Reflections and Progress: thoughtfulgold

Hanging. I think this is for advanced ones.

Yeah, I know that you have great experience of PE.

I m just wondering.What’s the difference between clamping and hanging?☺

Hanging requires you to hang weight from your penis. Clamping inhibits bloodflow to cause expansion. They are completely different.

After my hanging fiasco I’ve decided to double down on subliminal messages.

I’m using a software called “SilentIdeas” which is easy to Google and easy to use, once downloaded. Type in your affirmations one at a time or in a text format using a .txt file and the format specified and upload them that way. It flashes sentences you pick, images with phrases, also has a sounds option (not using it) and does this in quick flashes in red text on the screen. It does it at random places and text sizes. Runs in the background of your processes.

If you have epilepsy or seizures, do not use this or any other similar software!!

It took me a couple hours to configure, with finding non pornographic images to inspire myself with. I’m still working on it but the working copy is useful and not too intrusive. However, it is going to blink things on your screen without the consent of who sits in it so if you share the PC, you should probably turn the software off or use a password and different user profiles so you don’t expose others to your subliminal messages.

Personally, I have taken to the bombardment of my subconscious mind well. I like the usage of it. But…it may not be for everyone. This level of commitment is borderline in intruding in your daily life. The subliminals can be set to run on certain days of the week but is defaulted to every day. Of course, bombardment works faster the more you do it. And, the free version has to be restarted every 15 minutes (that window just popped up). But…usage of this may be up your alley. Depends on where you stand and how you want to approach your PE campaign.

I may try a different software. I’m very hesitant to buy software like this and do not like the 15 minute restart ‘feature’ but, as so many versions exist and the internet doesn’t encourage wasting money when software is easily duplicated, cracked or plagiarized. Do a bit of legwork if it interests you. Affirmations are a great tool but not for everyone.

That was my PE accomplishment for the day. Perhaps tomorrow I’ll do my own subliminal audio (that was my original purpose in today’s journey but…this seemed interesting enough)

**I found more information that I speak on this topic here: Subliminal Message Software Redux: “How-To” and “Why Should You?”

BPEL- 9.13” or 23.2cm (+.13”)
MSEG- 6.31” or 16.1cm (+.21)
BEG- 7.67” or 19.5cm (+.47”)

Duly note that MSEG has been fluctuating this entire time and has gotten as high as some 6.4” measurements that I assume are error. However, trending upwards from 6.25” appears to be the same thing I noted earlier in the month when I wrote about how lube has become mandatory. The liberal use of the TG Squeeze is likely the cause here. I feel some increased CS definition around the mid shaft that I really like. I will mark an official measurement again in late August.

BEG has only been kept track of since 7.2-7.25” and is hard to measure. It ranges from 7.46-7.67” at this point. Only important for tube considerations but still notable.

BPEL fluctuates. Mostly with EQ and I can’t quite snag a 10EQ erection for the measuring. It hangs just above the 23cm mark. And…I’ve hit bottom in the girlfriend far more reliably with my better sex EQ. These are the only notes I can make.

The hanging thing didn’t pan out. I didn’t like it. I couldn’t really stand it after the tenth day. Now, I’ve done a fair bit of work this cycle. How do I finish it? Do I take Decon early and just attack PE some other way?

Current options:

Bathmate X50- I think I snagged a touch of base girth from hanging again. Enough that I’m more confident in making it seal around me and seeing what I can about making that device work for me. I’m still very intrigued with Water pumping and my Penomet, as much as I loved the concept, bit too much at the base and left gaiter marks on my cock after the workouts. Going with clamping, ULI’s and Bathmate may be a winner, if I don’t mind getting water everywhere learning how to seal and pressurize it fluently like I did the Penomet.

Tiger Trap- I have the parts for it. I just need to cut the wood and drill the holes…and get a new set of screws. I haven’t decided if I want to go thick for torque reasons or not. I know a thinner screw with a smaller wingnut will be harder to tighten. Thicker screws, like the 1/2” ones you have to go long, like 6-10” and get 4 of them. That costs nearly $20 at Home Depot and I’m not exactly flush with cash right now for that project. I want to try it (and my theoretical Tiger Trap mod) but…not going to compromise bills to do PE. Did enough of that in my younger days. *laughs*

Air Pumping in conjunction with Clamping/ULI's- I have a tube project going on where I may be able to customize a tube to fit my curve better. Either a curved tube or one that narrows somewhat up the length of the cylinder. I’m leaning towards the latter, a cone would still force me to be straight when I packed it. Plus I would be able to progress my base girth and actually get a 2.5” base instead of packing the 2.25” pretty much on entry. Sourcing said tube is tricky, as the person I’m working with is very busy. So this is not exactly high on the list. Also, said tube isn’t going to be cheap either. At least $150 and this is a small price, in my opinion, for a shot at curve correction that I’m pretty sure should work.

Decon- I can go back on Decon for a month or two. Get back to work and then do PE when it comes back to mind again. Brainstorm some different ideas and run with them. On a bad knee I can’t do martial arts and other things in the interim though, and gaming is not a good enough timesink. So I don’t want to conclude the cycle too early. I may be given no choice though.

