Hi there. TG here again.
Today, is me celebrating my 9 year annversary of performing PE, me updating my signature stats for the first time since Christmas of 2016 and…this post is my 5000th on Thunder’s Place. For me, it’s a big occasion. Big enough that I’m going to go out for lunch so that I have time to type and reflect on this. Big enough that it will get an entry in my methods list in my signature.
Big enough that I can literally say…I never thought I would get this far…
That is in all honesty. For about a week now I knew this post was coming up. That my 9 year anniversary was coming up. That maybe I should post something but…I didn’t draft anything. No index card speech for an Academy Award. I ain’t an actor or singer. I’m just some dude who got really good at tugging on his dick in creative ways…and this is me looking back.
Beginning
My first phase of PE was plagued with insecurity. Of me having sex with my first partner and absolutely sure I had a deformed and shitty little penis. That was why I bought the X4 labs extender. That was why this journey started in August of 2009. My curvature insecurity. I bought that device and supplements during this time. All bunk, too.
My starting stats were 6.25x4.375” with a 4.9” (never 5”) base. I recall this because I thought reaching 5” throughout would be so huge. I remember sitting in my bed trying to get as hard as possible. Just to measure again and again. I digress.
It wasn’t the girlfriend (my very first) complaining I wasn’t big enough. It never was that. The sex was decent, enough that I kept coming back, and good enough for her that she insisted on letting me know on a regular basis. It wouldn’t compare to sex later, when my EQ and skill was better, but some of this needs to be said now. Additionally, she had pelvic floor problems. So my perceived lack of friction wasn’t just based on my size, as she had other issues she was treated for that had Pelvic Control muscle symptoms. This lasted 1 to 1.5 years, the duration of the relationship in question incidentally. I ended this phase at around 7.25x5.” or a touch larger. My girth was barely enough to hold a magnum condom on at the base, which was 5.5” at the end of the phase.
Marked traumas that happened here was an ex as big as a Campbell’s soup can, which is roundly false and her description varied wildly.
Time- 1 year to 1.5 years.
Size-
Starting: 6.25x4.375”
Ending: 7.25x5”
Dark Days
My second phase of PE was my most exploratory. I call it my “Dark Days”
I tried to spend money on a lot of little things at this time. This is when the cheap Cal-exotics pumps were coming into my life. When I was trying clamping (way too early, girth and technique were nowhere near what they needed to be as well as knowledge) and I also bought my Bib Hangers and hurt myself the first time with them in this phase. I bought my DP4000 pump at this time as well and got exactly nothing accomplished with it also. This is when I bought my equipment from matters of size also. I spent the most money during this time out of the $15,000 that I credit my PE with costing.
I went through a toxic relationship and started sleeping around in this phase of PE. This lasts for probably 3 years or so. I was probably 7.75-8” BPEL and 5.5-5.75” in MSEG at this time. My base girth is around 6.25” at this time or a bit larger. During this phase I basically blew through condom sizes sold in the US due to my conical shape and was in strictly Magnum XL and not having them fit properly or comfortably.
Marked traumas were the existence of the pink toy linked earlier in this log and being tormented by another soup/soda can ex story.
Time- 4 to 4.5 years total.
Size- 8x5.5”
Enlightenment
My third phase of PE was my most enlightened. Starting in 2013 around April I started seeing myself differently with the help of a female friend who still is with me today, and my favorite ex girlfriend. We met on 4/27/13 and on the shred of a chance she’s reading this…It’s over 5 years later, we don’t talk and your impact on me still resounds. Part of me will always be grateful and still loves you.
I spent the time from 2013 to 2016 engaging in learned and willful decisions. This is when I engaged in my best PE. I was with Big Al during some of this time, I learned to use my DP 4000 better and I went back to hanging and got some gaining done. Additionally, I got my skin tag on the left side of my penis surgically removed (which due to the nature of the tissue was not anesthetized, never again) corrected some of my curvature, added some EQ and length. This is when I started going with advanced manuals and also learned proper manual stretching techniques. I also outgrew my extender bases at this point.
With the support of my girlfriend and her constant encouragement I saw incredible size increases and efficiency in my PE. But with the support of my best friend I saw the ghosts of the past finally die. I stopped chasing soup cans and started appreciating the penis I had created.
A step forward, after negotiating the trauma, was joining this place in July of 2016 looking for silicone pumping sleeve information. I started contributing and reflecting at this time and prepared for my current phase.
Marked traumas were unearthing deep wounds that fueled my inferiority complex. Owning those wounds I forced women to give me, that I extrapolated. That I created. Realizing that my size now is already past the ability for most women to comfortably handle. Realizing that vaginal tearing and cervical bruising would become commonplace and part and parcel with sex.
Time-7.25 years or so.
Size- 9x6” at end of 2016 but is more like 8.85x5.8”
Magnum Opus
This phase is my most dynamic. It is marked by revisitation of ALL of my old methods. I spend a lot of money in this almost 2 year span trying some new things and old things again.
I revisit hanging, automated pumping and Bathmate by buying an X50 Extreme as well as revisiting my Penomet prior to this purchase. Hanging and the X50 do not go well. I buy more horse shoe cock rings, purchasing one for sex that works very well, and more Xsleeve sleeves.
I also experiment with IPR theory and multiple clamps. This gets me safely over the 6” MSEG hump and I start researching PE4F in June of 2017. It wouldn’t be until January of 2018 that I am ready to try it. Then it wouldn’t be until July that I am able to test my theory of combining it with clamping before and after the time in the tube.
This phase is marked by my meticulous logging of PE time. Particularly any pumping experiments. It comes to my mind that my best gains after extending came from clamping and pumping which brings me to the present day. It is also marked by my emphasis on the use of heat for everything. Prior to this phase I didn’t use heat much, if at all. But in this phase I go through 4 different heating pads, a space heater and heating lamp before settling on something for any and every exercise and device usage.
As of now, this writing, my stats are 9.25x6.18” at the MSEG measure and 7.3” at the base. I am pursuing a high pressure pumping routine and just passing session 50 total on that.
Time- 9 years as best can be measured
Size- 9.25x6.18”
Victory
At this point my next phase is quite simply the Incarnation of all of my desires manifesting. As a PE practitioner I do not feel then I need to continue to evolve because I have opened my mind to any and every possibility that methods can still add me in my Journey.
I realize that how far I’ve come anything extra that I get is simply icing on the cake. I have ascended past the phase in my life where I need to be bigger. I understand intrinsically inside my heart and soul that whatever it is I desire shall come to pass. That my body is simply an extension of my will. Be it here in a PE context or otherwise.
Me 9 years ago would have never made it here. The person that I evolved into over these years deserves to be here. The person I am now will continue forward as long as he pleases and for no other reason.
Time- Yet to be determined
Size- Limited only by effort
Because I have won.