Reflections and Progress: thoughtfulgold

thoughtfulgold

>The problem I foresee with quick release wood clamps is inability to modulate the pressure any dynamic way. Clamps only compress a certain way creating a certain pressure pattern. Unlike wing nuts which can be precisely adjusted for the amount of pressure desired for the session. Clamps may be too tight or not tight enough given what trauma you’re seeking to inflict that day and with clamps being the main method you have to keep extras on hand. Screws and nuts likely cost less than clamps.

Good points. I was thinking of a single wood clamp somehow rigidly fixed to the aluminium plates. It certainly gives less flexibility.

>Additionally I foresee an issue with v pressure distribution. For Wing that’s gives you the ability to tighten proximal and distal sides of the device but wood clamps would be pretty much strictly the left or right side. Adjusting dynamically once again is lost.

Agreed

>Your method of construction, while extensive and obviously robust, sounds more than feasible if you have that level of resources for this. Honestly I wouldn’t mind having a TT built that way myself.

I have a workshop that should make it easy but just need the time to do it.

Regards
Austfred

Today, I went for a walk. I live in an area where there’s a nice gradual uphill gradient for miles south of me. So I walked 27 minutes uphill then 23 minutes back, cuz downhill is easier.

The idea is to get my knee back in working order. I dealt with the walk well. I had the right amount of water with me. I didn’t go too far. And I know in my mind, if I’m smart and push this month, I can melt the nickel and dime weight I picked up while I was recovering from surgery. I just need to walk hardcore. Something like 2 on, 1 off. And take the weekends off.

PE? Haven’t really been at it. Locked up my ruler and anything I can use to measure girth. I’m going to call it a decon and move on with my life.

Porn relapse? Last two days, fighting with the gf I did relapse. It isn’t the same, though. I can feel the influence waning. I don’t feel helpless. I can fight it. But stressed and not getting laid certainly weakens my resolve. I can handle this. The discipline of getting up and out each day will help. I plan on putting the work in. I’ve been putting the work in at therapy and now…with therapy at an end…it’s on me.

If you will not move forward on your own, no amount of pushing from an outside force will help.

I’m in the same boat with porn brother. Been failing lately but I’m actually getting sick, almost physically, of it.

My hardest time is at night, especially if I wake up in the middle of the night and am groggy.

Have you tried osteo BiFlex for the knee? Or tumeric maybe. Definitely a fish oil with as high a DHA level as you can find. Inflammation is good if its acute, which surgery will cause, or even weight lifting. Natural inflammation reducers like those actually allow some inflammation whereas over the counter stuff like ibuprofen can actually block too much. From what I understand acute inflamation is ok and you don’t want to block it completely but chronic inflammation is bad and probably requires stronger stuff.

Anyways, hope you heal up well. Glad you’re taking a laid back approach to PE. Enjoy the walks!

It’s too soon for chronic inflammation to be a factor. Though I’ll try some tumeric.

Porn is tough. I was in the throes of it last night and fought it. My body twitched, I scratched the underside of my chin like an addict and I literally said “I have no need for this.” 4 or 5 times and I pushed it down.

Maybe that ain’t the end of it but I know my triggers. There has to come a time when you say “No more triggers.”

Fitness and Rehabilitation: thoughtfulgold

This is my fitness log. When I do shit that qualifies or experience an event that effects my fitness level, there will be entries there. That way this log stays on topic and I can hold myself accountable and see what I’ve done to get to the goals I have long-term.

I have found with visual software, if you must use pictures, that a picture of your own penis measured with a caption of “Bigger” or “Growing larger” or some ilk is effective. It makes me tingle in a good way, because it reaffirms that inside of me. There’s countless ways to utilize this and many different wordings. I recommend a variety of measurement pictures, comparison shots, things that make your PE journey and your inevitable growth an obvious thing to your subconscious mind.

I have faith I think everything happens for a reason. Our body is the vehicle for the frequency that our soul generates and that entity wants to drive around and see/feel stuff. You may ask yourself what reason was there for my sweetheart to leave me or for that little boy who won’t be able to beat cancer, somewhere in the multiverses

There is a spirit that wants to see/feel that too

DeboraMelchoto

I’m afraid remarks like this are neither necessary, subject-related nor do they make sense.

Unfortunately all your posts show that pattern. Think about what you’re posting because you are scratching at the borders of trolling behaviour.

This is meant as a friendly warning.