Subliminal progress-Day 2 and I feel more focused and confident. I definitely notice a tendency to think about PE and my penis more. Which may be a bit much for normal life but…I have to figure out exactly how I want to approach this. So far, I’m more focused on other fronts as well. As I opted to use some of the “Personal Development” affirmations built into the software and this has upped my attention span back over 4 minutes and actually got me focusing like the days of reading paper books. *gasps* Still a developing story.

That’s it for the update for now. I’ll likely update the log next with a routine idea within the week.

I took it into the bathroom. I decided to fill it with water and get to know how it holds and discharges water. It is not exactly intuitive. As when I pulled the pump out and filled it to the gaiter, no water came out of the top valve. As soon as I filled the pump past that to capacity water started to flow. Flipping the switch alleviated this. However, when I pulled it on the first time…I couldn’t get it to release any water.

That was alleviated by my second attempt, pressing the valve inwards as I pulled the pump into my groin. However, I’m unsure if the switch has to be in a certain position to not inhale water when I let go of the pump. I do not find using the squeeze ball works for me at all. But when I got pressure, I got a huge air bubble, much like when I was first learning the Penomet.

However, the Penomet doesn’t carry a bunch of sad connotations for me and subconsciously make me feel bad. I don’t feel I effectively used the bathmate and I kept losing erection and being unable to gain it again without serious effort. I may have to sell the damn thing.

I’ll give it another try later this week but…it may be entering my blowout sale soon. *sighs*

Put on Subliminal audio
Edged for one hour
Lightweight stretching
5 ULI’s, full OK grip force for 10-18 second travel time

Other notes

A good ULI, in my opinion, loosens the base OK grip to kegel more blood in during the exercise. Also, make sure the CS is already at maximum pressure before you start. So kegel in lots of blood. It may take a minute or so. But when your base OK grip and your upper OK grip both have a tight and full CS (the bottom portion of the penis that inflates) you will get a more intense exercise. Doing it this way is more potent than the TG Creeping Squeeze, in my opinion

I’ve seen some girth gains, unofficial, but the last few days have yielded a solid average of 6.25” as the Mode, 6.2” and I haven’t taken a Mean because I haven’t tabulated exactly how many occurances of each there have been to get a solid enough Mean calculation. However, with 6.25” as the Mode and 6.3” as pretty repeatable…I’m leaning to 6.25” for speaking purposes, though my signature will not reflect any change. I’ve spoken on this before but…this part of my journey is one I’ll only chat about personally in my logs. I may make it official sooner than late August. Or…maybe I’ll wait till the cycle concludes. I’m unsure.

Also, looking at the IR lamp…I’m probably going to the Home Depot to get something more solid as a clamp lamp. The Amazon thing I bought won’t attach solidly enough to the desk and I want heat for my manual exercises for once. Which is what I bought the thing for but almost never got to happen.

And another thing, I like the visual subliminal software. I programmed in the same things I use for affirmations and did some pictures for inspiration. And I feel larger and a couple days later I measure the biggest girth measurement ever midshaft. Coincidence? I think not. But it is sometimes distracting, especially as my subconscious reading speed makes the text more visible the longer I use the software (I can read SUPER fast now).

As I recorded in my last photo update Updated girth pictures 7-28-17 I’ve seen higher marks now at the mid shaft, at the mole, than I ever have in my entire life.

For those reading this log, you know I was around a week or so off of hanging and doing nothing too much but some TG squeezes here and there before hopping on the Subliminal Message bandwagon. Once again, I can’t tell you what to do and I do also encourage caution if you use subliminal messages to influence yourself.

However, I’ve noted what I think are much better results than normal because my mind is primed for every aspect of gaining I can imagine. Research positive affirmations, hypnosis and subliminal messages. I’ve been using all 3 of these to some good effect and I *feel* more energetic and happier than ever. It manifesting in PE results is just a natural byproduct of my mindset changing and me empowering myself to allow my mind to shape my body and reality.

BPEL- 9.25” or 23.5cm (+12”)
MSEG-6.375” or 16.2cm (+125”)
BEG- 7.55” or 19.2cm (-.12”)

Which, if I’m keeping track (and I just checked my statistics…) literally means I’ve gained exactly 2” in girth and 3” in length since I’ve started! This being the 29th of July, it is literally a couple days before my 8th year mark of PE. So…it took me exactly 8 years to gain what I have. And I’ve tried more things than I can name. And my size has fluctuated many times. But…it’s finally cresting the point of no return, the numbers have trended upwards…past where I ever thought they would go. The funny thing about that…those measurements, I still trend upwards past that MSEG. But that’s my Mode or most frequently seen high marker. Actually, I see 16.4cm or 6.45” pretty often now. So I’m primed for that but…we will see, around say my birthday or so…how I stand. No idea why base girth fluctuates so much but ULI#3 and the TG Creeping Squeeze really don’t interact with it much so with any luck it’ll stay stable so the rest of the shaft can catch up.

