Buckfever's Clinical VED(pumping) Journal

10/22/2024

Fast edge

Weight: 177.4 @ 18%

Yesterday activity level: Walking 2X1.3 miles

I had a business issue to deal with which developed yesterday which was clouding my mind so got up early. Wouldn’t put too much stock in the weight reading as I had just pounded some fluids.

Basically there is a retarded family member of the leasing manager that proposed a mentally retarded idea to me out of left field and I asked if that had been run by management and they assured me they had. So I had to reach out to management and kindly point out the disastrous implications for a transition that is upcoming for them. Pretty clear from the initial response that they knew nothing of it. Just another fly in the ointment but it forced me to bring forward the thinking regarding the transition, which I wasn’t even going to start thinking about till next Spring. I think nepotism in business is mostly a bad idea, but when there is a clear and repeated history of abject failure, maybe cut them loose? Just saying.

Just a follow up on the lightening process. It’s been a few years since I last used the Admire my Skin brightening serum and the effect seemed different this time. So I did not research and apparently the FDA no longer permits hydroquinone without a RX so that is a different formulation. What this product seems to do now is basically force a peel and as the layers exfoliate the discoloration lightens. It’s improving the discoloration for sure but this new formulation seems much harsher and I imagine that it will have to be used intermittently and carefully.

10/23/3024

Fast Edge

Weight: 178.2 @ 18%

I forgot to take the weight right off and had a cup of coffee first so that reading is higher.

Yesterday activity level: Walking 2X1.3 miles

I was exhausted and feeling depleted yesterday, I suspect a combination of lack of sleep and work stress and had a couple extra servings of carbs. Slept better last night and should have an active day today.

I used a Neutrogena Norwegian hand cream as a moisturizer and that helped exfoliate and rehydrate the shaft tissues and so restarted using the brightening serum last night. I am being more careful not to get that on the glans tissues and then afterwards applying the moisturizer to the glans to protect it. That seems to have worked. There has been tremendous progress on brightening the darkened areas. I think we’re better than half way there.
I am not sure why the other product did not work the reviews are better but maybe it takes longer or maybe the source was not legit, hard to say

The girl is coming back around today so we’ll see how that goes, but I’m not going to approach so I imagine that if intimacy occurs again sometime in the future that will be the litmus test.

I’ll tell you one thing though and I suppose that it’s subject to criticism but there is a reason why I’d evolved towards being a monster in the bedroom. And that is despite the pervasive negative masculine narratives, there is no reward for being tepid in life and there is no short run narrative that will overcome eons of evolution of what manifests in attraction and arousal.

If I’m with a woman I view it my responsibility to fuck her brains out. And I am not suggesting being a brute or toxic whatever your style is have the courage to embrace it. But do not be dissuaded from throwing in on your back and handling your business.

10/24/2024

Fast Edge

Weight: 177.2 @ 18.1%

Yesterday activity level: Walk 3X1.3 miles, Archery: 54 rounds, 10 flights on the sledding hill with the 40lb vest

Have not been consistent with the meal plan, been grabbing extra carbs for fuel because of the lack of sleep. Finally got some sleep last night, but I’ll need a few consistent days.

The lightening treatment is going well. Would like that to be resolved before getting back to the pump.

Girl says she’s going to be around for a week and seems pleasant. I guess if intimacy happens we’ll see how she responds after what I’ll do to her in the bedroom.

I got to deal with an asshole client at work today after dealing with his wife a few days ago. I have to set him straight about what my role is, I don’t think he’s stupid, but now a days, you just never know.

10/25/2024

Fast Edge

Weight: 178.2 @ 18.1

Yesterday activity level: A big zero!

Is was too cold to walk in the morning and I was blown out from work to walk after. That said the work in progress and the cash flows already cover November so that’s good. Dealt with the husband client of the woman who drilled me a new one the other day I realized that it wasn’t him it was her. She’s just a nut case. He’s got some medical problems and is probably not laying down enough pipe to calm her down. In any event that issue is resolved and it was weighing on me as that was such an irrational objection. I met with the family member of the leasing director and pointed out that his proposal would most certainly derail their most profitable revenue stream. He acknowledged that he could see that.

It fascinates me that people don’t look around the corner and don’t pressure test their ideas. This guy and his family office has a history of disastrous business decisions it’s shocking to me how much wealth destruction has occurred, pursuing "ideas". You’ve squandered your birth right, my God STOP DIGGING. Must be nice.

I’m not happy about my weight but more so not happy about the muscle loss and lack of strength. I was behind on things and favored aerobics and archery. I won’t be able to get to it until after Thanksgiving but may do a little bit this weekend. For sure we’ll be more active today. I need to be patient. I’ll have a lot more time starting December 4th.

Oh I forgot I wanted to add. The discoloration is almost completely gone. It’s faint now I can still see a shadow of discoloration but it’s not noticeable. So I have to highly recommend the Admire My Skin brightening serum. The only thing after you apply it maybe sure you coat the glans tissues as the product is harsh and will cause a wound/burn. When the shaft tissues start to chaff, give the treatment a rest and moisturize to help the tissues exfoliate and rehydrate before treating again.