Richard65

Wording of your subliminal must match the things that in your mind make you tingle. Make you happy. Your deep-seated goals and desires must come out in the words you use. This will boost everything about the mentality you carry. Not only through PE, if this is what you’re messages are about, but through life because your deep-seated goals and desires…when you feel like you’re achieving them one day at a time your entire life will begin to shine.

Put on subliminal audio.
Done in front of computer, with subliminal visuals (which are on anyway when I’m using the machine)

Edging 10 mins warmup
4 TG Squeezes 15 second duration
1 ULI#3 10 second duration
4 compass stretches. One following each leg. Two upwards to the left and right.
Massage warmdown

Other notes

This routine or half of it is one I do every other day or every 2 days. It is literally just as I think of it and am in the mood for not masturbating or sex.

Take special care with these exercises. When performed at full intensity it fatigues my hands and makes them shaky and weak for a while afterwards.

These exercises also builds up much pressure in the penis. This can be unsafe for some people without a certain level of experience. Take especially prudent care when building a routine around intense manual exercises.

I do till I get a warm feeling in my penis, worked over but not hurt. And it does not take a ton to get there.

The TakeAway?

Your hands are strong enough to injure you!

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DeboraMelchoto

I’m afraid remarks like this are neither necessary, subject-related nor do they make sense.

Unfortunately all your posts show that pattern. Think about what you’re posting because you are scratching at the borders of trolling behaviour.

This is meant as a friendly warning.

Richard65

Good looking out but it does make alot of sense. Like when someone wants to kill themselves, it’s like smashing an fm radio and expecting to kill the signal along with it. I thought It’d fit ok in here since it has to do with deep thinking and the body/mind and because I read tg write something about having faith. The spirits have alot to do with my faith and maybe your eyes can’t see this nor your ears hear but it does make sense and far from a trolling

Just read this article which provides some scientific support for the negative impact of porn in younger men. My apologies if this old hat.

Lifestyle | Daily Life | News | The Sydney Morning Herald

However in older men such as myself I find ED is a result of age related reducing stamina related to lower test and overall fitness. Taking test boosters such as Trib certainly helps as does exercise and Viagra or Cialis. PE also helps especially pumping.

It is the short version of the "Yourbrainonporn" link you can watch on Youtube or visit on its website. It isn’t old hat, just another condensed version of why porn is dangerous to a young boy.

I chatted with the lady who sold me the device, who told me to call Bathmate with my troubles. Cuz in my opinion the Extreme series is more fiddly than the original series. With good reason, as the old valves didn’t turn and have a finicky hose attachment that comes loose.

However. I went into the tub and messed with the device. And I found that the reason I’m upset with it is because it requires two hands to apply and I usually need one hand to handle my erection and keep it at its hardest for the pump.

I figured this out by filling it with cool water and pressurizing it on my mighty pectoral muscle. It wasn’t finicky or ridiculous and when I removed the hose, it maintained the pressure in the tube with no issue. So, if I have the valve turned the proper way, the switch flicked the proper way, the switch on the ball flicked the proper way…I can engage the device with no problems.

Still sounds fiddly as fuck to me, but I’ll be updating this log this week…with me getting back in the tube…with a vengeance!

I spoke to an old friend via an instant messenger system. She isn’t the same person I knew from 10 years past. But neither am I.

Problem is, we both spent a decade on something. We both divulged this “thing” in a ten minute span. And it cheapened part of us. To speak so ‘Cliff Notes’ about things that mattered to us, that shaped our hearts and souls. And, because I lost someone I confided in who helped me through the hard parts of both PE and my life in the last 4 years…I reached out to her as a replacement and likely have sacrificed a friendship. Just because I mentioned mailing a fucking penis pump to a customer.

I had been tossing around mentioning it for ages. I made the poor choice. And now…I reap the consequences. And honestly, the fact that she’s not comfortable talking about it made the mention even more “well I appreciate the philosophy” and made basically my entire creed just ‘kinda nifty’ cuz she ‘appreciates’ it. I won’t mention PE to anyone outside of in person, again. Not in life if I’m not helping a guy online. Because only in the context of giving advice am I ever typing that up again.

I knew the risks. I knew the psychology of communication had changed. But…*had* to test it. I had to try. Then, I pushed someone already anxious into a state where she’s likely panicking. And awkwarded away.

Ah well. I’m as abrasive as a cup of bleach in my real life and she was never meant to be. It’s why more than a decade passed since we’d seriously spoken. I learn, I live and learn like anyone else.

If I talk about the inside of me, you will see my eyes. Whoever else I decide to let in.