Honestly, I’m so happy with the progress and the mindset that the visual subliminals have helped solidify that…I have no doubt I can continue to gain until I am satisfied. It is such an amazing feeling!

Maybe a post on your subliminals would be possible? A Google has turned up too many possibilities. Thanks TG.

I posted this just above your original comment, probably 2 weeks ago.

Visual Subliminal Software and a link here in that post:

Subliminal Message Software Redux: "How-To" and "Why Should You?"

Or are you asking something else?

***Edit: I think you’re asking about the construction of a subliminal message and I like this lady’s explanation. She’s the one who created the software I use. Goes a bit into the history of it.

Subliminal Messages Definition | Mind of a Winner

If you’ve played with affirmations before, you’ll see some obvious and simplistic correlations.

Hi TG. Not sure how I missed that, however thanks. Also glad you are in a good space. You reminded me to stop ruminating and get back onto the positive path.

When I started this hypnosis, subliminal, positive affirmation and reality changing journey…my PE goal was simple: I wanted to be my own porn star. I wanted to impress myself. I wanted to reach a place where I was so happy I could laugh at my former porn addiction because I would *feel* amazing enough that the stimulus from porn wouldn’t even matter. I held that ideal close each day, every bit of research I did, every new recording I tried.

This week, things changed and shifted. I *felt* different and I started seeing my penis differently. I measured and I haven’t pumped at all this week. I have no post workout plumpness in my recent pictures on my log here or here. This is just me. On a good day. Which is every day now.

That is the key. Every day is a good day. I take this mindset and I run with it. I will do some freestyle working out, just a few TG squeezes a day, meaning like 2 or 3. Or just some basic Kegel Squeezes, 2 or 3. Nothing heavy. Nothing that requires a time constraint. Honestly, nothing notable. I’ve literally lightened my load and started living my life away from the computer and without as much PE. I simply see no need to stay stuck on it all the time to get results. I think part of this is the confidence from the visual subliminal but the key element there? Everything in a subliminal message that will work has to be things that you have to already want and believe.

A key element of any hypnosis/subliminal/positive affirmation is that it must ring true with the beholder. A quote from a study testing subliminals with Lipton Iced tea showed that it had a great success rate, 71% of participants picked it over the other tea…but only the thirsty participants. Meaning, the end goal was to drink something as it was. But only the ones who wanted to drink, drank Lipton per the suggestion. Meaning your subliminal message ultimately has to be something you actually believe and want for yourself!

I am in the positive feedback loop of what it is I truly want. I have broken my plateau in girth after 3 years of oscillating from 5.875-6.25” and I couldn’t be happier. This is the sweetspot of gains. This is where anyone trying to do something really needs to get to, in order to see real victory!

I went back to porn last night. Orgasmed, whole nine yards. Afterwards, I laughed. I looked at what I was looking at with an objective eye. I was not impressed. I saw through the camera tricks, cheesy dialog and text…and I realized…I am my own porn star. What do I need them for?

This is where I am and the path to where I want to be.

It is always our own choice. And when you realize it is the only choice, you will never deviate from it again.

You know you have the odds stacked against you when you’re doing an intermediate woodwork project on the living room floor with wood clamped to spare wood, using a drill at a funny angle.

It was no surprise that my 4 holes didn’t line up with the other piece of wood, making it an uncloseable device with long bolts sticking out. Also, 1/4” bolts diameter? Thin enough to bend on accident. I went 1/2” last time, at a greatly increased cost but never got the wood to work as I split it with the bit I had at the time.

So I suppose…it’s back to the drawing board. Though, without a workbench, table, vise or saws of my own it seems like I may be out of luck as far as a Tiger Trap is concerned. *sighs*

thoughtfulgold

I am also planning on building a TT but have not done so yet because of other projects etc. But what I am thinking of is using two square plates made out of aluminium thick enough not to bend ( say 1/4” thick) to which I intend to glue triangular cross section wood strips using epoxy glue. Think I could line up the 4 holes for the bolts by drilling the holes in a drill press with the plates lined up on on top of the other before I glue the wood strips but I would like to try using a small quick release wood clamp instead of the wing nuts but won’t be able to see if that is practicable until I get around to fabricating the plates. What do you think about this?

The problem I foresee with quick release wood clamps is inability to modulate the pressure any dynamic way. Clamps only compress a certain way creating a certain pressure pattern. Unlike wing nuts which can be precisely adjusted for the amount of pressure desired for the session. Clamps may be too tight or not tight enough given what trauma you’re seeking to inflict that day and with clamps being the main method you have to keep extras on hand. Screws and nuts likely cost less than clamps.

Additionally I foresee an issue with v pressure distribution. For Wing that’s gives you the ability to tighten proximal and distal sides of the device but wood clamps would be pretty much strictly the left or right side. Adjusting dynamically once again is lost.

Your method of construction, while extensive and obviously robust, sounds more than feasible if you have that level of resources for this. Honestly I wouldn’t mind having a TT built that way myself.