My return to pumping will be marked by avoiding discoloration as the primary driver.

Hi Buck!
How long have you been using the Admire My Skin serum on discoloration? And above all, how long did it take to show noticeable results?

I’m not sure if you use moisturizing genital oils during your pumping sessions, but they seem to help relieve issues like this.

Thanks for your time.

Okay so looking at the record I started on 9/30, however I switched to the other product for some days, before switching back, so I would say it took three weeks to get to this point. I would say that I saw improvements after just a few days.

I did try a lotion that did not work for me and I have a recommendation for an oil which I forgot about, I’ll get it today for when I resume the pump. Thanks for the reminder.

Buck, thank you so much for the information.
As I mentioned before, I’m closely following your journey and sharing your feedback in the Italian section. By December, I should be ready to start with the same protocol as yours. I really appreciate your willingness to help, and if you can, I’d be curious to know which oil you’re talking about!

One last thing, I checked the official Admire My Skin website and came across several products. Could you please specify exactly which one you’re referring to?

Thanks!

Best Brightening Serum for Dark Spots | Melasma Treatment – Admire My Skin

One of the oils that was recommended was an unscented generic mineral oil, but there were a number of others, in this thread and if you do a search it’s widely discussed

Another was the Bon Vital Therapeutic touch massage oil with olive oil…

Perfect, Buck, thanks again for the information provided!

10/26/2024

Fast edge:

Weight: 177.2 @18%

Yesterday activity level: Archery 37 rounds, Walking 3 X 1.3 miles

I’m going to stop with this idea of losing weight at this point, until 12/5. My schedule is too locked up until then after which I will have a lot more time through the winter and we’ll take another run at it. I don’t view this past effort as an entire waste because I am at striking distance, but nothing is going to happen until I can increase the activity level and have more predictable stability in my life. Soon though.

Got a better night of sleep yesterday woke up really groggy. That said the EQ this morning from the fast edge wasn’t as robust.

Having resumed the lightening treatment, we got another round of peeling this AM, so just used the mineral oil to moisturize. Probably just need one more round of treatment and we’re good to go.

The leasing director got back to me and says he agrees with me 100% and apologized that I had to get in the middle of dealing with the derelict family member.

The girl says that we’re good?!? Yeah well we’ll see what she thinks after she gets railed.

10/27/2024

Fast edge

Yesterday activity level: Walk 1.3 miles, .5 miles

The skin on the shaft continues to exfoliate so I am just moisturizing. It only took 5 days of applying the brightening serum this round for the skin to start exfoliating. I’ll stay with the moisturizer till that clears up and treat it one more time.

Sex was a mixed bag. I had lowered expectations telling her that I wasn’t sure how things would work given how long it’s been. But for sure my cock was the biggest I have ever seen it and her comment was she couldn’t get her hand around it. So that was good however, the rest of the sequence arousal to climax was off. That does happen with me after a long hiatus the first time back the systems seem out of sync. Maybe there is some benefit to masturbating to climax, but it’s just not my thing. I’ve heard about this semen retention thing, not sure it does anything for me but I really don’t know the subject matter. The daily short session of edging does seem to support erection quality though.

As far as the relationship, we actually had an adult conversation, she said that there was stuff buried that had come up that she had to work through and she had gone a little scorched earth. Now she wants to plow forward and I told her we’ll need to take it slow, that things will have to be better. We’ll see how it goes.

I have some hunting coming up it’s more of a social thing and then there’s Thanksgiving so no more working out or dieting till December. Taking a break from everything.

Slept well.

10/28/2024

Fast Edge - not robust concerns me a little.

Yesterday activity level: Had to go through my gear and pack the truck, took a good portion of the day so really not much but somehow still felt wiped.

Massive peeling today on the shaft tissues so in a day or 2 should be able to resume the treatment. Thinking it just needs another round.

I do not like that my life and mind is so cluttered. Need more time for leisure and to take care of myself. One of my buddies is forgoing this years hunt because he’s been on so many assignments with work that he’s never home and feels that he can’t take time away from his family. He’s in great shape though because his evenings when he’s away are his own and he’s been lifting 5 days a week. I thought about dropping the hunting and just getting to the weight lifting but I know that most things in my life that I’ve dropped with the idea of coming back to it wind up getting dropped permanently and these relationships are important to me. So we’ll stick with the plan.

Dec 4th we’ll get on the weights.

Don’t think we have long to go on the lighting treatment and we should soon be back on the pump.

I need to hydrate. I did not follow through on filling the pitcher at home on my days off. I did double the water consumption at the office though.

I need to get sexually active again, that is available to me I just have to fit it in. Everything gets crowded out. I have a couple of colleagues that are not sexually active, they look decent and are reasonably fit and I didn’t understand why that was so, but I can see how that can happen now.

Do you have your own barbell and weights?

If so, you might consider one set of lifts per day - deadlifts, overheads, etc. You don’t necessarily need a cage or power rack depending on what lifts you do.

Ten minutes to half an hour, depending on number of reps and rest periods. You could do them while waiting for dinner to cook, laundry, or listening to the babbling idiocy of what’s promoted as "news" on TV.