weight: 179 @ 18.2% Not good but woke awfully early so not going to get alarmed yet.

Got through the workday great yesterday and trying to stay centered, but I seem to be blessed with an abundance of crazies in my life.

Thanks for the insight.

Heat increased the edema notably when I first started using it, but after a couple of months it’s barely noticeable.

So redness on the glans today. I’ll tell you there have been so many missteps on this journey it’s hard not to feel like a fuck up. I just threw out all the defective/damaged equipment and I’m just going to chill till the replacements come in before commencing again. I have for sure learned a thing or two but for sure it feels like I’m reinventing the wheel.

I can’t rule it out completely but given the progress I’ve seen with the short duration sets, I think it’ll be unlikely that I’ll go to long duration sufficient to get to therapeutic levels of heat in the tube. But who knows if I can ever sort this thing out with the equipment and sequence maybe I will get to a point where we see a plateau and that is the next way to go. From what I have seen though I do think there are gains available that have yet been realized from the traction work. I have to say that once we see that, I’m inclined towards a shift towards EQ and calling it. I don’t think I have an infinite mindset on this deal.

10/5/2024

Fast edge

Weight: 176.6 @ 17.9%

Yesterday activity level: 1X1.3 mile walk, Archery ~ 80 rounds, finished painting deck, reset fence post.

Yesterday I started the day with a walk then ran up to the archery range and was shooting rather poorly and realized that that I am doing so many things poorly because of all the time that the home projects are taking up and I decided I’m going home and I’m finishing the deck. Spend most of the day grinding that out and then I had one last thing to do I noticed a fence post that I had not secured so I knocked that off too and we are done!

I have to say that I was pretty exhausted, that was about 7 hours non stop of manual labor which I am not used to but mentally I needed that done. I’ve been at it since May and it was getting to me. Still feeling wiped this morning but now we’ll switch gears towards fitness and maybe a little fun. Intending on doubles on my days off, time to hit it hard.

Don’t know when all the pumping equipment will show up but soon I’ll have all the equipment I could possibly need to sort this out and we’ll get that going again.

10/6/2024

Fast edge

Weight: 177.2 @17.9% bodyfat

Yesterday activity : 2 X 1.3 mile walks

I feel like I crashed. Finishing up the home projects on Friday, I felt a massive let up in tension. Held it together and work went well yesterday but I told the girl I’m blown out, no way I can engage.

Woke early this morning and set a plan. I’ve got a hunt upcoming in 24 days so that’s all I got before there will be a 6 week disruption, so want to do a mini cut, get some lifting in and some archery range time. Doubles on my days off and lots of short walks to keep the activity level up. Will sort out the details today.

Let’s go!

10/7/2024

Fast edge

Weight: 176.8 @ 17.8% bodyfat

Yesterday activity level: 1X1.3 mile walk, 20 flights on the sledding hill with the 40lb vest ~ 45 minutes, Archery 87 rounds.

Good night sleep last night, need a few more like that. I need to work in the lifting. Not looking to hit the long term goals here, just drop a few lbs, get some lifting in and be more physically active.

Tracking says I might have some PE equipment by the end of the day so soon we’ll add that back.

10/8/2024

Quick edge

Weight: 178.2 @ 18.1%

Not much to report. First replacement of the pump/tube apparatus arrived and they sent a 2.25" tapered cylinder instead of the 1.75". So we’re still out of commission.

Yesterday activity: 1 X 1.3 mile walk. It’s getting colder, will have to do more on the days off.

Starting tomorrow.

10/9/2024

Quick edge

Weight: 177.6 @ 17.9%

Not much to report. Decided to keep the Pump/Tube assembly and just ordered another 1.75" tapered tube. When you start looking at the individual parts and the like it’s not worth the cost and I didn’t want to deal with returns. Also I want to have spare parts at my disposal.

Looking at the 2.25" tube maybe I’m naive but I don’t know how that would realistically ever be functional. I guess people do fisting. I don’t know.

It was cold, no activity yesterday. We’ll do a push today.

10/10/2024

2"X9" tapered tube

5 minutes @ 4 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4 hg
2 minute rest
5 minutes @ 4 hg

Tube down length position: 17.7 cm
Pack: 7.5 cm

Length measure does not include 5mm flange.

So we have new equipment and the 2" tapered tube is up and running. However at the end of the session once again there’s red patches on the glans. At this point it strikes me as a cluster fuck of a journey, running into one sequelae after another. It was not a matter of pulsing as the vacuum held perfectly. Now I am wondering if when I packed the 1.75" tapered tube that put too much pressure on the glans. Not sure where I go from here, maybe try lower pressure?

Weight: 178 @ 18.2%

Yesterday activity level: Archery ~ 75 rounds, 10 flights on the sledding hill with the 40lb vest, 1X1.3 mile walk. Cut the lawn.
I did not feel that yesterdays activity level was sufficient. I’m doing the archery off a platform and what I am noticing is that my core is not strong enough to keep me stable. I need to get stronger.

I’m alone for the weekend although I’m dog sitting, should be able to be more physically active.

10/11/2024

Fast edge

Weight: 178.2 @ 18.1

Except that I am doing some dog watching today I have the day to myself so plan to be very active. Yesterday activity: 1X1.3 mile walk

Glans bruising is improving. Only thing I’m going to do is the fast edge in the morning which is just bring up a full erection and that’s it. My theory is that I am not sexually active enough so that is a good practice to keep those functions working and to have that process in tact until we resume the pumping campaign. As far as that I am going to give it a full 10 days to let the glans have a good amount of time for the bruising to heal and then I’ll come back to it with very low pressure and see what the tolerance is.

Workouts, I have been favoring the archery because my conditioning was poor on that and I’ll continue that but somehow I am going to add the weights starting today. AndyJ suggested even just fitting in short workouts where I tuck in even just one movement and I think that is a good idea. We will see what I can fit in today. Given how tight my schedule is I need to be more flexible.

Sorted out the orders, so the full suite of new equipment should be here soon.

I ordered the lightening product that igigi recommended, what I was using was helping but also drying things out too much, I’ll report on that.

I have a client and his significant other is also a client. And he keeps her so fucking happy. He’s a sweet guy, very personable but also soft and lacking ambition but he treats her like a queen. I told him he’s doing a great job with her, that she’s very happy, and he thanked me for acknowledging that. It’s not that I’m unaware, I’m not ignorant and I have said it that I don’t want to be that guy and that is true. However, it probably is more true that I can’t be that guy, I don’t think that I have those skills, I see it, but I really don’t get it. Maybe I had too easy a time with women early on or maybe it was the hand that life gave me, but I just don’t give a fuck about those things. Maybe I should, but I don’t. You have to care about the consequences and when it comes to that, I just don’t.

Not everyone can be good at everything.